just dun noe y ppl nwadaes very de bz body...
kalah kn pompuan....
hais...
watever it is....
i wun bother 2 entertain all dis nonsence ppl...
dah tkde keje lain agak nye....

oh welll....
dry run was preety fun ytd....
yet damn tired..
i injurd my hand... gosh...
very pain lor....
cnt even carry box during working time...
still gt 1 more dry run 2 goo....
die la...

was fun coz i gt 2 mit more ppl...
like de yr 2s...
crazy yet fun bunch of freaks...
had dinner wif dem...
den was late 4 tuition....
hahaha... as usual la...
puntualiti prob...
hahaha..

lappy giving me a very hard time now...
kept hanging here n dere...
fucking irritating....
aiyo....
mintak kene campak jer tau lappy ni...
hais...

da la....
stop here...
tyke care peeps...

wadsup dere....
been so bz till no time to update...
so nw taking a bit of my time updating....

been tired dis few dates eversince having tuition....
werkin in de morning till ard 6pm den off for tuition....
damn tiring but i'm just use to it lor...
furthermore gt nth 2 do oso...

sch is reopening soon...
i realli tot it was 14 april but nah...
it's 7 april...
gosh...
so fast...
haha...

mish my fwns alot2....
my dear abg... nurul.... akbar... my classmates...
i jst wanna spent time wif dem while i'm nt werkin...
bt i dun noe whether dey're free or nt...
oh well...
just hope 2 c dem wen sch reopen den....

noe wat...
sumtime i've been tinking...
y ppl frm de past cuming back in my life...
for me i felt hapi coz dey're here again 2 complete my life...
but in other hand... i jst feel scared...
dat i'll loose dem again...
it's nt easy 2 4get sum1 though..
hais...

watever it is....
i'll not repeat de mistake again...
for de 3rd time...

ohhh well...
i mish my bestie...

gtg... kena ask 2 go bed nw...
gd nite...
=)

dun understand y all dis is happening....
been wondering....
wat am i doin rite nw is wat i realli wan ....
or just sumthin 2 lie 2 myself...
hais....

starting 2 tink abt life nwadaes....
nt's nt easy....
in fact it cn cause us regrets if we do a TINY mistake....
coz time wont come back....

been bz-ing wif work all dis daes....
plus having tuitions on mon n thurs...
haha... pretty fun though despite de tiredness...
i jst cnt imagine myself rotting w/o doin anithin...

wen for movie wif my dear vivian, welson and also syikin...
hahaha,... watch jumper.... kind of nice n funny show...
no regrets watching it... infact we realli enjoy it...
was realli glad coz i'm de one whu choose 2 watch dat... hahaha
wen ard shopping.... in n out of shops..... here n dere....
hahaha... bought sumthin 4 my sis... hope she realli like it though it's nt dat xpensive 2 her...

just hope dat everything goes fine for de ppl in my past...
kind of missing them...
bt i mst accpt it dat once dey are gone, dey wont cum back...
ohhhh wellll.... im saded....

cnt wait for the SEG camp... weeeee!!! hopefulli i gt a good n sporty team....
most of all i wanna enjoy myself....
b4 starting my FYP... hahahah....
result is out on 20 feb..
gosh...
i'm scaredddd.....

i'm stopping here....
tyke care ....
tata....

booo!!
hahaha... back 2 update dis bLog....
just change de skin after a long long long time....
i'm just bored la...
so yah...
n i've new tagbox...
coz i 4got my userID n password 4 de cbox....
stm rite me...
oh well...

skul haf cum 2 an end... as in 2nd year... hahaha...
hols is takin place....
meaning i nid 2 werk 4 de whole dae...
if nt i'll b deadli bored doin nth @ home...
hahaha... gonna mish my classmates...
bt cn alwaes mit dem when gt time ...
like wat my abg wan sae... hahaha....

wen 2 bestie's sch just nw.....
had dinner wif her....
pass her some things....
hope dat she's happy n doing fine....
after which mit sis n accompany her 4 dinner...
btw towie 4 being late.... hahaha....

i just wonderin wen will things going 2 b normal...
as if me able 2 be happy & nt lost animore....
biler la mase2 2 akan dtg....
hais...
sometime i'm just tired... sick n tired of all dis...
being hurt alwaes.....
bosan 2 de max...
just hate life being like dis....
how i wish de stars can show me de wae out frm all dis mess....
haiz....

people cum n go every single time....
be it for good or bad..
but sumtime i wonder...
ani reason 4 dat....
yes?! .... no?!....
just left unwritten...
in my heart...

life isn't same as wat i use to have....
things change.....
be it the people... surrounding....
been tinkin all dis while...
asl eh org slalu menyakitkn hati ssorg tanpa sebab yg btl..
just dun get it.....
daes after daes..
i just find dat smue laki same jer prangai...
mayb i'm streotyping la...
but must of the guys do haf the same attitude dat i hate alot2...
hais...

this happen w/0 us knowin....
i wanna sae sorry 2 hym for the attitude dat i gif to hym...
i'm just emotionally unstable dis few daes...
dere's smth dat bothering me bt i'm nt sure wat....
i noe i gt irritatted so easily for the past few daes...
mayb wat u sae is rite la...
bt trust me i understand ur situation...
jst dat i hate to be bubbled....
u shud no me well...
nt even u but zalikha oso...
i noe u guys haf ur reasoning...
bt y mst it be alwaes me dat bcum de victim??
asl ehh???!!!
one ofter another bubblinng me...
nw i've learn my lesson...
nvr believe watever ppl sae be it some1 dat i'm close wif or wat...
i'm just scared to trust ppl nw...
sobx2....

2 more wks to sch hols....
planning 2 werk all de wae...
keeping myself bz as alwaes....
bt i'll make time 2 mit my dear syikin...
nw i just start 2 mish her... hahaha...
i just wish dat everytin cn go back to normal...
i just wish my bestie is here by my side....
i just wish life could be much easier for me...
i just wish i could spend time to the fullest...
enjoying.... laughing non-stop....
BT....
i dun tink it might happen...
de chances is so slim...
i just scared ...
scared dat i might breakdown anitime..
scared dat i cnt face future challenges...
dat's alot of things can happen dat i'm scared of...
ohh god...
please gif some strength...
sob2...

feeling down at dis moment of time....
the feeling like giving up everything dat i'm doing....
haix.... very saded...
lesson was so sux 2 de max....
dun even understand wat i'm doing in class....
dis is all bcoz of me skip last wk's lesson... stupid of me...
hais... faci was kinda irritating... dun like her @ all..... guess i'll get a C dis time..
cn't even ans her stupid question... hw stupid cn i b rite... haissss....
had cookies frm my AUNTY.... nice ... tanx euu... luv u so much... hahaha...
pity my abg going thru wat i've been going thru in de past....
ABG!!! NO MATTER WAT I'LL ALWAES B BY UR SIDE... NO MATTER WAT HAPPEN....
DUN HESITATE TO FIND ME WEN U'RE DWN OR WEN U NID SUM1 TOK 2 ....
I'LL B DERE AS AN WEN U NID ME... I'LL TRY .... JST WAN U 2 SMILE ALWAES OTEY ABG... COZ U LOOK CUTE WEN DAT SMILE OF URS IS DERE.... =p
i just dun understand sum ppl...
ppl jst simple care abt dem bt dey jst dun noe hw 2 appreciate it....
hw dumb cn dey b rite.... or are dey blind... i doubt so.... hais...
i feel like life nw is kind of wierd 4 me...
it's starting to change...
i loose everything that i used to have and nw... nth is left for me...
y uh... yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.....
wat wu gui sae is rite... nw dere's alot of y's in my life....
hais....
watever la.....
hols soonnn woohooo!!!
finding job soon... yeah....
hopefully i cn enjoy my hols dis time....
ending here....
i'll update soon...
tyke care peeps...
camat malam.... =)

9 daes haf pass since 2008 cum.....
startin of a new year for me....
alot of things happen to me in 2007....
be it swit or sour.... good or bad...
it cnt be resist wat... hais....

wat i wan 4 dis year is simple....
to enjoy my dae each n every single min & sec....
i dun wan past 2 just repeat itself....
i've suffer alot during 2007...
been thru alot of shit...
learn alot frm it too....
nvr b too nice 2 guys....
hais...
asl eh all dis must happen...
y cnt things just be de same as wat we plan....
y cnt ppl learn hw to appreciate each other....
yyyyyyyyyy???
so many y cum thru my mind nw....
bdh kn.....

life 4 me as like usual....
boring... hahhaa... bt cn la...
i love being wif my mum n sistas....
dey realli make my dae....
sch is fun 4 me...
being ard my fwns....
wif hairah, ida, nurul, ishak, fir, my dear darren, n alot2 more...
it's fun.....
love dem.... alot2...
nt 4getin my DEAR ABG ZAKI...
noe wat.....
he kept his promise....
he's goin 2 stop smokin....
yaY!!!!
alhamdulillah....
jia you abg.... must cont 2 stop totalli orite....

trying to 4get abt my past wif hym....
like he alwaes sae..." YG SUDA 2 SUDA"....
he gt de point....
mayb it's jst difficult 4 me....
hais... bt i'll do it.... yeah....

AS 4 MY X.....
EH... TANX EH 4 DE PAST 4 MTH WIF U....
I JUST DUN UNDERSTAND U LA....
Y MST U DO ALL DIS EH....
ASL EH ? N BTW SAE TANX 2 UR BRO...
HE REALLI FUCK ME UP SIDE DWN....
N U DID NTH... WTF.... APE JENIS BF EH U....
NVR TOT U'RE DAT TYPE OF PERSON...
IT'S DE WORSE MISTAKE TO HAF U AS MY BF...
HAIS....

y must dere b ppl like dat....
hais... hurtin ppl's feeling... so heartless....
watever la...
guys will alwaes b guys...
prangai same jer....
hais...
bdh kn....

i wish i cn turn back to WAN...
hais...

*lost*

haf been a while since i updated tis poor blog....
my dear abg kept asking me 2 update...
hahha.... so towie abg zaki coz i gt no time....
nw i'll update watever dat took place 4 de past wks....

wen to IT fare dat last3 sat i guess....
wif my dear abg zaki n nurUl....
b4 dat wen 2 revise for UT @ j.e lib....
it was so jam pack la....
wat i nOe i nearly fainted la...
cnt stand the ppl that kept push me here n dere...
bought lappy a cover....
tanx abg 4 carrying my HEAVY bag 4 me....
after dat wen 2 mit my WUI GUI....
mish hym since a long time nvr mit him...
wat i cn sae he's getting thinner and DARKER...
wakkakaakaka..... eat more otey wui gui....

sch was fun as usual...
only de boring thing is tat it haf been raining for the past few wks....
damn.... so de nt fun lor....
dun like 2 wear raincoat..... look so funni la.....
nt cute.... veri big lor....
my pp finish liao...
weeeEEE!!!
i soooo de haPPy ....
hopefully i'll pass my pp....
amin....

imishmybestie....
wen will u be free to spend time wif me.?
sobx2...

i'll stop here... i'll update soon wen i feel like updating it....
i wish i could do something that can make people happy.....
i hate that i love you so....
peaceee!!
taatata.....

hey ya peepsss....

was the starting of the school today.....
1st lesson was micro c....
damn irritating yet fun.... hehehe...
gt scolding frm my DEAR faci for nt cumin 4 lesson last week....
wahahahah.... kene shot sia... saded.... hais....
lesson was preety short la....
no ppt... onli each person do 1/4 of the codes and done....
but ..... hais...
i made my team lost 4 energy... sob2...
i go click anihw lor.... wahahaha....
funni.... den everi1 disturb me.... =(
hw blur cn i be... hais....

all my 1st UTs flungs.... hais... y uh...??
study oso flung.... bodoh sia me...
i realli nid books 2 study.... realli.....
i wan 2 faster grad frm poly....
stress 2 de max.....
hais...

report is done and nw 1 more burden.... POSTER!!!
hw 2 doooo...? haiyo.... cn i just dun do all dis.... i wan exams.... sob2....
must jia you do poster & present it onces and for all.... hais...
feel so scare le 2 present... skali kena shot frm de advisor den i'm dead....
ohhh GOD help me.....!!!

life seems to very complicated.....
too much obstacles dat came @ 1 shot....
1st wen i got 2 knw dat he's gettin engaged....
2nd wen i noe i dat i must move on frm him....
3rd wen i nid 2 put all de memories dat i had wif both of dem in a box & left it bhind....
4th. . . . . . . . . . .
5th. . . . . . . .
i may nt noe wat's coming nxt 4 me....
will i ever had de strength to go thru' all dis obstacles.....
will i ever have sum1 whu realli care 4 me for whu i'm realli are....
will i ever love sumone like hw i use to love him.....
will i ever find wat's missing in my life.....
de feelin dat i have is sooo strong.....
i'm scared.... realli scared......
i'm scared 2 make de mistake again 4 de 2nd time in my life.....
i'm scared 2 hurt more ppl's feeling .......
so confused.... i realli do..... hais.....

i just wish.......
i can turn back time and make things right.....
hais..... but it's too late..... realli late to turn back.....
onli left is memories.... be it swit or sour..... i treasure it....
'good things only cum once and it'll end dere'........
dat's wat yogibear told me.... & it's true..... veri2 true....
but y must i loose sum1 dat i love soooo much.... i dun understand.....

i'm off now...... nid 2 design my logo 4 class t-shirt.....
tyke care peeps...
muacksss!!

littLe kid is back 2 updaTe a bIt onli....
heheheh.....

juZ gt baCk frM bbQ-inG wiF mY E44F peepS....
iT was fUn eVenthOugh iT's raInin...
loLs...

jUst cHange mY bLogsKin....
nTh 2 do la...
cIan....
scH re-oPenniNG soooonnnn.....
yaY!!!

i mish mY FARHANA......
soBx.....

will upDAte mOre soooooNNNNN..... tyke care peepS.....
tatatatata..................