SoRry..

SoRry i maKe u feeL saD...
JusT duN feeL gooD nwadAes...
TOo muCh to absOrb in...
Too leSs peOple to taLk to opEnly...
No reaally leSs but moRe to noBody..
I jSt feEl dAt i cuD tAlk to u LikE hw i uSe tO buT thAt wunt haPpen...
So yAh...

Btw tAnx foR thE coNcerN...

TAkE caRe alWaes...

EndurE..

WannA b wELL bacK... :(((

CnT bare to b sIck likE thIs...

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UneXpeCted...

DidNt expEct aniThin frM diS feW poSt.. DiDnt evEn haF anI inteNtion to lEt peOplE noE wAts goIng oN iN my liFe... JuSt neEded suMonE oR somEwhEre daT i cuD shAre, talK n wriTe doWn... AtleasT dat cUd maKe mE fEel beTter a liTtle...

I duNt noE hw tO moVe oN frM hEre... WEn i niD thE peRson thE moSt buT i cuDnt fiNd hiM... Jst thE mattEr oF facT daT things cNt b dE samE aS it uSed tO b... NeeD to lEarn tO moVe awAy frM missIng pEoplE... People dAt i shUdnt b miSsIng... LikE wAt my x sAes, " to gAin smTh, i niD tO looSe smTh 1st..." mayB hE's riTe... BuT diS isnT thE riTe time... Im baRely brEathIng... DuN noE wAt is gOin tO happEn nxT...

CouNting doWn to sePt 4... ThE daE whEre i noE i'll feel pain... BuT noboDy noEs waTs goNna haPpen...expEcting thE woRst caSe seneRio... ThAt's thE beSt i cud tHing abOut...

Ure aLwaes my sWeeTest drUg....

2nd aUg 12..

HapPy 24tH bDae tO bEstiE...
&
HaPpy 25th bDae tO abG...

MaY all thEir wiShes cUm trUe n stAy haPpy alWaes arOund thEir loVe oNeS... Plus i love theM tOo...
ThEy arE paRt oF mE tOo.. MuAck!!!
IF onLi shE cuD rEad thIs...

Im soRry dAt iM diDnt fulfILL a goOd taSk iN bEiNg a fWn to u beStiE..
:((

ToDay my 2nD daE oF MC... StILL no diFfEreNt yEt.., couGh like waNna diE.. BloCk nOse.. FeVer... GoSh... ThIs iS like thE worSe coMbo evEr.., canT slP weLL sinCe thE daE i fAll siCk.., beIng so cRankY nw a dAeS.. BuT thAnks tO pEoplE arD me thAt enDurE my crAnky-neSs... SoRry foR daT... :)))
BeIng reFerEd tO thE hoSpitAl..
SoUnd sO serIous... HopEfuLly noThiN iS seRious.. HaiX... I jSt waNna b liKe noRmaL & b heAlthy.. No moRe mediciNes... SicK & tiRed arEadi..,
4th sePt wiLL b dE daE wEn eVer qs oF mine bE anSwer by the teSt reSult...

& i miSs mY swEeteSt drUg... :((

MeMoriEs...

I duN noE y it haPpeN n y muSt iT b hiM thAt i drEamt oF... AftEr almost 5 yrs i stilL caNt gEt ovEr hiM... WatS is wrOng wiF mE??? Am i noT reAdy to opEn uP my hEart fuLly tO othEr peRsoN tHat im wiF now???

He onCe tOlD mE... If i Wan tO gaiN somethIng, i niD tO sacRifiSe somThing iN reTurN... BuT i jSt caNt... ThE moRe i tRieD, thE moRe paSt memoRies coMes baCk...

HoW i wIsh things wuD b easIer foR mE...

HoW i wiSh my bRain is like a coMpuTer thAt i cuD simplY
CTRL + ALT + DEL...

ThAt wiLl bE bEttEr...

BuT tOo baD...

TOoo muCh oF beIng huRt tiLL i cant
EvEn c wAt iS reAlly trUe loVe...
MaYb thErE iS no suCh things...
NO hAppY enDing...
No fAiry taLe...
JUst a stOry oF a siMpLe giRl dAt iS stILL fiNdiNg hEr wAy tO trUe lOve..