lIfe been fUn 4 me so Far eveRsInce skUl reoPen.... mOre fwNs... moRe fUn....

more streSS.... loLs... cLass was fUn uh sO fAr... enJoy mY eveRi sEcOnds In cLasS wIf mY

claSsmaTes....



sO far i'm cLosed 2 dIs 2 gIrLs bY de Name of HWEE LENG & PIN.... dey're suPer fun ppL la...

alwaes maKe mE laUgh noN-sTop.... Lols... noT 2 4Get dIs 1 CRAZY guy... ALAN .... he siMply

loVe 2 lAugh 4 nO reaSonS loR... bT he's a nice guy lA....



meT sYg JusT nOw... hahah... was Late as per usual... ate dinnER wif hym @ maC doNald...

after which wen 2 dis bLock 2 sIt2.... den he saes smth......:

syg: asl hp u mati??

me : iye ke... ape seh u at ngan my hp...

syg : nta.... i tulis bende jer kt notes....

me: abih asl batt flat..??

syg: mane de... tadi batteri u ramai la....

me: lols.... [ non-stop laughin ]

lols.... so cute la.... de way he phrase his sentense was furni.... hurhur...

luv him alot2.... hehehe...



hmm... guess i'm stopping here la... wanna go bobok liao.... tyke care...

2 bestie : geT well soon orites...



dIs pIc waS dE pIc i Love de Best.... he's cute uh.... i'm cuter.... lols....








[ mifah - E - zAsyA ]

GOOD NEW !!!!


hmmm... wanna sae "CONGRATULATION" to shaari.... lols...


hope u're happy wif her okie....


dun worrie abt u breakin ur promish....


just b happie ....


enjoy ur life 2 de fullest.....


hmmm....


so glad dat ppl dat i care is living their life happiLi....


yup2... dat's 4 sure... hope dat everithin will be okie 4 all of u la hor....


assalamualaikum.....

life.....

full wif ups & down... hais... bt it realli taught me so many things in life....
mistake are nt supposed to b repeated... but sumtime it just happen w/o me realising it...
hais..... dun understand how ppl react now a daes... realli wierd...

been 2 month hidup tanpa arah tujuan.... i dun noe wat i wan... what i'm doing...
wat i noe is dat i wanna move on & b happi... haf fun wif ppl... alwaes being accompanied by him... here & dere... alwaes smiling.... nvr cry on my own... coz i noe i'm nt alone... i noe both of them love me alot... but i just cn't... my heart simply cn't accpt ani1... it's kind of selfish la...
bt it's better den playin wif ppl's heart... hais..

now i'm okie liao... bz wif my skul work... my life wif him,... my bestie... fwns....
yah!!.. back 2 skul was fun... mit new ppl... woohooo... fun2... lols...

hmm... stop here liao ...

assalamualaikum....

aLo2 peepS.... back 2 update abt my life now... hmmm... as my dear hidayah keep askin me 2 update ... so here it goes....

wen 4 pit @ pasir ris park on de fri nite wif de ex-kranjian... woohoo....
it was fun la... did de shopping last min.... hahhaaha... damn tired but i realli enjoy myself la... hurhur.... reach dere ard 5 plus... den lek2 kt pit... main card... hahaha... deesyan taught me how 2 play la but i was realli damn BLUR la... hahaha... tk pandai2.... selenge btl... hahahah
after which we waited 4 de charcoal 2 arrived @ de pit... damn slow la... nk start de api jer nk kt 1 hr... bdh... dah la lapar... de rest buat dek jer... mcm nk sepak jer satu2... pe'el ... hais...

ard 9 den we started de bbqing.... so late la.. haiyo... den everi1 was like mls nk masak bt nk mkn... PEMALAS.... den tings started 2 like more happeninng uh... dey started 2 cook & stuff...
da lapar... pandai la drg masak... hahahaha... everitin wen on smoothli... but onli wen dey started 2 drink,... & satu2 mabok... hais... so damn scari la wen look @ dem.....

overall i still enjoy myself eventhough i'm damn tired uh.... kene embun mlm.... ampai sakit2...
ape agi eh.... ohh yah... my bestie.... congrats eh girl... da pandai uh naik basikal... woohoo!!!.. next time le cycle ngan aku kk... 2 pun klau aku igt h cane nk naik.... lols....

2dae was de 1st dae of skul... & i saw so many familiar faces sia... de boring part... everywhere was damn pack la... jln mcm sardin seh... langgar2 org... sial jer... hais... as 4 my classmate... dey were okie la so far..my team members was fun uh... easy 2 communicate.... but tmr diff ppl... hais... so lets c how la hor...

guess i'll stop here okie... dun noe wat 2 write liao... lols... so yah...
i'll update soon uh... btw my nxt hols will b on june.... woohoo... den weds i'm nt skuling....
weeee!!! best2... mayb pick up my syg frm skul.... 2 pun klau rajin... wahahhaha....

tatata...

assalamualaikum..... =`P

praCtically bored @ home...

cn get oUt bed la... i gT fever la... saDEd... tooK panadOl bT still cn't slp till now...

sian le... wan 2 go oUT bt no Mood... bUT i waN 2 g coFfee beaN .... haiS... nVm la... mYb tMr den cN go La... hehehe....

been tiNk abt dis 2 much la all dis while... hais... i mish my bestie la... wanna go out wif her... bt den hais... she's bz la... so yah... i'm alone.. duh... saded...

ytd wen 2 skuL wif hIdayah... hahahha... veri siaN mah so ask her alOng... yup2... supposed 2 mit ard 10.30 am... end up reach 11.30am... wakakaka... dengs... janji MELAYU btl.....

after which wen 2 IT helpdesk la... jia lat sia... go early oso so many ppl sia.. dengs... hurhur....

so we waited & waited... was dere 4 like 2 hr plus i guess... hurhur... damn long la... & my lappie still siao2... hais.. cn't download my UT clients.... aiyo... stupid la... ytd was like 3rd time goin dere.. stupid sia... hais...

mit diniy uh after i'm done wif my stuff.... hurhur.. after which we wen 2wards de mrt station...

actualli we dun noe where 2 go... but den lastly decided 2 go 2 bishan coffee bean... woohooo!!

just sat dere... tokin & tokin... since been a long time me & dayah tk spend time... so yah....

ard 7pm we decide to go home... she nid 2 go home la 4 sum reason... hahahaha.... den i was like alah... so fast sia... i just dun feel like goin home so fast la.. hahhahak...

all de wae it was raining sia... super cold la.. especially during in skul... hahahah... dengs.... after which i just walk home lor... damn bored la....

[ US aGaiN @ de tRaiN platForm ]

[ hiD @ de MRt sTatIon ]

[ while @ de IT help desk... nth better 2 do.. ]

tyke care peePs... mIsh u aLot2...

assalamualaikum... =`P

hey... i just hope that syahmi know how u r feeling rite now. syahmi if u read this, u're making her suffer. atleast tell her y u broke off with her. she still love u alots! she can never replace U
SYAHMI with any other guy.

I just hope that u have some heart for her. Cos she really love u. alot. nothing can replace n explain her love 4 u SYAHMI. i just hope u feel how she feel one day and regret treating her that way. I just hope that FaSyaH MiEzA will be together Again and happily ever after... its not only me who want to her happy... All her frens want to... I bet U SYAHMI also want to see her happy!

So Syahmi... THINK A MILLION TIMES on wat u've done to her... She's Suffering wothout YOU! She MORE THAN HAPPY TO BE WITH YOU SYAHMI!I just hope that FaSyAh MiEzA WilL Be ToGeThEr Again! InSyAllAh! PleAsE SyahmI! ThAnKz! I HoPe you syahmi UnderStand!

[ 2 syahmi frm shaari ]

back 2 update my blog.... hmmm... just reach home... just kene ceramah frm my dad.. hais...
bt nvm... i noe i'm wrong... afterall i'm a gurl ma..... dey simply worry la hor... i'm just so touch about wat ayi do la.... i noe he wan me 2 b happy.... hais... bt 2 bad... i cn't do anythin... i just cn't 4get abt syahmi la... it's totalli my fault 4 making ppl suffer... hais... i noe i'm de bad 1... ni bukan kehendak aku ... i dun wan all dis 2 happen bt it just happen by itself... i cn't do anitin.....

i'm sori dat i cn't accpt ani1 4 now... hais.. reali sori.. bukan nye tk nk cume nta la.. i oso dun noe y i cnt accpt ppl 4 dis round...

ayi if u realli wan me 2 make 2 make u realli hate me den i will do dat... i respect ur decision...
i myself wan u 2 b happy... i just wish i cn gif other ppl a chance... afterall i still wan 2 b sum1's little girl... hais... watever it is... just tell me... if u realli wan me 2 make u hate me den tell me...
i'll do it eventhough i dun wan 2... coz dosa tau uat org benci kn ssrg 2...

till den ... tyke care ppl... i hope dat everythin goin 2 b just fine wen my burfdae cums... insyallah... amin....

assalamualaikum.... =)

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dis is wat i feel now... hais... life.. dammn sian la.. wif all dis things...
i do mish him..... hais... y must i mish him after wat he've done all dis while??
am i stupid or wat.?? how bad he is i still love him.... hais... bt 2 bad... i guess i'm realli nt 4 him la... been tinkin abt it... de way he treat me... tok 2 me.... words dat he use.... i guess i wun b wif him back la... mayb yes bt in lala land jer... as u noe... harapan dah jadi angan2...
if de jodoh ngan die insyallah... if nt so b it... haf 2 accpt it... da takdir .... hais... nasib kn...
okie la... gt 2 go & siap2... goin out wif my fwn... wakaka... tyke care ppl...

assalamualaikum....

assalamualaikum.....

let me start de story of wat happens 4 de whole dae l hor...

wen 2 mit a fwn of mine @ ut mrt station... coz nid help 4 my lappie la.. tk habis2 nk perangai la.. bingit jer.. hais... dey help me 're4mat' my lappie.... den everithin in my lappie just 'GONE' 4 de 2nd time.. i was like 'DAMN IT'.. hais... realli feel like smashin de lappie 2 de wall sia... bt tanx 2 SHAHUL[ tink dis is de rite spelling la]... he realli did help me wif all de probs dat i've face la..
realli appreciate it so much.... & 2 mustafa i oso appreciate ur help la... u did try ur veri best 2 help me.. hahahkk... sori dat i was late uh tadi... realli felt damn tired... hahahakkk... peaceee!!

ard 4pm met my mum, grandma & my sistaz @ CWP.... wen 2 banquet 2 haf dinner la.... hmmm... had carrot cake... damn full la... didn't finishh it up... as per usual la... my 2nd sis finish it up... wahahaha... tanx sista..!! after which wen 2 my grandma house... yup... watch tv... vcd... following dat wen 2 mit Anwar awhile la @ void deck.... had a short chat wif hym la... abt my lappie... my pp... he's alwaes dere wen i nid help... tanx anwar... appreciate it so much...

reach home ard 11 i guess... wash up den decided 2 install watever things dat i nid in2 my lappie... den half wae it starts 2 perangai again... realli piss me off la... dat time my mind feel like burstin sia... 2 much things dat i'm tinkin @ 1 shot... hais... i noe i did make mustafa piss off... i noe i perangai wif him... i lepas kn geram @ him... hai... i'm sorrie... didn't mean 2 do dat... i just cn't control my anger... after dae by dae i just realise dat my limit of patience is becoming thinner & thinner....got angry easily... scold ppl 4 no reason... damn it... wat's happening 2 me??!

i'm realli tired now.... damn tired... tireeeeed offf living..... in a situation like dis!! watever happening 2 me now is like more den wat i xpected all dis while... y must all dis happen 2 me??
i wan 2 gif up in dis.. LOVE REALLI HURT.... DAMN HURTIN!!... how i wish i cn be like last time... enjoyin my time... w/o all dis problems c'min 2 me... hais.... i dun noe wat 2 do ... realli...

4 dis case i guess i'll suffer de most... hais... i'm like goin thru' a loosing battle... a battle dat i noe i'm goin 2 lose & hurt myself even more.... hais... y am i so stuborn??? y cn't i accpt de fact dat i'm ntt 4 HIM???? y cn't i just get over HIM and just move on??? reason being MY HEART STILL SAES DAT I LOVE HIM.... damn it...

ayi... i bkn nye did all dis on purpose... i bkn nye tk nk accpt u or wat... de thing is dat i'm nt readi 4 all dis... i'm realli sori if i do/happen 2 like gif u empty HOPES.... my heart still cn't accpt ani1 4 de time being... i dun feel like getting in2 relationship... i'm nt prepare 4 more worse problems dat might arrive later.... now i gif u de power 2 decide... do wat u tink dat best 4 u...
i dun wan u 2 suffer.... all bcoz if all dis stupid things... u're a nice guy okie... dun worie u'll fine sum1 100x better den me...

totalli confused abt all dis things... rase serbe salah wen cum 2 tink abt all dis things la... feel like doin sumthin stupid 1 of de daes..... just 2 release all my tension & problems dat i haf.... bt i dun noe wat... hurhur.... stupid me...

bestie!!! realli hope dat u're here now by my side... hais... do ani1 understand how i feel rite now?? hais... guess wat... she've finish her orientation... woohooo!!! so dat's mean she'll haf time 4 me.... hmmm... will she??!! i dun noe... hais... mish spending time wif her... tykin pics.... lepakin @ de playgrd.... havin dinner wif her.... yah... alot of things la basically.... i mish dat... alot alot... saded!!... =((

mus... i'm sori if i slalu lepas kn geram @ u & perangai kt u la eh... i dun mean it.... just dat i cn stand it la... i cn't realli ctrl my feeling nowadaes la..... dun no y ... mayb i'm gettin sick & tired....
hais... sejak2 sakit ni i mcm nt being myself la... i'm sori... realli damn sori... i'm stuborn la... i tkk nk ckp wen u ask me so la... coz i dun wan 2 la... nt bcuz of other things la... hope u dun take it 2 heart la eh... i kdg2 mmg gi2... bear wif it la hor...if u cn't den just leave it jer... meaning buat bdh jer... okie...

faeza.. hmmm... wat shud i do now??? am i goin 2 just con't doin smth dat i myslef dun no wat i'm doin or ??? tink tink... arrghhh!! i'm totalli lost ... all tanx 2 dat guy la... u realli make me realise more in de world of relationship.... yah!... btw i'm nt mature... just dat i force myelf 2 sae dat i'm nt de 1 4 u ... i wanna c wat's ur reaction.... hais... i'm so stupid... realli damn stupid....

GAME OVER ....

HARAPAN yg hanya tinggal ANGAN2

shud i cont waitin or shud i just gif others a chance???



hais... i dun noe... damn it...



feel like CRY.... arrghhh!!! dat's how weak i am.....



HAIS.... Y CN'T I SIMPLY 4GET ABT U SINCE I NOE DAT I'M NT 4 U???



y must i go thru all dis??? hais....



tyke care ppl.... assalamualaikum.... =((

tireD... hais....

back 2 con't my boring story....

been werkin 3 straight daes... hais... damn tired... reach home ard 11 plus.... after which slpt @ ard 2am... nxt dae wake up ard 10am... damn damn tired la... furthermore i'm nt feeling quite well la... down wif so much sickness... damn it!!

now a daes i've been tinkin abt so many things in my minds.... just 2 many dat i myself dun noe wat i've been tinkin abt.... aggrrhh...!! hate it...

school is starting soon... & i'm nt readi @ all... nt readi 4 de stressness & etc.... dere's 2 much things in my mind till biler2 it cn burst... hais.... how i wish i cn share ouut all my probs 2 sum1 dat realli understand me & able 2 help me in sum waes...

experiences in life realli make me b a better person.... bcoz of wat haf happen 2 me all dis while make me think more.... makin de rite choice in life....

i mish my little darlins... hahahahk... mish dem alot... gonna mit dem in skul on nxt mon... weeee!!! cn't wait... yay!!!

i mish my bestie alot2... hais... she's so damn bz la... dun wan 2 disturb her... coz i dun wan 2 trouble her... as long as she's happie... i'm hapi 2... =)) realli hope dat i cn mit her soon... i wanna buy her smth... like how i use 2 do dulu... how i wish time cn b rewind back 2 de time wen i'm alwaes hapi ... hais....

mish hanging out wif my peeps... my sec sch peeps... w15b....w25h... hais.. time reali pass so fast... yah.... damn fast.... ape ke tak...been single 4 like goin 2 b 2mth... wahh!! dat's long... but yet i cn't open my heart 4 ani1... hais...

guess i stop here.... wanna go lala land... coz my csi 2dae dun haf... stupid rite... hais...
okie den...
assalamualaikum....