asalamualaikum.....

here i wanna sae dat....
i'm sori for avoiding ppl ....
but it's just so complicated....
i'm still a fwn of ur for sure......
dat's wat i can ensure you alwaes....

feel so bad for make ppl feel so small....
dat's y i hate 2 hurt pple's feeling....
feels so bad doing dat...
but wat i can do??
dat's life & i nid 2 adapt 2 it...

'berhenti mengharap'.....
dis phrase realli remains me of the past....
yah... realli i does....
i still do miss hym sometime....
hais...

will time heel de wounds???
it's true???

deadlY tirEd . . . . . . .

coNfusioN . . . . .

dEad . . . .

lOst . . . . . .

bOOOoooOO!!!!

1stli i'm soooo de soRi dat thIngs gOes wrOng jst nw....

i'll maKe it uP oTey oNe dae....

2ndlI i had a GreAt time 2Dae gOin oUt wiF mY HI-6 cLan...

hehe.. nIce naMe hUh... uNiqUe....

aniWae... wen fUnAn 2 haF diNNer....

den weN 2 HaF beN & jeRRy afTer daT....

heaVen!!!!

afTer whIch weNt esPlanaDe 2 LEPak....

ramai sIak mat REp... reMas dOk...

hahaha....

kepT takiNg piCs here n DerE,...

fuNN !!!

bUt thOse piCs mUsrt waIt 4 nUruL 2 uPloAd....

" NURUL CPT LA UPLOAD!!!"

oVeralL... i juSt love dIs pIc... nIce!!!!

DAT'S YANA & FAEZA.....

camat pagy peoPle!!!!

tyke care......

bYe.....!!

areNt being myself nwadeas....

halF oF me is nT here....

missIng somethin bit by bit....

but i'm not sure wat it is....

hais....

assalamualaikum to all....
hahaha....
was slacking @ home all de wae.....
sian la sial!!!
i wanna go out wif haira....
girl....!!! dun 4get our date dis fri....
hahaha....

wen out 2 mit bestie....
miss her lots....
talk abt peribahase dat she herself gt it wronng...
so funny la her.....
eventhough it was jst a while i do treasure it.... =)

at last i noe wat's happening....
good thing it was settle....
1 less thing to tink abt nw....

random thoughs...
i miss going 2 skul nw....
miting my fwns & faciS....
crazy-ing wif my cLans...
lepak-ing wif them...
talking craps....
disturbing ppl.....
gosh....
=(

pelik la FAEZA!!!!
ape kene tah ni bdk....
tsk2....
mayb bcoz of de fever dat i had dis morning....
i dun wanna fall sick pleaseeee!!!

kept missing hym dis few daes....
random siak FAEZA!!!!!!!!
wat does dat mean den???
wat haira sae might be true but....
nta la... tk perlu seh ni smue....
dun wan to spoilt wat i haf nw by all dis stupid things....
nt worth after all...
hais....
dis is sux... bodoh la...!!!!
can i just act as if nth happen??
till wen can i endure all dis & lying 2 myself ni FAEZA???
haiyooo!!!!
or shud i just dump dat feeling into de laut dlm2...??
hmmmm....
tink faeza tink tink!!!!
sob2....

saded!!! i mish eating my ben n jerry ice cream..... =(
can i have dat on fri PWISH HAIRA!!!
hahahaha....

ohhhh yah.....
y mst i gado wif hym??
wat a question he posted 2 me seh....
i'm so de innocent le...
god pleasee!!!
i dun wan dat 2 happen....
small kid scared....

nid 2 slp earli le...
if nt he'll nag n nag @ me...
hehehe....
camat mlm....!!!

decided to blog at this time....
I LUV DIS PICX & I LUV MY ADEQ HAIRA 2!!!!
hahaha... took dis @ ben n jerry nye kedai...
had my fav ice cream.... YUMMY2!!!!
den as per nrml lepak wif my dis giler fwn of mine...
crappin & laughing....
onli us making hell out of noise dere...
take picx was de best part lor....
den back 2 wdlds 4 tuition....

lol.... goshh... i'm werking later yet haven slp...
FAEZA!!! wat's de hell happening to u????
dun emo2 la faeza.... tsk2....
smth just doesnt goes rite for me.....
de feeling is so de nt good....
ani1 cn jst tell me y???
sobx2.....


been working all dis while.... keje2 till naik mendak seh.... bt wat to do.... rather den rotting...
so yah.... here am i werking non stop.... bt gt money later 2 shop2.... wEE!!!!
2dae was a shockin dae 4 me coz my DADDY came 2 mit me @ workplace....
been awhile dat i met hym n jst nw i really was happy 2 mit hym lor....
bt rite it's just so complicated la..... damn confusing.....
dat's wen confusion occurs.....
hahah...
MEREPEK LA FAEZA....!!!!

life startin 2 get more painful n irritating at times....
like wat my DADDY sae i'm just nt readi 2 accpt ppl....
bt in my heart i tink i've found some1 dat fit it my heart....
BUT.....
mayb it might not be de right person....
i just scared to be hurt again ....
trust me... i'm TIRED!!!

dae after dae i'm missing something in my life....
de feeling of incompletance is alwaes dere....
n it's sux 2 de max,....

sometime i just sit n thought for a moment...
wat i wan i life.....???
since wen is faeza an emo kid...???
adakah silapku untuk menyintai dirimu??
will dere be hope or shud i just dun bother abt it???

i wonder.....
all left unwritten....
damn it!!!

will i be able to leave evey single past of mine behind and look at de bright side nw???
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
onli god noes it.....

happy reading okie adeq.... n camat pagi 2 u...!!! =)

uPdatIngggGGG.....

hahaha... gonNa sHare thIngs that happen LaSt week.....

let me start bY sayIng "THANK YOU ABG ZAKI 4 DE LOLIPOPS....!!!"

after uT wen 4 a 'SIBLING DATE' @ airport....

hahaha.... wen for dinner 1st coz i veri hungry.....

den wen tour ard airport....

from T3 to T1 @ last ....

was daMn tired la....

walk2 till lOSt coz dun nOe where de viewiNg mall daT i alWaEs gO.....

hahaha... tanx eh aBg for mAking me seSat aRd airpOrt...

liKe tOurisT sIA.... hahaha

tOOk sO maNy maNy manY piCs @ de sKy tRain & alsO tRainss.....

sOOOoooo daMn fuN la TiLL tK iGt nK baLIk... hahaha...

verY verY selDom 2 get 2 sPend tIme wiF my dIs bRothEr la....

bz all De waY... hahahaha....

aFter a vEry lOng2 daE..... we decIded 2 gO hOme.... wEEeee!!!..

HAPPY DAE FOR ME.!!!!!

diS piCs i EdiTed fOr mY bRo.... mUst cOmMeNt wHich 1 nIce oK abg....

hahahaha.... best 4 fotoS dat i Like....

mon 26/5 was abg zaki's burfdae offically......

was so damn happi coz he's turning 20 yrs old n i'm onli 2 yrs old....

wahahahaha!!!!!

bought for hym slice of ice-cream cake & also a shirt....

hope u reallY like it....

sooooo de sorry i didnt wrap the pResent up for you abg.....

& also it does not turn 2 be dat fun la....

hais....

but i really hope u enjoy ur dae & de time we went ouT la.....

ABG!!!! 'GILER!!!' HAHAHAHAH......

dat's all i guess for nw....

will update soon abt Other things...

nw like no tiMe hahaha...

1 mOre thing....

FAEZA DUN SLACK ANIMORE....!!!

i'm scared of my fyp cnt dooooo!!!.....

haiRa tanx you for being dere weN i in nEEd of sum1.....

lUv you....

tata....

HAPPY 20TH BURFDAE LOST KID.....

hahaha.... @ last i'm like 2YRS OLD.... tsk2....

wanna blog alot2 of things....

dis yr's burfdae is de special yet saddening one....

have been blowing candles for like 3 time....

WEEEEEEeee!!! really had so much fun dis few daes....

had celebration @ workplace wif my dear viVian on de 19th may....

hahaha... she bought alot2 of food.... cakes..... donuts..... hahaha....

all my fav bt i cnt eat everything!!! hahaha...

dis is de cake dat she bought 4 me.....

hahaha... nxt was on tues.... i was surprised dat my E44a classmates

made dis celebration for me....

awwwww!!! i'm so touched by their actions....

thank you IRSYAD for planning dis.....!!!

dis's my 2nd cake frm my e44A pEEps.....

back to my E25H class..... dey wishes me.....

isHak sanG dis burfdae song 2 me.... tanx you....

weds was my big dae.... hahahaha.... so damn happi...

but i noe dat i wun be dat happy coz something wont be going as planned.....

hais.... i just dun wan dat 2 happen.... but i cnt do anithing....

goSh... oh well.....

had lunch wif anwar, sean, gf & syahril....

was really fun spending time wif them.....

laugh and laugh and laugh till stomach painnn......

den wen back 2 sch coz my abg call me back....

spend time wif them and suddenli cake pop up.....

and guess wat... my fav oreo ice-cream cake...... waahhhH!!

took alot2 of pIc derE wiF mY dear pEEpS....

i'LL uPdate it wen mY dear nUrul pass it 2 Me.....

was beIng sabO by aLL..... loLs.....

fUn.... bUT my face all kena cake and i smell like OreO icecream cake....

hahahahah.....

after all de saboing n pLayin..... we jst lepak dere....

den disturb ppL till i nVr go 4 de fOto taking n BaCk 2 lab....

hahaha.....

after skul wen 2 VIVO CITY...... weeeEEE!!!

play water dere.... n get wet frm head 2 toe...... saded....

tanx 2 anwar n sean lor.....

de saddening part happen @ roof top bt i shall nt sae it....]

so sad n still feeling so dwn bcoz of dat.....

y is FAEZA so bad n do all dis 2 him....???

tsk2....

ard 10pm we went off frm vivo....

tanx anwar 4 sending me home..... hahahaha....

really had fun on dat dae.....

wen my 2nd sis reach home.... she brought cake home...

wOw!!! another cake 2 go.... hahhaa

we cut de cake n had a piece each coz nite areadi.....

canot eat 2 much @ nite.... hahahaha....

so damn touched wen dey sang burfdae song 2 me.....

love u so much la sistaZ.....

dis wAs my anoTher cake......

hahaha....

2 all dat make my BIG dae a special one......

i would like 2 sae...

"thank you"......

love u guys alot2.....

n haira..... thank 4 de DALE.....

abg zaki.... tmr we'll go out orites.....

will update soon.... tc.....

back to update about things

dat have been taken place...
been doing alot of thinking....
FYP.... SINGLE LIFE.... FWNS....

UTS.... DAILY GRADES..... FAMILY....
gosh..!! cn go crazy sia....
cn i haf a break frm PROBS please.....
cn i haf some1 2 tok 2 about all dis things??
where's my CHIP & DALE goooo???
i mish u guys by my sides....
i cnt take care of myself....
PLEASE CUM BACK...
*crying*...

been a good time wen i'm wif the 'GILER' gRp...
dey really try 2 make me happi especially dat

care bear n also my dearest abg & gile khaty....
life isnt boring wif them ard....
giler -ing.... belo-ing.... disturbing..... fun though ....
still sometime i tend 2 breakdwn....
dere's still emptyness in me....
tried very2 hard 2 replace it bt i jst cnt....
IMPOSSIBLE.....

turning 20 in 8 more daes i guess....
cnt believe it i'm alreadi 20.....
OHHH NOOOO!!!!.....
hahahha.....
i got 1 wish dat i wanna wish for my burfdae....
[[[ PLEASE2 LET ME HAF C&D BY MYSIDE...]]]
dat's de onli thing dat'll make me happi.....

going for a date wif my 'abg' on de 23 may.... weeeee!!!!
hope dat it'll be funnnn......
yeahhhhh!!!..
abg!!!! i wan 20 presents!!!!!
lol.....

gD morning every1.....!!!!

i'm sooo tired of crying nW.....
will you even rmbr abt me animore??
will you ??
will you???????

HIDUPPENUHDGNTANDATANYA.................

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a WanNa RuN aWay fRm aLL dIs....

aWay fRm everYtHin....