last dae to spend time with hubby....
nxt dating will be 2 wks from now...
cnt believe that & i tot he's joking but nope....
i'll miss him badly for that 2 weeks....
april is coming and time is coming closer & closer....
cnt imagine 1 month w/o him is like haissss....
thailand is far den pasir laba camp....
this is nitemare...
boohoohooo....

last few days was hubby's birthday....
he's old by 1 yrs by now....
didnt really celebrate on the day of his birthday...
but did that celebration belatedly...
for that 3 daes he's out from camp we went out...
shopping, catch movie, spending time with him...
hope he love the present that he wanted all this while....
today went to have oreocheese cake with him....
i hope u like it althought it doesnt really look like a proper birthday cake...

working life is so much boring than school life....
more stress and pressure at workplace...
different environment, different people......
not even ready for this life.....
i really hope that i can continue schooling and take my degree....

i wish i wish....

was suprised to receive msges from them....
i hope your're strong to face reality in life....
enjoy ur life before going in a few wks time i guess...
glad that you have change & realise things that happen in the past...
i wish you all the best....

sayang having 24hr guard duty & no time 4 me....
i'm so damn bored plus nurul is not here to tok 2 me....
so the not use to the boringness in life....
i miss you alot dear...
book out faster can pleaseeee......

working is fun nowaday for me....
just that i get slpy easily ....
no1 entertaining me...
all're gone to Expo...
left me alone...
boohoo...

now i wanna buy itouch....
i wan i wan....
saving for the next few months till jun or july expo sales again....
weeee!!!
i wanna change hp le but daydEe dun let me....
but i'll still wanna it ....
hehehe....

fana is so damn clever la....
grade so damn good....
how i wish i'm as clever as her...
hais....
i miss you la....
wen can i possibble met you...??

just msning him for de past half n hour.....(i guess...)
lots of things happen when the time we're close till we're nt....
going our seperate waes was the best solution and dat was the past....
nvr did i mention dat he's not good or anitin....
never did i regret being wif him....
been thru those time was a memory dat shall be kept as memory....
i hope ure happy wif her and get to fulfill ur hajat before entering NS ....

atok just pass away this morning....
was suprised by dat new by my aunty....
didnt tot of that incident to happen so sudden...
may he rest in peace.....

i miss my sayang nw...
he's having urban war fare....
while i'm at home missing him....
staring at the empty air think of him...
wondering what will happen next for us...
hoping for the best of coz....
i love u jumalee.....

10 of every month will be the dae i'll alwaes remember...
de dae where he let those words out from his mouth.... (but his is msg)
stating that he love me and want us to go far not just a friend....
status was wat we're lacking of but it doesnt even matter....
wat's important is the bond that we have was dere....
and i hope that we'll go far as wat we've plan for...
tmr will be the dae that will tell us how long we've been together...
as a stranger, a friend, a boyfriend and in future.... insyallah....

i'm off.....

been 1 weeks since im starting working full time. lots of things that i've been learning and have to learn. hard time, fun time, play time all in one day. it's fun being the youngest in department as i'll get the most attentions and help from them. hehehss...

febuary have ended and march have begin. lost of things that's gonna happen. insyirah is gonna have exam soon and i really hope that she do well. i'll pray for u. suprisingly this months, there's a few people's burfdae. that's sux. but the important date is his. turning 21 in mar 25 2009. wanna suprise him if something that will make him remember foreva. just wanna be a good girlfwn to him. doing something good to make him happy.

no doubt we've been having a hard time recently but that dont meant that we dont love each other. that's life in relationship. not complete without ups and down in life.

upDating mY pOOr bloG...
hmmmm....
started my full time job on last fri....
was interesting yet boring though.....
do some typing here and there plus cutting papers...
goshhh!!!! i hate printing signages coz damn slow la till can fall asleep...
overall it was fun to learn new things plus i'm soo damn nice to do OT on the 1st dae...
waHahaha...

after which wen to mit my SaYang at Jurong Point....
he's so damn slow la mcm tortise...
waited n waited but tk sampai2...
tanx to my NUrul coz she accompanied me...
wen for dinner and bLa bLa bLA....

sAt was fun to a certain part only....
had tuition at 10 am but i'm late as usual...
supposed to met sAyang at MRT statIon but i was late ...
so swit of him to walk towards where i'm heading just to pick me up...
watch movie i'm not into you at CWP....
so romantic la de story but NuruL u really nid 2 watch it....
wen to mit nurul up at cineleisure coz she was having a date wif hmm...
but end up onli mit at lucky plaza....
played pool for 2 hrs and it was funnnn...
sayang really good at playing pool...
something dnt really goes smoothly but shall not sae it....

was quite upset about it till now....
breaking down was the 1st things that took place....
i dun noe why but i just dont like....
y cnt u just understand it???
sometime i feel that i'm not good enuf 4 u....
dun noe when will things be just fine again like hw it use to be...
hais....

busy wif work and tuition lately....
forcing myslf to be busy....
wkdaes is not fun w/o sayang....
i wish i wish to have a good wkends wif him...

taking care peepsss....

p.s : LEADER!! get well soon orites.... miss ya....

back to update about life....

been working all the way since the day school ended....
poly life is ending and to be exact have already ended....
gonna miss those times wif that crazy bunch of people.....
pLaying, gossiping, caboTing, sLacking, chit -chatting,....
time flies rEaLLy fast......

pLenty2 of things have beEn taKing plaCE in mY liFe.....
pEople cOme and peOple gO.....
daT's liFE.....
reAlly aPPreciate for all tHose meMories daT was lEft behiNd.....
bUT i wIsh daT dIs one pErsOn woNT leaVe mY liFE....
becAuse i LOVE hIm.....

searching for job is totally hell lots of no fUn....
irritating when u apply but no reply from them...
just hope dat i get this admin job at robinson la....
pray for me okie....

hmmmm......
i'm sssooo damn bored today....
nth to do and no one 2 talk 2....
goshhh...

stop here now....
cont other daes.....
taking care pEeps...

dAes gEtting cLoser aNd clOser....
not eveN pRepAred for it...
tOtaLLi fREakIn oUt...
geTtiNg iT doNe anD over wiTh...
eNjoy de rEst of the DaEs iN pOly....
wIsh mE lUck foR dIs weDs pResenTatioN....

aM i dOIng de RigHT thIngs alL thIS while....
iGnoRing and iGnoRing waT's hAppeNing....
sCaREd to b hUrt and tO hUrt oTHers...
esPeciaLLy mY jUmaLEe....
hais..

woW!!! tiME reallY flieS daMn fasT ...
bEen togetHer for alMOst 6mThs...
alhAmdulIlLah.....
i hOpe wE'LL lasT foRevEr....
reAsoN beIng i lOve hIm aLOt....
mUcKS.....

p.s. : i mIss my FArhaNa AriS....

i'm sorry if i made u feel mad or angry....
i noe i'll never fail to make u feel angry ......
but deep down my heart my L.O.V.E for you stays.....
no matter wat happen in the future....
you're my heart and soul.....
i L.O.V.E you.....
jumalee....

hols have started and here i am werking always.....
now i miss going to school.....
classroom filled with laughter of the crazy classmates....
facilitators voice trying to teach us....
long winded 6Ps....
lets take a break till 5 jan next year.....
school reopen with a new year.....
may i'll be rajin to go for lesson....

in a mood of going to the beach....
where the atmosphere is so peace....
the surrounding is cooling....
night wind breeze.....
the sound of the wave from the sea....
taking away all the problems temporary....
enjoy the moment that is so peace and calm....

jumalee...
i'll never stop loving you....
just let time do its job now.....
nth can be done xcept waiting....
get well soon sayang.....
i love you ......
alwaes.....
<3

faeza is lost and nid to find her way back.....
to a place where things goes well enuf....
for her to do soul search....

oh please dun break down now....

sobx2.... =(

tiRed afTer wOrk...

sometime i wonder y must things turn tis wae.....
y cnt dey happen like wat we haf plan before hand....
people saes day arguements is part of it in a relationship...
its and obstacles that will strengthen the relationship that we had...
however too much arguements is frustrating and irritating and hurting...

everytime things goes wrong i'll be wondering.....
what did i do or say wrongly....
did i hurt your feelings.....
am i not listening to u...
thousands and millions of questions coming to my mind.....
but none of the questions had the answer to the questions.....
i wonder why......

keeping quite isnt going to solve things up....
yet it will keep building up dae by day as time flies....
saying it out is something that is healthy to do ....
but its outcome might not be as good.....
wat's left for me to do???
running away .....
dat's all is left in the choice....

life is alwaes unfair....
but we can alwaes make it fair if we want to...
people might think that i'm leading a good happy life...
but you are wrong totally.....
life is complicated....
and it will alwaes b complicated....

there's tons and tons of things that can be learn in life.....
depending on a person for attention that you dream for ....
leading life w/o problems.....
hoping to be pamper .....
to be loVe fuLly.....
by your love oneS.....
sometime it's just a big DREAM that might not come true....
how hard or smart you try....
it wont cum true.....
mayb it will.....
mayb nt....
hais....