foRt canNing/ hp lost

another side of fort canning was nice......
but full of nyamuk....
bite me like nobodys business....
took lots n lots n lots of pictures...
damn fun but tiring coz there's alot of stairs to b climb....
found a new fwn.....
hahaha.....

apart from the happy moments was the sad story..
lost my fav hp....
dun noe where it have gone to....
sob2...
all tanx to my carelessness....
never lost my fone b4 n this is the first time...
pasrah nyeeeee.....
saded.....

after which had dinner at cwp....
had ban mian for sure....
craving for that for a very long time....
syiok sia de ban mian.....
hmmmm.....
hahaha....
wen lepak with sayang at the mrt station dere....
tookk pic again as usual....
after which wen back home coz tired liao....

it the feeling that something that seems to be different...
kind of wierd but dat's wat i feel about us now....
barriers that kip us apart somehow....
mayb u just dun understand it....
how am i supposed to let u noe wat's always in my mind....
wen u just cnt understand it....
hais.....

Birthday count down...

30 mins to go....
turning 21 years old...
yet doesnt look like...
cool or wat....
maintain small kid as usual...

tmr will be the dae where i shud enjoy....
every minutes every seconds of the moments....
ending werk at ard 4pm & off for tuition...
miting bestie n maria at orchard...
weeeee!!!!!!!
gonna enjoy myself wif them....
btw tanx dear bestie for planning smth 4 me...
lurp u so many many many more....

so touch that even my grandmother wish me advance bdae wish....
love u nenek.... mucksss!!!

now doing nth else other then blogging and msning n facebooking....
i'm sooooo de boredddd.....
waiting for the minutes n seconds to come...
wishes my bdae wish before going to bed....
hoping that it will come thru one dae...
i wish i wish i wish very hard hard hard....

am i being so unreasonable towards u all these while???
all i wanted is just u to gif me the attention, love n care....
dat's all i ask for from u....
is that so much for u to gif it to me??
just dun get it...
y must things just happen like this...
trying very hard to make things better...
but somehow it just cant happen just as planned....
wat dat have gone wrong .....
just cnt figure it out on my own frm that moments things go haywire...
wierd but yet it does happen....

just so hard to accpt the fact...
all i noe is just to run from problems....
till wen will i be stop running from all these...
wat will happen next if that were to happen???
wait n let the time do the job.....

gd nite people.....
have a nice dae......

HE's BACK!!!!
by my side alwaes....

i noe i dissappoint u.....
xcpting more den wat dat happen...
tried to make things more fun but i fail...
regret to make u walked so long.....
regret for demanding on dat stuppid fone....
it just made me so terribly down....
looking at face like dat...
make me cry inside...
wanting 2 met u was the priorty wen u cum back....
not like wat happen on the day....
breaking down infront of bestie was embarrassing.....
trying to control but just cnt hold it any longer....
btw tanx bestie for being dere for me....
now den u noe how hard things goes for me...
watever u saes are ur point of view....
i dun ask much from u...
just ur care n concern dat will make different in my life....
i love u as much as i love jumalee.....
both of u means so much to me....
i dun wan 2 loose ani1 of u...

being unreasonable is just happen without knowing it....
but am i???
u tried to make me be an independent person but fail...
reason being i dun wan to be 1....
used to be like dis...
being around people that love me, care and being pampared....
that me....
hope u understand me....

i miss you sayang....
no matter wat happen,
u'll be alwaes in my heart...
that's the promise i've made...
how mad i am towards u,
how sad i am,
i still love u alot....

sOre thRoat dae....
was supposed to go to work but cudnt force myself up....
feeling so sick and pain.....
all thanxs 2 whu ever dat pass it to me...
went to collect mc and medicine....
wanna sae thanx to NURUL for the company....
had an early tuition with Insyirah....
math was fun 4 me but not her...
hope that she'll do well 4 tmr's paper...
please dun dissapoint me n ur mum.......

3 more daes to see him back in SINGAPORE....
so am i excited for that???
dun really noe wat's the answer to that question...
no doubt that it wasnt complete without him around...
mayb just starting to get use to being around others n not him....
hopefully the feeling of awkard wont exist by then....

feel happy for him for enduring 24 daes to complete the camp....
at last it's going to an end.....
after all the hard work that have been done all these while....
shud have some celebration with him...
hopefully he love it.....
imy daydee... =(

21 may will be the day for small girl to turn 21 years old....
the day that i hope that it will be as memorable as last year....
being around both bestie and hopefully dear boy....
hoping to enjoy every single moments in life....
taking care people...
tata....

woke up in the morning....
feeling a little lost....
kinda of wierd...
missing ....
haiss...

1 wk 2 go and he's back....
hope everything goes smoothly...
not really counting down but just ...
getting bored days after days.....
i wish i can turn back time...
having fun time.....
smiling always...
but not now...
lying to myself....
running away from things....
when will all this feeling stop....
may look happy but the fact i'm not...

so happy for bestie....
at last being wif someone...
someone that she love alot...
wishing u all the best in ur r/s....
i bet u wun have so much prob than me...
i mit u later alrite dear....

working is so getting bored nowadaes....
doing same old things again and again....
considering of changing job but nt nw....
enduring for a few months more to go...

dun feel excited at all for my bdae dis yr....
kind of wierd coz it's really not me....
i dun noe y but dat's the feeling that i feel now...
only looking 4ward for bestie surprise that she made 4 me...
other then that it's just a normal dae....

guess that's all for now....
will update soon if that's feeling to update....
take care people...

review of this week

1 month w/o him was abit wierd....
doing this without him by myside....
ohh welll....

wkdaes was pretty normal routine....
work den tuition den home....
wkends was slightly different...
wen to cut my hair....
mit up wif bestie...
have some toking session at mac...
off to orchard with bestie, sisters and bro in law....
had lots of laughting here n dere....
once i can make my mind at peace.....
enjoying the outing with them...
bought sis the agnes b bag....
nice la but the accessories is more nicer...
n i bought 1 tooo....
wahahaha....
had dinner after a long walking....
wen pizzahut at lucky plaza....
damn full and tired of non stop laughing....
how i wish that this can happen everydae....
the closeness of the siblings and families....
hais.....

10 daes have past and 14 daes to go....
really miss him alot.....
waiting for that 14 daes to past is so long....
hope to mit him 1st thing wen he come back....
hais...

18 daes to gooo.....
wishing for suprises to happen....
will dat wish of mine come true???
taking care people....
imy sayang.... =(