niD 2 update la hor.. if nt dat hid will like nag & nag... wakakak... nah jkjk.... hurhur... basicalli i stay @ home 4 like de whole dae... hahahak.. boredness... BUT....wat 2 do... i'm SICK... down wif feveR & sore thRoat...nid 2 be weLL by sun coz i'M werkin... if nt i wun haf deenergy 2 werk... haiyo...

just wanna update abt ytd... hmmm met my sista 4 dinner @MAC... hahhhahakk.. den dere was party going on...if i'm nt wrong it was BPSS.... damn noisy la... kalah bdkkecik nye party sia.. realli la... i was like laughin @ dem la.. cn't belief @ dat kind of age dey cn like celebrateburfdae @ MAC... it was realli shockin la... wakakaka....i didn't stop makin fun of dem la... bad rite... wakaka..2 bad... i wanna b a bad person... whu care rite... so b it..as long as i'm happi den whu care... jadi baik pun no dif..hmmm....

i'm just confused nowadaes.. hais.. feel so as if i'm so bad..so selfish....hais.. onli tink of myself.. & nt others...hais.. y must i b like dat?? bt i alwaes tink & care abt ppl'sfeelings... den whu's de hell goin 2 tink abt mine den??hais.. stupid!!klau da name lelaki smue same... hais...

enuF of dis crappy things uh.. abt my skul thiNgs now... gonna b 2nd yr soon wen sch reopen... & it realli sux...nid 2 do personal profiling.. arrgghh... dat's enf 2 kill me.. damn difficult la.. dun even noe wat do on...hais.. reaLLi no mood, inspiration 2 do dis... hais...gonna die la... weN will i b able 2 pick myself up again??i cn't focus on my work... damn it.. hais... wat's de hellis happening 2 me nOw??? ani1 dere pls help & guide me alonG plss... hais.. sobx2...

just find de seni kate so meaningful la... so tyke care..mish my bestie & mish being mYself ... hais... assalamualaikum!!


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hmmm... actuali i'm bored 2 deaTh la.. hais.. so meNdak.... nTh 2 do... da 2 raIning veRi de leBat nye... wakakaka... tkle kua ... doinks .... noW i'm rotting... damn... mish goin 2 skul... hais....

was so suprised dat i loose de game ... wakaka.... just feel as if i'm nt being myself la... de way i play as if i nvr eat like dat... veri damn weak... de surrounding was like so crowded yet i felt veri cold... hais.. nvm... dun feel sad eventhough i lost..... da adat permainan... cey2... hurhur...

reach home i felt so cold la... hais.. den my voice was like getting softer.. .. my throat veri pain seh.. aiyo.. hate being sick la.. den sneezing all de way... i wanna recover soon ... sob2... hais...

i'm so stress le... haven even start on my personal profiling (PP).... hais.. die la...
dun noe wat 2 do... difficult sia... ani1 help me pleaseee... =((

dat's all 4 now... hmmm.... update soon la hor.. tyke care peeps.....
btw i saw diniy ytd.... wakakakka... da lame tk nmpk die.. hurhur.... otey2...

tatattatatatata.....

To de person dat haf help me 2 post my entry all dis while.... i realli appreciate it so much...
tank yoou so much... =))

no wat... saw azie ytd @ my skul library... she's de future republican u noe... wakakaka....
wen dere 2 re4mat my lappie la... de good thing is dat i didn't bring along my adapter...
dat's how clever am i rite... hais... dengx 2 de max... but i was lucky... my lappie goes oout of batt wen de things was all done... wooohoo.... amin...

wen 2 causeway after dat... walk2 wif my sista la... den saw my junior... syafiqah... mish her alot seh... she wif elyana.... N another girl... dun realli no her... bt i was realli glad 2 terserempak wif her la... hurhur.... hope dat i cn spend time wif her n de rest soon... insyallah...

wen 2 lot 1 2 haf dinner wif my sistaz & her fwen la... @ food culture... realli hungry la... coz didn't ate anitin b4 dat.... saw dat same guy again sia... dun noe whu is he la... kept terserempaking hym & his fwns 4 like more den 5 times la.. den look @ me as if he no me like dat.. hais... ape la org2 ni... tkde keje lain... bt nvm... mata die... biar la ...

wen i wanted 2 try my internet connection @ home.... sumtin dat realli make me frustrated happen... my lappie cn't detect ani wireless connection... i was like arrgghh... i god... 1 problem after another... damn it...

* sorie 2 de ppl whom i couldn't talk 2 ytd... i reallli gt stress p wif all dis things la.. den i gt no time 2 talk on te fone.. sorie once again... ni bkn alasan tapi kenyataan...

@ last my lappie problems haf solve.... all are back 2 normal... hopefulli... wakakaka....
guess i'm nt going 2 re4mat dis lappie animore... dat realli gif me alot of problems sia...
1 sad things is dat i've lost all my songs & pics... damn it.. hais... mayb my fault la.. didn't save properly... nvm... bt i'm still sad la... hais...

guess i stop now.... mayb later i'll update more... tyke care ppl..

assalamualaikum.....

Decide 2 like update my bLog now… so yah… here it goes…..

Few mths back… I really breakdown a lot of time lah… hais… dat’s shows how weak I am actually… wakakaka… bt nvm… I alwaes treat it as an OBSTICLE in life… dat is wen tahap kesabaran kite dicabar la basically… after a long time I did manage to like overcum abit of de obstacle in life… all tanx 2 my bestie, my sistax, princess azie, hidayah, dat siao ting tong & de rest la… dey really show concern, care & all uh… I really appreciate it uh….

1stly , I wanted 2 sae sorrie 2 ayie 4 hurtin hym all dis while… hais… I dun really meant 2 la… just dat cinta tk blh dipakse2… dere’s onli 1 person dat’s in my heart… hais… I nOe I might be selfish 2ward u…bt de thing is dat I dn wan 2 repeat my mistake again dat is to 2 time ppl… hais… I dn wan 2 gif ppl hope dat I might b theirs one dae… coz I dun like 2 c dem suffer… if dey are suffering… I’ll suffer more… coz de reason 4 dem 2 suffer is bcoz of me… hais… how u understand my situation la…. go ahead uh if u wan 2 hate me or wat….. I just cn’t stop u… hais… y must dis happens??? Y must I hurt ppl...??? y must I b selfish??? Damn it!!!

2dae wen 2 geylang wif mummy and angah…. Kekeke.. was really fun la… eventhough it’s tiring… wahahah… I enjoy it… coz I get 2 spend time wif my mummy… ate tom yam 4 dinner… wakaka… alik terus stomach cramp…. Wakkaka… stupid rite… hais… nvm… my mummy veri cute la… wen we boarded de train and sat down… she straight away ask me for my fone… I was like "huh??" hurhur…. She wanted 2 play game… den wen I gave her she just play 3-4 game den she passed back 2 my sista.. I was like cpt nah main game… I laugh & laugh @ her la… cute rite… she dun really noe how 2 play de game… hurhur… =))

Just wanted 2 sae sori 2 bestie coz I didn’t get 2 mit her just now… hais.. I mish her a lot la… but she’s kinda bz 4 de moment… so dn get 2 mit her la… hais… hopefully get 2 mit her nxt wk… hais..

Hmmm… guess I’m going 2 stop here la… will update soon.. if rajin uh… maklum la… wakakak…
Tyke care ppl… 2 mie2 tyke care of eurr self okie… hope u’ll get well soon… amin….

Bye2…. Assalamualaikum….

hi dere peeps....

back 2 update my blog.... hais... still having problem wif my lappie... hais... cn't realli upate my entry.. den now i cn't even go 2 fwnster...
wat de hack rite... bingit btl... tell me wat shd i do??? hais.. shud i reformat my lappie...??? or wat?? so de pathatic la... hate it...

okie la... i'm simply bored la 2dae.... damn tired coz nt enuf rest & etc... hmmm…
I dun noe wat I wan in life now… I just cn’t tink… as if I haf no arah tujuan dlm hidup…. Y must all dis happens 2 me…??? Wat did I do till all dis happens in my life…. Really hate myself…

I just dun understand…. Arrghh… y must I breakdown infront of hym… hais… damn it….

Actually I dun noe wat 2 write anymore…. Hais… guess I stop here la…. Btw i realli mish hym alot… sobx2…

Dis song really meaningful la 4 me… & 2 others read it….

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1st things 1st...

i'm so fuck p wif my lappie la... cn't even update my blog. stupid... realli dun't noe wat's wrong wif it la... it's been a wk i guess... i didn't update bcos of this things la... hais... bt tanx 2 princess azie... she'd help me... woohoo... tanx eh girl... i reali appreciate it.... realli hope dat i can like update my own entry la... so tk susah kn org kn... wakaka... cian die... once again tanx princess azie... kekekek...

2nd things 2nd...

i'm so damn confused now... hais... dun noe wat 2 do... wat i wan... wat i shd do... bla... bla... bla... i'm like soo damn stupid la.... hais...
i just tot dat history might nt repeat itself bt NO.... it prove me wrong... my god... dis time it's worse... hanya tuhan saje la yg tahu betape terseksa nye hati ini.... sobx2...
y must i alwaes hurt ppl's feeling??? y cn't i just gif dem de happiness dat dey wan.??? i dun mind being hurt... as long as dey are happy... i noe i might b very cruel...
suke nah mencabar kesabaran org... very de sarcastic person... but dat's my nature... u cnt do anitin... hais... i dun noe wat 2 sae... 4 de past dae... watever happen realli piss me off la... bt i simply cn't sae aniting la... coz dat's their hak utk uat pape dey wan.. i cn't halang... terpulang la... if u wanna wait... den just wait... i dun force.. but pls dun alwaes get piss off or bingit or jealous over other guys... dat's realli irritating...

3rd things 3rd...

actualli i've plan 2 go 2 changi beach 2dae but... it was cancel... i'm de 1 wh cancel it la.. coz zalikha sae dere gt lipan... i was like huh?? realli... ar nk go dere... u noe .. just 2 tenang kn my fikiran.... nvm.. i do enjoy my outing 2dae... tanx okie... wakaka... realli enjoy it... bt onli 1 things dat change my mood off.... perasaan cemburu... it realli piss me off... REALLI... i wun stop ppl frm loving me... having feelings 4 me... but pls... respect my decision... I DUN WANNA GO INTO RELATIONSHIP 4 DE TYME BEING.....
pls understand dat... i realli u care & love me... try & nvr gif up 2 win my heart... dun rush all de things... take 1 step @ a time.... let me tell u...
PERASAAN CINTA 2 AKAN DTG DGN SENDIRI NYE... DERE'S NO NID 4 US TO LIKE FORCE IT...

4th things 4th...

tanx 2 my fwns dat was dere 4 me wen i realli nid dem... hais... realli so touched wen i noe dat dey are realli dere 4 me... luv dem 2 pieces....

guess dat i'll stop here... i'll do smth abt my lappie & hopefulli everitin goes smoothly 4 me... kekekeke... tyke care people... luv ya....

back 2 update my blog...

1stly i was so saded coz 'HE' realli ignore me... hais... leaving me 4ever... =((
tkpe la... org da de 'ORG ' baru kn... nk uat pe... as long as 'HE's' hapie den okie wif me...
i dun mind 2 b de 1 whu's suffering... hais...

2ndly i'm so sorie 2 'HYM' coz i tink i hurt u... & yah... dis person is so nice 2 me... yerp... care alot 4 me... understand me... alwaes b dere 4 me... how i wish i cn b wif dat kind of person....
but well klau de jodoh tk kn ke mane pe rite.... i noe u're jealous over 'DIE' but cum on...
u haf my word... slagi i'm nt attached... i still cn b fwn wif ani1... no 1 will stop me... nt even 'DIE'... lagipun 4 de time being i cn't accpt ani1 in my life... i'm nt prepare 4 all dis again...

hais... i'll con't updating later la hor... wanna go bath n mit bestie... keke... tyke care peeps...

once again... i'm sorie... 4 wat i've done... =((

i'M bored 2da3.. so yaH... tinkin of updating my blog lor... kekke...

ytd wen out 4 shoppin.... wakaka... bt most of de things i wanna buy dun haf.... saded =((
de onli things dat i bought was a long necklace & 1 levis jeans... & yah... my sista present... bought 4 her dat top frm topshop... hope she like it... kekeke...

wen all over de place 2 search 4 my things bt all cannot find.... hais... pity bestie.. must all de way here & dere... she totalli tired la all de way... wakaka... sowie eh gurl... bt realli appreciate her... i was so hapi la... even 4 dat onli 1 dae... i realli enjoy myself...

tot of goin out wif her again... bt den hais... cancel... nvm la... wat 2 do... nxt time cn hang out again... mish hanging out @ our usual lepakin place ... haisss.. time flies so fast... everithing haf bcum memories liao... MEMORIES DAT'S DIFFICULT 4 ME 2 4GET ABT IT... hais.... okie la... enuf liao... stop here...

tyke care okie ppl... tata... =))

feeL like LiFe is meaNing 4 m3..
i cn't 4get abt d pAst... d More i Try 2 4gEt abT iT de mOre i kEpt rmBriNg abT it...
haIs... diS is d worse nItemare... jusT feel like no1 is bY ma side... i'm like loosing everithin da I use 2 haf... saDness... =((

tmR will b 1 BoriN daE agaIn... haiS.. mY sis is werKin... xcepT mY 3rd sis.. she'S sick... bT mayB she's Goin ouT wiF her bF... deN left M3 aLone.. saD rIte... i dUn noe hOw i feel now...
totalli confused... y cn't i pUt all Dis awaY frM my liFe nOw?? i waNna 4get abT it bT i cn't.....

i'm so touch dat hidayah realli care abt me.. tanx dear 4 de advises dat u gave me all dis while..
appreciate it so much... insyaLLah we'll mit up 1 dae & spent time 2gether gether okie...

tink dat's all 4 2dae... tink i'm breakin down in ani minute... coz it's areadi 5 of march... hais..
memories... tyke care peeps... nites nites...

wassUp ever1....
hurhur... hmm... 2dae was realli bored 4 me.. all de way stayin @ home... BOREDNESS.... woke up den watCh tv... plaY game... slp... den watch cartoon... den decided 2 pick my sis up.. wakaka... touChin rite.. furthermore i mish my KIDS.. yup... saw sum of dem just now.... yup2...

wen 2 limbang mac 2 haf dinner wif sis... we shared de meal la since both haf no appetite 2 eat... noe wat... both of us gt balloons frm one of my fwen... so swit la.. btw tanx hor... evey1 was like lookin @ us.. wakaka.. paiseh sia,... hahah...

now i'm totalli bored... nth 2 do... sian le... i tink i saw hym just now @ ikha's void deck... i just cn feel dat was hym & de rest of de guys... furthermore dey were lookin @ my direction... hmmm mayb yes mayb nope... aiyo.. dun care la... hehehe... i nid 2 move on... i haf 2... hais... i nid 2 pay more attention 2 my studies... i cn't slack liao.. if nt anwar will b goin 2 nag n nag @ me... wakaka... dis time no more playin... i dun wanna repeat... hmmm...

i just dun understand y cn't i just 4get abt hym even i haf more den enuf ppl 2 replace hym... y cn't i tyke hym off my heart...??? hais......

cn't wait 2 go out wif bestie dis tues... weeeee... cn go shoppin...
tyke care ppl.... =))

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