booo!!
hahaha... back 2 update dis bLog....
just change de skin after a long long long time....
i'm just bored la...
so yah...
n i've new tagbox...
coz i 4got my userID n password 4 de cbox....
stm rite me...
oh well...

skul haf cum 2 an end... as in 2nd year... hahaha...
hols is takin place....
meaning i nid 2 werk 4 de whole dae...
if nt i'll b deadli bored doin nth @ home...
hahaha... gonna mish my classmates...
bt cn alwaes mit dem when gt time ...
like wat my abg wan sae... hahaha....

wen 2 bestie's sch just nw.....
had dinner wif her....
pass her some things....
hope dat she's happy n doing fine....
after which mit sis n accompany her 4 dinner...
btw towie 4 being late.... hahaha....

i just wonderin wen will things going 2 b normal...
as if me able 2 be happy & nt lost animore....
biler la mase2 2 akan dtg....
hais...
sometime i'm just tired... sick n tired of all dis...
being hurt alwaes.....
bosan 2 de max...
just hate life being like dis....
how i wish de stars can show me de wae out frm all dis mess....
haiz....

people cum n go every single time....
be it for good or bad..
but sumtime i wonder...
ani reason 4 dat....
yes?! .... no?!....
just left unwritten...
in my heart...

life isn't same as wat i use to have....
things change.....
be it the people... surrounding....
been tinkin all dis while...
asl eh org slalu menyakitkn hati ssorg tanpa sebab yg btl..
just dun get it.....
daes after daes..
i just find dat smue laki same jer prangai...
mayb i'm streotyping la...
but must of the guys do haf the same attitude dat i hate alot2...
hais...

this happen w/0 us knowin....
i wanna sae sorry 2 hym for the attitude dat i gif to hym...
i'm just emotionally unstable dis few daes...
dere's smth dat bothering me bt i'm nt sure wat....
i noe i gt irritatted so easily for the past few daes...
mayb wat u sae is rite la...
bt trust me i understand ur situation...
jst dat i hate to be bubbled....
u shud no me well...
nt even u but zalikha oso...
i noe u guys haf ur reasoning...
bt y mst it be alwaes me dat bcum de victim??
asl ehh???!!!
one ofter another bubblinng me...
nw i've learn my lesson...
nvr believe watever ppl sae be it some1 dat i'm close wif or wat...
i'm just scared to trust ppl nw...
sobx2....

2 more wks to sch hols....
planning 2 werk all de wae...
keeping myself bz as alwaes....
bt i'll make time 2 mit my dear syikin...
nw i just start 2 mish her... hahaha...
i just wish dat everytin cn go back to normal...
i just wish my bestie is here by my side....
i just wish life could be much easier for me...
i just wish i could spend time to the fullest...
enjoying.... laughing non-stop....
BT....
i dun tink it might happen...
de chances is so slim...
i just scared ...
scared dat i might breakdown anitime..
scared dat i cnt face future challenges...
dat's alot of things can happen dat i'm scared of...
ohh god...
please gif some strength...
sob2...

feeling down at dis moment of time....
the feeling like giving up everything dat i'm doing....
haix.... very saded...
lesson was so sux 2 de max....
dun even understand wat i'm doing in class....
dis is all bcoz of me skip last wk's lesson... stupid of me...
hais... faci was kinda irritating... dun like her @ all..... guess i'll get a C dis time..
cn't even ans her stupid question... hw stupid cn i b rite... haissss....
had cookies frm my AUNTY.... nice ... tanx euu... luv u so much... hahaha...
pity my abg going thru wat i've been going thru in de past....
ABG!!! NO MATTER WAT I'LL ALWAES B BY UR SIDE... NO MATTER WAT HAPPEN....
DUN HESITATE TO FIND ME WEN U'RE DWN OR WEN U NID SUM1 TOK 2 ....
I'LL B DERE AS AN WEN U NID ME... I'LL TRY .... JST WAN U 2 SMILE ALWAES OTEY ABG... COZ U LOOK CUTE WEN DAT SMILE OF URS IS DERE.... =p
i just dun understand sum ppl...
ppl jst simple care abt dem bt dey jst dun noe hw 2 appreciate it....
hw dumb cn dey b rite.... or are dey blind... i doubt so.... hais...
i feel like life nw is kind of wierd 4 me...
it's starting to change...
i loose everything that i used to have and nw... nth is left for me...
y uh... yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.....
wat wu gui sae is rite... nw dere's alot of y's in my life....
hais....
watever la.....
hols soonnn woohooo!!!
finding job soon... yeah....
hopefully i cn enjoy my hols dis time....
ending here....
i'll update soon...
tyke care peeps...
camat malam.... =)

9 daes haf pass since 2008 cum.....
startin of a new year for me....
alot of things happen to me in 2007....
be it swit or sour.... good or bad...
it cnt be resist wat... hais....

wat i wan 4 dis year is simple....
to enjoy my dae each n every single min & sec....
i dun wan past 2 just repeat itself....
i've suffer alot during 2007...
been thru alot of shit...
learn alot frm it too....
nvr b too nice 2 guys....
hais...
asl eh all dis must happen...
y cnt things just be de same as wat we plan....
y cnt ppl learn hw to appreciate each other....
yyyyyyyyyy???
so many y cum thru my mind nw....
bdh kn.....

life 4 me as like usual....
boring... hahhaa... bt cn la...
i love being wif my mum n sistas....
dey realli make my dae....
sch is fun 4 me...
being ard my fwns....
wif hairah, ida, nurul, ishak, fir, my dear darren, n alot2 more...
it's fun.....
love dem.... alot2...
nt 4getin my DEAR ABG ZAKI...
noe wat.....
he kept his promise....
he's goin 2 stop smokin....
yaY!!!!
alhamdulillah....
jia you abg.... must cont 2 stop totalli orite....

trying to 4get abt my past wif hym....
like he alwaes sae..." YG SUDA 2 SUDA"....
he gt de point....
mayb it's jst difficult 4 me....
hais... bt i'll do it.... yeah....

AS 4 MY X.....
EH... TANX EH 4 DE PAST 4 MTH WIF U....
I JUST DUN UNDERSTAND U LA....
Y MST U DO ALL DIS EH....
ASL EH ? N BTW SAE TANX 2 UR BRO...
HE REALLI FUCK ME UP SIDE DWN....
N U DID NTH... WTF.... APE JENIS BF EH U....
NVR TOT U'RE DAT TYPE OF PERSON...
IT'S DE WORSE MISTAKE TO HAF U AS MY BF...
HAIS....

y must dere b ppl like dat....
hais... hurtin ppl's feeling... so heartless....
watever la...
guys will alwaes b guys...
prangai same jer....
hais...
bdh kn....

i wish i cn turn back to WAN...
hais...

*lost*