sadDening.....

tanx u soo much 4 tell me dat ....
nw den i noe dat de truth is....
everything is laid out infront of me nw...
truth really hurt me alot.....
i've wasted my time being attached all dis while...
with sum1 dat DOESNT EVEN APPRECIATE ME.....
MANUSIA MCM NI PUN ADER.....
shall just put dis bullshit aside n lupekn....
treating it as if it nvr happenned......
easy 2 sae den doing rite....
but i shAll trY.....
wif dE heLp frM my loVe onEs.....
esPeCiallY dEe....
luV yA sYg....

enuf if pasRah-inG....
bacK 2 my hyPer side....
laTer goIng seNtOsa wiF my CrazY clAn & daYdEe...
yeaH2....
hOpe Dat i'LL haF fuN wiF my dEe...
nK take pIcS many2...
yeah2...
luV ya dEe...

i misH -inG u sOoo de mUch....
muAcks!!!

feel like blogging....
random feeling....
so yah....
here am i typing....

hmmm.....
wat telah happen to my taggy board....
tsk2 cian my taggy.....
tk bersalah.....
i dun noe wat's de motive of dat DIN...
ape tah die dpt from doing all dis crapping thingy....
2 la org suro cari keje yg afdal tknk.... ungkal..... nk jgk buat keje yg tk berfaedah....
gasak kau la mamat....
jgn nanti things get worst den nk menyesal sudah....

to by dear daydee....

luV ya soooooo deeee muccchhh....
muackssss.....!!!!!
watever happen u'll alwaes b wif me....
dun alwaes get angry easily okie....
nanti kene jual aru tau....
hahaha....

counting down to our 2mths.....
yeah2....
cpt seh time flies....
den time for u 2 go NS is coming soon ....
cnt denied dat oso la....
bt i tink that i wanna tell u is dat i'll wait 4 u no matter wat...
i wanna u 2 go wif a clear mind ....
dun tink of unnecessary things coz i noe wat 2 do...
i wun do ani stupid things nor unnessary things.........
luv ya.....

if can for the first few wks of the fasting daes....
i wanna break fast wif you....
realli i wanna dat to happen.....
coz i wan 2 spend the time left wif u....

seriously i'm gonna mish u like hell....
iLuvyou dear daydee.....
muacks....

c ya later syg....
assalamualaikum.... =)

lost....
things dun really goes smoothly nowadaes....
i'm nt sure y but mayb dere's a reason behind it....
however i just hope that things will goes back to normal soon...
.cnt really stand being in this situation for a long time like dis...
i like my bestie's new look...
she looks cute wif dat new hair style...
wait till she wear her new spectacle and she'll look totalli different....hahaha,....
i oso wanna do my hair la like dat,...mcm best plk uh perm hair rite....ohhh welll.....hahaha...

dis irritating guy really pissing me off wif his tagging...
nonsences totalli nonsences lor dis guy....
really gt nth to do....
thus decided to disturb ppl....
hais...
manusia mcm gini pun ader...
ya allah....
ape lah nk jadi dgn dunia ni...
seriousli if u really gt smth against me den sae,...
dun cari pasal wif other ppl....
just cum straight to the point n tell me whu's de hell is u....
n wat's exactli u wan....

today smth funny happened....
was going 4 tuition @ sembawang n daydee sent me dere,...
wen up to 10 story and daydee passby de house....
my student was shocked for no reason when she saw me...
den de mum ask me whether i scared of lizard or nt...
i was like stund...
i'm scared too...
geli 2 de max....
eeeeeeeeeeeeee...
so decided to called daydee up 2 kill de lizard...
wat's funny is dat de lizard was damn small..
wahahahahahaha......
daydee spray de baygon maham byk giler seh...
.de mum was like standing damn far frm de kitchen window....
hahaha...
i onli step nt scared nt actualli penakot oso...
after a lot of spraying, de lizard commit sucide....tsk2....
da mati liao
yeah2.... irsyaad2 bdae cuming soon...chey2 nk msk 18yrs old nmpk....watever it is we'll celebrate same2 wif adek ok...
doned.... lastly, i wanna sae dis:
daydee, i luv u loads n i hope dat we'll last long till biler2...regardless whether we gado or nt...i'll still luv u ....tyke care daydee...muacks....

daydee ku' syg

sejak pertame kali ku lihat kamu....
my heart beat fast....
wat i can sae is i like u frm de start....
but i just dun trust on love @ 1st sight...
thus i decided to b a fwn of urs....
frm a stranger2 to a friend....
it doesnt stop there for some reasons...
daes after daes....
wks after wks...
the feeling develop bit by bits till i noe that u're de 1 i wanna be wif....

the strange things is that i didnt even think abt my x wen i'm wif u...
sumthing that is rare bt true...
life nid 2 move on...
yeah2...
so yah...
here am i ....
being wif my dear mr JUMALEE....
spending every single time wif hym...
just so happening and nvr fail to make me smile...
de moments was wonderful...
nvr xpect dat 2 turn out like dat...

10 july 2008....
a dae that witness us....
de joy, happiness cnt really b describe in words....
reason being it's something special taking place in our life...
both were no longer single bt instead being part of each other...

1o aug 2008...
1 dae after national dae...
1 mth for us being together as 1...
lots of TESTs we're gone thru'...
together as 1 we solve it...
in a good waes for sure...
cuz no matter hw we argueed...
we'll cum back 2 each other..
cuz i cnt bear to seperate frm u...
i luv u syg.....

nw that we've gone thru' almost 2 mths....
i hope that we've learnt how 2 change...
for the better...
n i noe u did dee....
i appreciate it....

bet lots of things gonna happen....
be it a test or wat...
i'm nt sure...
wat i noe i nid u 2 b by my side alwaes...
no matter wat...
my love wont change for no reason...
baybee will alwaes love u daydee...
muacks....

bOOoo.... updating bout the trip dat i wen on weds....
wen to TEKONG... nice place i can sae... but the ferri was sucks..
make me feel like vomitting.... hais...

upon reaching dere, wat i can see was alot2 of abg2 KATAK.... WAHAHAHA...
but super de duper de hot la dere... cnt tahan bt still have 2 endure...
wen to de auditorium to have a talk by the people dere...
gd thing we sat at the top part.... cuz yana slp thru out the speech... wahahaha....
funny sia... suddenli shut down system...

after speech ended...gt dis one cute guy came and was holding dis yellow flag.....
yana & nurul was like ," eh2.. yellow2.... gi kt yg yellow nye... melayu2...." haha...
bt actualli we are supposed 2 go 2 de yellow flag guy... wahahaha... belo....
one thing i dun like dat guy was he's unfriendly type of person la....
ppl talk 2 hym buat bolyn... kn da kene lable pekak... 2 bad...

nxt was de part that they intro us the NS things... like bags & etc.....
dat guy was cute too though but daydee cuter la... hahaha...
crap... haha... but he talk super de funny.... tk tipu lor.... wahahaha....
i guess he short tongue uh... but cute enuf liao lor... so i gif hym dis nick name....
MR SHORT TONGUE... or in short... MR S ..... haha... cute rite...
haira... since u wanna dat guy rite... suitable 4 u oso... short but cute... hehee...
mcm paham jer.... peaceee....

de tawafing ard tekong was damn tired... mcm nk pitam... coz weather hot den kept going in & out of air-con rooms... cn die liao.... hahaha... but the veri2 best & fun part that i like was the shotting .... i mish shooting sia... dpt lepas kn rindu dat dae.... holding riffle....
de feel was fun .... been 3 yrs i guess.... rindu beb.... hahaha...
nurul cn sae pro jgk eh shooting... hahaha... hidden talent btl la bdk ni... hahaha.....
but de cutest one was yana.... she shoot veri cute... den complain hand pain la dis la dat la....
hahaha... funny lor she... hahaha.. dat's my adik hahah...

last was de home sweet home part.... yeah2.... dat was de best coz all da tired... hahaha...
plus hungry.... headed to changi airport... popeye.... hahaha... had dinner den wen for tuition...
so de duper de tired lor... dat's de end of the whole dae journey... yay!!!

cum to tink abt tekong... just feel down abit la... de time for hym to go is approching nearer and nearer... i'm nt totalli prepared 4 dat... going tuition alone... going back frm skul alone...
no nite chatting.... no hugesss and gud nite kisses... ish222.... cane eh... hais....

daydeee.... i just love u and only u......

FYP presentation is doNed for dis semester....
weeeEEE.... coNgRates 2 eveRyone.....
especially mY team memBers,...

just dun understand y all this happen....
it's like sumtime i tink that it's difficult to trust sum1....
especially when they haf alot of history dat still exists....
it's not a BIG deal though....
watever it is lets fate decide la hor.....

hopefully bestie is alright now....
i'm sorry i cant help u much....

confusion taking over now.....

i dun know what I'm doing is right or not.....

please faeza don't hurt people that is innocent....

think and ask yourself what you want in life now....

ask yourself that and you'll know what you want in life...

don't throw tantrum at someone that doesn't deserve it....

because it's very wrong.....

goshhhh!!!....

what's happening to me???

not being myself now....

will be back soon enough when things get back to normal....

take care people....

Ily dee.....

yay!!! at last i cn log into my bloggy....
i wan 2 update alot alot alot of things le....
but let me start by stating that i'm attached....
yes!! i'm attach 2 a guy by de name of JUMALEE.....
i just wish dat it will last long....
i cnt bear 2 be hurt 4 the third time....

life is simple nwadaes bt happening....
wif my clans ard and my dear....
dey really make my dae....
i'm back 2 my own self....
yes2 i am.....
weeeee....

nw a get to noe the truth....
but wat different does it make???
been waited for like mths.....
but i'm jst left wif nth but 2 guess it myself....
trying my best 2 make u smile...
coz i love it when i c dat smile on ur face....
i was damn dwn wen you start emoing...
jst wish dat i can take away all ur probs...
but it's beyond my limit....
i tried to help but u reject it....
wat's more i can do other den trying to talk 2 u.....
time passes by and things getting nmrl...
bit by bit i cn feel dat de emo side of u is gone....
de smile dat i've been waiting have finally came...
super happy .....
but smth bothering me....
wat will happen if u noe de truth....???
i dun wanna be a steal,....
dat steal de smile and joy frm u....
i felt bad abt myself...
hurting people....
gosh....

things happen eventually.....
but dat was 2 soon....
u admitted de truth....
but it wont make a different...
instaed i feel akward....
i'll miss all de things....
hw am i supposed 2 face de future ???

didnt wen 4 skul...
was quite wierd as i didnt alight @ wdlds....
wen sumwhere 2 clear my mind...
wasnt in de rite mind.....
tinking wat will happen nxt....
i break dwn...
for no reason....
i'm nt ignoring u or avoiding....
i just feel different,....
jst dun understand y...
cnt u jst convince me.....
i loose hope.....

dis is wen story started.....

morning people.....

thinking what have been happening to my life....
people around emo-ing....
keeping quite.....
but why??
what happen to my clan people...??
where's my abg & adik???
where's syafiq??
where's khaty???
where's boboy??
where???
drifting bit by bit....
4 what reason??
i'm not sure...
i miss all de moments....

deep inside me....
de feeling of guiltiness is growing...
every time..... every moments......
hais.....

wanna say thank you...
for loving me for who i am....
entertaining my crazyness & attitude....
you mean so much to me.....
but I'm sorry because problems kept poping....
insyallah it'll end sooonnnn.....

choices nid to be made....
be it good or bad...
take a risk....

2 choices in my mind....
- moVe on & be happy
- sTay sadedning....

hais...
no one choose 2 b sad alwaes....
it's all de matter of u wan or nt....

coNfusion.....