bOred-nEss....

2nd week of training haf come to an end....
lOts of things have happen...
slOwly eAch & evEryoNe's aTtitude iS beIng reVeAl...
bE it thE gOOd oR bAd oNes ...

probLems wiLL never lEavE me aLone...
oNe aFter aNother....
NatUre oF lIfe..
aLwaEs tAke iT poSitiveLy....
dAt's iMpt aNd dUn lEt it bRing u Down tO dE dRaIn..
buT suMtiMe tHingS happEn uNknOwInglY....
dAt's wAt I hAte iT sO mUch....

fOr wat i kNow dAt i Love hIm...
nO mAtter wAt haPPen...

sIck....

pLaNinG tO sLp eArly...
hEad sPiNing rOund & rOund....
nOse iS liKe a LicKing wAter tAp...
fEeel so wEak anD tiRed ...

nEarly 10 pEople wAs sIck in cLaSs...
tHanks 2 dE sPreadEr daT sprEAd it...
hOpefuLLy tO reCovEr sOon...
tIme fLieS rEalLy fAst...
aLL dAt I knOw iT's alReady eNd oF 2 mThs...
hEhe... sTill 7 wEeks lEft tO gOooo....

aLwaEs lOokiNg fOrwArd tO evErynIte...
wAitiNg fOr hIS mSges....
pAtieNce iS aLL nEedEd in R/S...
dAt's wAt i'Ve leArned....
rEgaRdlEss oF hW sIck i Am...
i'LL stIll kIp mySelF aWake Like nOw..,
mIss hIm eVerY nOw aNd dEn...
tHinKing oF wAT hE's dOing aNd All...

wEekEnd wIll b De bESt dAE...
sPenD tIme wIf oNlI hYm n nO1 Else...
mOvIes, pIcniC, shOppIng, lUncH, dInnEr...
lOts mOre tHinGs wE diD.....
1 mOre dAe tO wKenDs and i'Ll b HappY...

gOnNa tUrn 2 yEars oLd iN 2 dAes tIme...
tOns aNd tOns oF tHinGs hAppeNs bTwn uS....
uPs aNd dOwNs iN a r/S aRE aLwaEs dEre w/O fAil...
jUSt dE mAttEr oF hW wiSe u Are iN dEaLing wItH iT...
nO1 iS bOrN pErfeCt...
nO1 iS bOrn to jUst fOlloW bLindLy...
nO1 aRE bOrn fEelIngleSS....
iT aLwAes tAke 2 PerSon to Make tHings haPPen...
not 1 but 2...

tHings hAppeN fOr sUm ReasOn....
dAt's aLwAes wAt pEoPle sAe....
soMewAe sOmehw wE'll kNoe dE rEAson 1 DAe...
iT's aLL tHe MattErs oF tIme...
lOVe hUrts....
bUt weN tHingS gOeS wEll, iT's dE mOst bEautiFul tHing...

dErE's sOmetHing bOthEriNG me bUt jSt cNt fInd wHo I cUd sHAre...
tO gEt opInIon....
oTher pOinT oF vIews...
gEttiNg iT oUt fRm mY hEad...
wIsh dAT i cUd wAsh aWay uNneCcesArY tHinGS...

I wISh i CUd......

rAin-iNg caT & dOg...

duN feEl liKe woRking eVeN fOr dE sAke oF lAst dAy.... 1sT thIng iN dE moRninG, gT tO knOw dAt iT wAs rAinIng hEavYly... pArt tU mCm mLs jEr tk gO wErk.... fEelIng sOo dAmn mOodlEss.... fEel lIke bEing aLone fOr sUm rEason bUt yEt i dUn wIsh tO kIp tHinGs tO mySelf cOz nOt hEaltHy.... SorRy iF i'M nOt bEing MysElf lAtely.... lOts oF tHinGs hAppeNing & iT fEels fRustRatiNg.... wIsh dAt fEelIng cUd jSt lEaVe mE aLoNe... hAisSss....

pLanIng fOr tHis wEekend wiLl b jUst mItiNg uP wIth hAirA, tOyOl, nUrUl, bF, AnWar & eZa...
wAtChiNg & dInnEr i gUeSs.... hMmmm... bEen sOmetIme sInCe wE'vE bEen lEpAk-iNg toGetHer... mIss tHem thOugH.... gOnnA haF ArNold b4 dAt .... SuNdaY wILL mIt wIf bEsTie...
mIsS hEr sO mUch... bUt nVm mIt hEr 4 bReaKfAst.... dEn aLL dE wAe wIll b wIth bF... iMy...

rOtTing iN the OffIce...

cOuntIng dOwn tO dE laSt daE in hEre... kinDa of haPPynEss aNd jOynEss... oUt fRm a PlaCe i cNt rEally woRk aT.... stIll RobiNsoNS is De bEst pLaCe tO woRk aT fOr nOw.... nO stReSs anD haPpenIng.... sHoppIng aNd LifEly.... RuLeS arE rUleZ buT nT lIke a sChOol aS eVeryThing cAnnot bE doNe bUt yeT oTher dO iT bUt no1 sAys aNitin... sO unFaiRneSs heRe...

28 jUn wIlL bE d3 sTart of a NeW liFe... enVironMent, pEoplE, rOutiNe... @ laSt gEt to lEarN soMethIng aBout Law.... cOol bUt cHallEnginG as nEed to cRack hEad tO lEarn aNd Take TesT fOr thE 1St yEar.... OtHer dEn tHat, nEw xPeriEnce oF wOrkiNg in CivIL sErvaNt....tHeRe gOes mY weEkdAeS bEinG fiLLed uP.... wKeNds wiLL b bOyfwN's dAe.... cNt wAit tO mIt hIm..

gOt a nEw LeVi's wAtcH fRm sIstAz... rEd cOlor sEem tO b a nIce coLor.... lUv iT.....
hAd dInNer wIth tHem @ pIzzA hUt... bEen a lOng tIme sInce wE haD dInnEr tOgetHer...
fEeLs sO hAppY beIng bAck tOgethER deSpiTe tHe aRgUemeNts aNd aLl....
wIsh thaT wiLl sTays fOreVeR.... lUv tHeM lOts....

loTs oF thIngs haPPenIng daY bY dAy.... yEt daT dsNt maKe mE fEel lIke gIvinG uP oR wAt...
iNstEad iT maKe mE tHink bEtteR aS thIngs haPPen fOr sOme rEasOn... A rEasoN thAt oNly cAn bE fOund iF tHe tImE rEaLly cOmes.... nO uSe cRacKiNg hEad anD thInk... iT wUd bE oUt..

hMmMm.... tHe eNd.....

I remember years ago. Someone told me I should take. Caution when it comes to love.
I did, I did. And you were strong and I was not. My illusion, my mistake. I was careless, I forgot
I did. And now when all is done. There is nothing to say. You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won. You can go ahead tell them. Tell them all I know now. Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the skyline. All we had is gone now. Tell them I was happy. And my heart is broken
All my scars are open. Tell them what I hoped would be. Impossible, impossible. Impossible,impossible

Falling out of love is hard. Falling for betrayal's worse. Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know. Thinking all you need is there. Building faith on love and words. Empty promises will wear. I know, I know

And know when all is gone. There is nothing to say. And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahaed tell them. Tell them all I know now. Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the skyline. All we had is gone now. Tell them I was happy. And my heart is broken
All my scars are open. Tell them what I hoped would be. Impossible, impossible. Impossible, impossible. Impossible, impossible. Impossible, impossible. Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago. Someone told me I should take. Caution when it comes to love
I did. Tell them all I know now. Shout it from the roof tops. Write it on the skyline. All we had is gone now. Tell them I was happy. And my heart is broken. All my scars are open. Tell them what I hoped would be. Impossible, impossible. Impossible, impossible. Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago. Someone told me I should take. Caution when it comes to love. I did

pIctUre tAken at pAsiR riS bEach afTer baThiNg.... haAhhahAH... beEn a vEri lOng tIme siNce iM liKe upDating iT buT yAh.... evEryoNe iS buzy anD so aM I..... lItte uPdate aBt myseLf.... gOnna sTaaRt mY nEw jOb sooOOnnn....

hOpefuLly thIngs goEs smOotHly aS plAnned.... goNNa b iN HTA fOr liKe 2 mOnths.... gOod tHing nOt tIll buLan pUaSe iF nT goNNa penGsaN.... bEen wiF hIm foR liKe alMost gOnnA b 2 yRs... lOts n Tons of ThingS daT haF happEn fRm thE daE we gOt toGethEr tIll nOw.... dAt'S waT relAtionShip aRe.... upS n dOwnS of iT..... hoPes daT wE'll lAst fOrEver.... dAt's aLL fOr nOw ...... =))

first thing 1st...
wen to vivo on the sat after a few hours emo-ing...
been a rough days since last wks...
lots of things have been taking place...
wasnt in the rite mind & emotions...
so complicated....
tanx to mummy dat she met me...
made me laugh n 4get about being angry...
wen he's infornt of me, cnt afford to be mad...
de feeling just change...
undescribe-able....
love him....
alot....

did smth funny on thurs...
wen sentosa with dat nurul...
last min planning....
all the credit goes to her....
long time nvr wen there...
for once i got to do stupid things...
hehehehe....
had lunch infrnt of the beach....
with the sun just rite infornt of us....
pretty damn hot n burning but yet enduring....
camwhoring here n dere...
damn fun.....
enjoyed de dae eventhough im supposed to spend it with him...

up next was the sunday...
wen out with sistas n bro-in-law plus bf...
5 of us was like spending time...
choosing 1 pink digital camera....
oh well...
the camera was 1 of my choices of bdae present dis year...
nice but yeah...
mine is nicer... =)

as for today,
met him for dinner...
n he bought me a teddy bear...
his name is GONDOL....
love it so much...
GOBLIN, MATREP, COOKIE MONSTER, MR SMILEY & GONDOL....
hahahaha...
cool....

thats all for now...
i wish i cud be with him forever,..
love u lots sayang...
muacks...

been a very long time since i blog abt things that had happened....
mayb that's no time to even mit up with fwns and bf,...
having involve with expo sales was fun...
being able to mit up with different people....
with different culture and wae of thing....
hmmm....
interesting yet irritating....
dat's working life....

doned with expo n back to store...
really miss my office and the people there....
was really glad that things have ended....
next will be xmas celebration promotions....
tons of things to do i guess...
hahahaha.....
hope so if nt i'll be rotting in the office ....

i miss bestie....
miss her till i cried alone in my room...
just cnt believe she really means so much to me....
been thru so much together....
i noe she have a own life now...
and i'll alwaes pray for the best for her....
luv u girl....

next up will be the rp peeps...
outing this sat that i s not really cnfrm though....
i miss them too....
my dear haira u're been miss my ur sis dear....
hopefully the outing will be on...
ezzah thanx for making me laugh for the whole nite...
really enjoy ur company....
mit up often ok with daddy too...
i miss daddy oso cn...
heheheh.....

nurul....
just be patience ok...
he'll be out sooner or later....
time will flies fast w/o u realising it....
trust me it will...
for now just enjoy the moments....
dun spoilt or destroy ur life bcuz of this...
b de nurul dat i've been with for the whole 3 yrs in poly...
i still have me if u nid someone orites...

something is wrong that's gonna happen...
i'm just so scared to think about it...
i wonder why must it alwaes happen...
will it like affect the relationship that im having now...
y cnt i just have a r/s that is simple and straight forward.,,,
im just tired of all the complication that been taking place...
simply cnt make any decision for now...
brain dead....
can i just run away from all this...

i just wish that i cud live a life with just bf...
w/o any interferences....
it wud be better....
for u n me....
forever...
hais...

kuimpikan mimpi yang sempurna dari mu.....

frustrated, irritated, annoyed....
feel like puching the wall...
arrrgghhhh....
y must all this happen....
tried very hard to be nice...
not throwing temper n all....
but i just feel that its too much....
everytime this happens...
i just breakdown & cry...
nth else that i could do...
haaisss..........

i wan to run far far far far away............

it's already 2am in the morning n yet im nt aslp...
suprisingly i dun feel slpy like hw i use too...
kinda off wierd but just cnt be bothered to think abt it...
miss the time wen u hold me tite...
spending time like there's no tmr...
joking n teasing each other...
talking on the fone till morning...
all this left only as memories for me...
things changes as people change...
not complaining...
just saying...

last day of fasting n raya is coming.,.
arent excited for that...
dun noe y but yah...
the feeling is just so wierd...
cnt explain it at all....

wen popeye for last buka session with the girls...
at last i got to mit up with haira...
miss her alot2....
had ben&jerry for after that...
cool or wat.....
hopefully this yr jln raya will go on smoothly as planned...
looking forward to mit everyone back like how we use to...

wat a dae...
injurd my toe for some reason...
n its bleeding and painful...
cian faeza....
hais...

will update the pictures in facebook wen i feel like updating it...