haf been a while since i updated tis poor blog....
my dear abg kept asking me 2 update...
hahha.... so towie abg zaki coz i gt no time....
nw i'll update watever dat took place 4 de past wks....

wen to IT fare dat last3 sat i guess....
wif my dear abg zaki n nurUl....
b4 dat wen 2 revise for UT @ j.e lib....
it was so jam pack la....
wat i nOe i nearly fainted la...
cnt stand the ppl that kept push me here n dere...
bought lappy a cover....
tanx abg 4 carrying my HEAVY bag 4 me....
after dat wen 2 mit my WUI GUI....
mish hym since a long time nvr mit him...
wat i cn sae he's getting thinner and DARKER...
wakkakaakaka..... eat more otey wui gui....

sch was fun as usual...
only de boring thing is tat it haf been raining for the past few wks....
damn.... so de nt fun lor....
dun like 2 wear raincoat..... look so funni la.....
nt cute.... veri big lor....
my pp finish liao...
weeeEEE!!!
i soooo de haPPy ....
hopefully i'll pass my pp....
amin....

imishmybestie....
wen will u be free to spend time wif me.?
sobx2...

i'll stop here... i'll update soon wen i feel like updating it....
i wish i could do something that can make people happy.....
i hate that i love you so....
peaceee!!
taatata.....

hey ya peepsss....

was the starting of the school today.....
1st lesson was micro c....
damn irritating yet fun.... hehehe...
gt scolding frm my DEAR faci for nt cumin 4 lesson last week....
wahahahah.... kene shot sia... saded.... hais....
lesson was preety short la....
no ppt... onli each person do 1/4 of the codes and done....
but ..... hais...
i made my team lost 4 energy... sob2...
i go click anihw lor.... wahahaha....
funni.... den everi1 disturb me.... =(
hw blur cn i be... hais....

all my 1st UTs flungs.... hais... y uh...??
study oso flung.... bodoh sia me...
i realli nid books 2 study.... realli.....
i wan 2 faster grad frm poly....
stress 2 de max.....
hais...

report is done and nw 1 more burden.... POSTER!!!
hw 2 doooo...? haiyo.... cn i just dun do all dis.... i wan exams.... sob2....
must jia you do poster & present it onces and for all.... hais...
feel so scare le 2 present... skali kena shot frm de advisor den i'm dead....
ohhh GOD help me.....!!!

life seems to very complicated.....
too much obstacles dat came @ 1 shot....
1st wen i got 2 knw dat he's gettin engaged....
2nd wen i noe i dat i must move on frm him....
3rd wen i nid 2 put all de memories dat i had wif both of dem in a box & left it bhind....
4th. . . . . . . . . . .
5th. . . . . . . .
i may nt noe wat's coming nxt 4 me....
will i ever had de strength to go thru' all dis obstacles.....
will i ever have sum1 whu realli care 4 me for whu i'm realli are....
will i ever love sumone like hw i use to love him.....
will i ever find wat's missing in my life.....
de feelin dat i have is sooo strong.....
i'm scared.... realli scared......
i'm scared 2 make de mistake again 4 de 2nd time in my life.....
i'm scared 2 hurt more ppl's feeling .......
so confused.... i realli do..... hais.....

i just wish.......
i can turn back time and make things right.....
hais..... but it's too late..... realli late to turn back.....
onli left is memories.... be it swit or sour..... i treasure it....
'good things only cum once and it'll end dere'........
dat's wat yogibear told me.... & it's true..... veri2 true....
but y must i loose sum1 dat i love soooo much.... i dun understand.....

i'm off now...... nid 2 design my logo 4 class t-shirt.....
tyke care peeps...
muacksss!!

littLe kid is back 2 updaTe a bIt onli....
heheheh.....

juZ gt baCk frM bbQ-inG wiF mY E44F peepS....
iT was fUn eVenthOugh iT's raInin...
loLs...

jUst cHange mY bLogsKin....
nTh 2 do la...
cIan....
scH re-oPenniNG soooonnnn.....
yaY!!!

i mish mY FARHANA......
soBx.....

will upDAte mOre soooooNNNNN..... tyke care peepS.....
tatatatata..................

siCk....
i tink i caught a cold 2dae...
or mayb i'm just feeling down....
hais..... i dun noe...
all de mood just GONE .....
just like dat....
=(

i'm glad dat he's turning 19 liao....
hope he luv de present....
just 1 favour frm u....
wear dat often....
pWish.....
hais...

2dae was fuN in sKUl....
gt 2 disturb ppl...
lesson was pretty easy....
4 de calculation part onli ..... =)
btw tanx 2 FIR 4 de lolipop.....

i've not be toching my pp @ all....
i'm dEad!!!!
i duN noe hw 2 even start lor even i do haf de template...
cn ani1 seat bside me & guide me....??? soBx2...

LATE!!LATE!!LATE!!!
i'm alwaes late 4 skul.... lols....
my grade will b affected sia... BT...
i just dun noe y i like very slacking sia....
good thing gt ppl pick me up wen i'm really late....
tanx to dat person la lor....

y cn't ani1 understand hw i feel 2wards things......
dun noe wen will my heart give up on hym....
wen will i have a proper life......
alots2 of question are left unanswered in my head....
please ani1 gif me de ans dat i wan... pWish.... sob2..... =(

life seems to more complicated now....
looks easy but it's not....
no one noes it....
nt even ME...

kinda confused @ times....
wen i noe i belong 2 sum1...
but i dun feel like....
wierd....

everi hours.....
everi minit....
everi sec....
i still think about hym...
sum1 dat use enter my life....
be dere for me wen i'm in need.....
bt now.....
he's gone....
far2 away frm my life....

i dun understand myself....
what exactli i wan in life.....
hw stupid i cn be....
tryin 2 move on bt FAIL....
wat's so diff btween hym n my other x....
y cn i move on dulu n nt nw...?
wierd huh....
de most i can do is 2 let it b....
hais...
hw i wonder wen will dis cum 2 an end....

LIFE GETTING A LITTLE FUN FOR ME.....
ONLI IN SCHOOL I MEAN....
NEVER I FELT LIKE PONTENING ....
HAHAH....
FUN LA EVENTHOUGH MODULE REALLI DIFFICULT....
WAT DO U XPECT RITE...
YR 2 STUDENT....

BEEN SO STRESS NOW A DAES.....
BT WAS SO 4TUNATE ....
DERE'S ENTERTAINERS IN CLASS 2 MAKE ME LAUGH & DSTRESS MYSELF....
TANX GUYS....
BEEN IN DE SAME GRP WIF HAIRAH 4 LIKE TWICE IN A WK....
SO FUN LA... XCEPT 4 DAT 1 TYME LA....
BT WE MANAGE TO LAUGH AND ENJOY OURSELVES... DT'S IMPT....

HARI RAYA IS CUMING SOONNN.... YAY-NESS.....
HAHAHA.... NO NID 2 PUASE LIAO.... SO MY STOMACH WUN MAKE NOISE...
HEHE... HOPEFULLI YOGIBEAR NT WERKIN MLM RAYA....
CN AJAK DEM MAIN BUNGE API.... YEEPIE... HAHAHAHA.....

WAIT2.... I'M DEAD.... HAVEN DO PP... HW2.... DIE LA...
DUN NOE HW 2 START SIA.... HAIS... DATE LINE IS 1 NOV.... WAH...
JIA LAT.... SUM1 HELP ME LE... =(

UT IS CUMING... DIS CUMING TUESDAE... ANATOMY SUM MORE.. AIYO...
MUST STUDY SIA... IF NOT I'M DEAD DIS TYME... SADED... SO PPL DUN 4 GET TO STUDY 4 UT HOR.....

OKIE LA.... STOPING NOW LIAO... HAPI FASTING AND TATA PEEPS....

baCk 2 update my blog....
since a while i've left my blog aLone...
alot2 of things happens.....
be it good or bad....
sad or happy....
haIs...

sKul been sO fun for me....
niCe peeps....
bt....
onli b wif dem for 4 mths....
nVm....

nW i'm baCk... aLone....
tryiN 2 accpt de fact dat he's nt mIne...
all by mYself.....
hais....

i'm happy for hym nw...
alreadi gt a gf....
hahaha...
been so long sinCe i've met hym....
maklumlah... 24/7 bz.....
all de best la....
u noe hw 2 find me if u nid anythin rite...

2daes lesson realli sux...
make me stress....
feel like goin home....
3rd meeting so pressure sum more...
faci irritating sia....
confirm i'm gettin C...
saded....

i'm done here....
will update soon....
ps: alan... i've update liao... okie...

tyke care peeps....

hols coming 4 me... yipee!!! tyme 2 fill up my time wif lot2 of werk as possible.... hahaha.... den cn go shopping wif my fav aunty pin... both are good in shopping.... ( wasting $$ actualli... ) hhaha... ohh well... dat's our hobby la..... gonna mish her wen she go back malaysia... but nvm...

nxt... i mish my bestie alots2... no joke... hais... i wanna mit her... everytime ppl ak me abt her... i feel like crying.... she's wasn't bside me wen i study, play, shopping, everythin basically...

wen dey other ppl sae dey so long nvr mit her den wat abt me... lagi lame... we dey sae dey mish her... i mish her more... more...more.... i wanna mit u soon okie... we go haf dinner or wat... damn mishes u ....

she just love biting straw.... dun noe y... hhahaha.....

<-- farhana aris....

wen for job interview dat dae... 13 aug... was after skul la... wif heavy bag go dere.... hahhaa.... dragged nurul along wif me... so kind of her la cuming along... appreciate it alots.... headed to raffles place and wen to dis building la... den de security guard very cute... after we finish our interview he ask me whether the interview okie nt... den i sae yah and smile.... so cute la... nt action... hahahah... hopefulli get the job la ... realli wanna try to work as an admin in the bank... u noe the feeling is diff... i wanna xperience doing sumtin diff... dat i nvr do b4.... wish me luck hor... cont'.... wen 2 took picture along the way... the river... scenery was superb nice... indescribable.... beautiful!!! hahaa..... had alot2 of fun wif her dat dae... here's some of the picS....

lesson was fun as alwaes..... classmates all like siao ppl... hahaha... team was fun as per normal...

hehehe... so good rite... hahha... planned for class chalet... it'll b on the 6th & 7th sept.... yipee!!

i wanna go.... bt dun noe cn make it or nt... hais... still considering whether to go chalet wif mie2 or nt... hmmm... i wanna go wif hymm... bt dun noe y he dun let... saded... =(

gonna haf fun sooN... yeah...!! parents goIn 4 holS... den cn do wat i wan... bt den rite... my paint house... sad rite... ani1 wan 2 help me paint... help2 le.... =( tink i wun b werk la on dat 2 daes...

after evertin done den cn go walk2... yeah!!

dat's all abt it....

tata..^^_)

hEy yA derRE...

2Dae Is lIke nOrmaL daE 4 mE...xCepT 4 UT la... hahhaha.... sPeakiN abT uT... jUSt dId UT 4 ciRcuit... wAs pRetti eAsi dIs tIme.... daMnn dEre wasn'T enUf tIme 2 coMplete iT... saDed...
diDn't xPect de pAper 2 b daT easY la... bUt stIll i'M nt daT coNfiDent la... u nOe ppL tenD 2 mAke STUPID CARELESS mistake... hAix...

whOLe daE was iN lAb la... dAmn sLackIn la... oNli dO drIlliN 4 de wHole daE... stUpid rITE... hahaha... fuRthermoRE nt i Do de dRilliN paRt.... haha... taNX 2 akMAl la... stIll gT 2 wks 2 coMple dIS miNi pROj 4 PCB... haIS... ppT waS oKie la... as Per nORmaL....

haD eaRli diNNer wiF nashy... hahaha... lOng tIme siNce i gOt 2 tOk 2 her.... kInda mIsh her....
hahaha... haD diNNer @ maC.... bOth ate mc spicY... hahaha.. suPer duper spiCy... i feel lIke cRyin sIa... hahahah.... tOk 2 eaCh oTHer tIll like 7 plUs i gUess... deN oFF 2 her auNty hOUse 4 tUition ... As 4 ME weN stRaight hOme lOr... yUp2....

cuRentlY nOw i'M jUst kInDa feEl a LittLE saD la... quiTE wierD la... somEtIme i kEpt tiNkin y aM i beiNg tReated thIs waE... haIS.... eVen hYm... iS dIS de wAe u reAlli waN 2 tREat uR GF?!
i'm absoRbing as MucH as I cN bUT dUn Over dO it cOz i'M dO hAf feeLings 2...

hoNestlI i mISh sPenDin tIme wiF besTie... wHen wIll u haF tIme 4 Me lIKe hOW u uSe 2 haF 4 me.... haIs... tyke cARe okie farhana Aris... mIss yOU loTS....

tatatat = /

*^ a sOng daT cOnTaIn mAny2 mEaniNg^*

Yo, I don't know what's goin' on
But I do know one thing
Gotta make it right
Aiight

[Verse 1:]
Man what's goin' out wit chu
Why you treat her like you do
When you know that girl is all about you
Tell me, why you always lose your head
Should find a better way to handle it
You need to stop this game
Before you mess around and lose (Just tryna help ya)

[Chorus:]
What a girl wants (What a girl wants)
What a girl needs
What a girl wants
What a girl needs
A guy to be there for her
What a girl needs (What a girl needs)
Ohhh (What a girl wants)
Ohhh (What a girl needs)
Yeah (What a girl wants)
Honesty, Love, and a friend

[Verse 2:]
(Yeah) You always comin' down on her
Why
You usin' all them foul words
Why
When you know, she'll do anything for you
Tell me, why you always lie to her
You doin' things she don't deserve
Man, if you don't stop
Then she'll end up leaving you (I'm just tryna help ya)

[Chorus:]
I know whatWhat a girl wants (Girl)
What a girl needs (Needs)
What a girl wants (What she wants)
What a girl needs
A guy to be there for her
I know what
What a girl needs (A girl)
What a girl wants (She needs)
What a girl needs (In her world)
What a girl wants
Honesty, Love, and a Friend

[Verse 3:]
You won't know what you got
Til' it's gone
When you're left all alone
She'll be up and out the door
And I'll be right there to say I told you so
No more you had your chance (Had your chance)
Take a hike (Take a hike)
Should've been a man (Should've been a man)
Now she's gone (Now she's gone)
All because you were doin' wrong
Should've listened to me

[Chorus:]
What a girl wants (I told ya)
What a girl needs (What she needs)
What a girl wants (Oh yea)
What a girl needs
Is a guy to be there for her
What she needs (What a girl needs)
In her world (What a girl wants)
What a girl needs
Is a little bit of (What a girl wants)
Honesty, Love, and a Friend
yea, yea, yea

[Bridge: (Background: Repeat "NAH NAH NAH NAH")]
Whassup ladies, I'm Omarion
I'm a Scorpio and I know what a girl needs (Oooh)
Aiight yea

Yo whassup ladies, this is J-Boog
And I' m a Leo
Yea
And I know exactly what it is a girl wants
Believe that

Yea Yo, it's Raz
And I'm a Gemini
And I know exactly what a girl wants
Holla at me (Oooohhh)

Yo yo, whassup ladies, it's Lil' Fizz
And I'm a Sage
And I know all the things
That a girl needs
Ya heard
Aiight
Lets go fellaz

[Chorus:]
What a girl wants (What she wants)
(What a girl needs) What she needs
What a girl wants (Ohh yea)
What a girl needs
Is a guy that will be there for her
What a girl needs (What a girl needs)
Ohh (What a girl wants)
What she wants (What a girl needs)
Ohh yea (What a girl wants)
Is a guy that's gonna be right there for her
As a friend and somebody that she can talk to
What a girl wants (Ohh)
What a girl needs (Yea)
What a girl wants (She wants ohh yea)
What a girl needs

What a girl needs....

YAy!! cHAnGE My BlOgSkin LiAO....

WiLL UpDAte SooONn....

Tata....

^^_ )

sIanXiN iN cLass....

cHanged mY bLogsKIn feW daES bAck.... nIce rIte... PurpLe... BarNey cOlouR... lOls...
haVe bEen awHiLe i dIdn't uPdaTE.. dUn noE wAT 2 wrIte... hMMM... sO manY tHinGs taKIn pLaCE in MY lIfe pAst Few wEEks... reGArdlEss oF gOOd oR bAd tHiNGs.. dIS's lIfe....

[ jUst waNNa teLL hYm dat i'M nT iNvOlved wIf aNitIn daT haPPen daT daE kT maRina 2... i'm just so sHock wEn u're acTin lIke dIS... hAIs... gUess dAt eVeritIn iS enDing 4 US... nT eVEn a FWn... i'M soRi if i'VE dOne aNiTin dAT haF HurT u .... hOpe u'LL b HApi aLwaE ... & no haRD feelINgs OR anItin k... iF derE's, u cN teLL me as & weN u waN oKIE.. ]

1st sem gOIn 2 cuM 2 aN enD sooN... lOLS... dat meaN i reAlli nID to bUCk uP 4 mY gRAdes & mY PP.... *faINt* .... tIMe fLieS reAlli faST... dAMn faST ... hAIs... i reAli dUN nOE wHether i cN coPe wiF dE pRObs dAt kePt cOmin 2 ME... wAt i Cn c IS daT mY lImit oF paTiEnces iS bCoMIn thInner & tHinnEr... dAEs afTEr dAes... weeKS aFteR weeKs.... mOntHS aFTEr mOnTHs.... y iS diS happEning?? i Dun uNdersTAnd.... kePt geTTing anGry sO eaSily.... dAt's nT mE... absOluTElY...!!

beeN a LOng tIMe sInce i spEnd tIme wIf besTie... yuP2... kiNda mIshIn her... bT i dUn tINk we'LL mIT uP 4 nOw... sHe's tOtaLLi bZ wiF skUl, hyM, fwNs... dUn bLame her... hOpe sHe stIll rmBr Me... hmmm...

i waN pOrridge....!! saDed... hahah....

aM i too nIce 2 ppl till deY tend 2 take advantage of me... hais.. bad rite... nvm...

....++....)

cOnfuSEd mOmenTs....

dun feEl so gOOd diS feW dAes... mAyb i'm gOin 2 faLL siCk sooN... oR smTh iS nT riTe suMwHere... i dUn nOe... haIs... haD beeN pOnteN-iNg 4 lIke 3 dAes sTraigHt... MadNess...
daT waS laSt weeK la... nOW i'M so FAr bHind fOR dE mOdule daT pOn daT daE... rEallI haD a haRd tIME trYin 2 caTCh uP wiF de leSSon... feeL lIKe crYin la... bT mY pEEps wERe sO niCE la... tEAch & gUIdiN me aLL de waE... taNx gUYs... aPPreCIAte uR effOrt...

bEEn werKiNG aLL dae 4 wkeNd lIKe nOrmaL... yuP... if nT cN dIE of bOreDnEss.... lOLs...
ytD weN oUT wiF zAliKha... hAd a gREat tIME shOppin, toKIn, jOkin wiF hER... tOt i cN sTAy oUt tiLL lIKe 10 pLus bt sHE gT curFew... n iT waS lIKe 4 dAt dAe oNLi... i WAs lIKE y mUSt iT b mOn... hAIs.. BUTTttt... i pUJuk her 2 aCCompY mE jGk... sO nICE oF her lIKe teLLin heR mUm & stUff.... taNX mAkciK...!! hAd dInNer wiF her... fOllOW bY shOppiNG... i'vE sPEnnd aLOott!!! hAIS... 1 daE sPEnd 50 oVEr $$... jIA lAT le.... hahah.. bUT nVm la... aS lONg aS i'M happI iT's oKIe wiF me.... =P

tOdae lEssoN wAS lIKe oKIe2 4 ME... jUSt a LIttLE cOnfUSing... bIAse LA cIrCuiT aNalySis...
bT i mAnaGE 2 uNdersTANd iT... yAy!!! Pin & dAT jOE vEri fuRni... maKE me lauGh tIll i'M exhauted... lOls.. hAD dIs sMall tOk wiF sEan... he'S a nICE pErsoN... aDviCE mE aLOt oN mY reLatIonshIp... hMM... suMtIMe waT he sAes iS tHru... duN aSK me wAt coZ i cn'T sAe... lOls..

mIt bEsti aFter sKUl... tOt oF spEndin tIMe wiF her oR smTh bUT gUess shE's tirEd.. so yah...
headed hoMe... sIAnx.... aFterwhIch mY stOmacH pAIn,... hAis... ProblEM... aRD 7 pLUS wen liMbang Mc 4 dInner wIf mY sis... wooHooo... vEri fUll tIll waNNA voMIt ouT... loLS...
sAw haKIm & nadIAh... hahah... kiNda mIsh HEr bUT hmmm nVm....

i Dun nOE wAt 2 wRite 4 my RJ le... hAis... sUm 1 heLP me le... soBx2...

i'v doNe mY upDAte.... hahaha... oKIe sO 2 BOth oF u... hAppi nOw... hahhaha... mIsh mY azIe sO muCh... 1 dae let's gO oUt n sPend tIme oKie gIrl... hahaha... tyKE caRE gIrl...

oKIe la stOp heRE ... tata 2 aLL.... =P

meKOmm....!!

baCk 2 keeP upDatiN mY bLog.... hmmm... beeN a whIle i've nT upDate iT... nTh muCh happEN actuAlli... hMMmm... laSt thUrs miT hym after 1 MONTH of MIA-ing frm me...
4 waT reasOn oSo duN noe.. haIs... i mIsh hym... reallI daMn miSh hym... hOw i wiSh he fEEls de saMe lIke me... haIS...

reaLLi dUn uNdersTand wAT realli maKe hym sO tiRed evEritIme.... nK kaTe keje tK plK... haIs... sO peLIk seh bT asK oSo nO uSe... tK kN terJwb ... sAkit kN haTI jer... sO ... aS per nOrmAl uh... BUAT BDH....

dIs moN gOnna miT ZALIKHA... woohOO..!!! dat sIao gIrl's buRfdaE.. arU nk tuRn 19.. lolS...
i mIsh her... reAlli mISh her... hOpefUlli she enJoy dE wholE tIme daT she's gOing 2 spEnd wIf me & mUS... lOLS... cn'T waIt 4 daT daE 2 cUm... hehehe....

hmmm.... i waN 2 gO shOpping wIf nasHY... lOls... gIrl... later we gO shOp2 oKIe.. tMn akU...
hOpefUlli kaU da oKie la nGan boifwn kaU.. hais... tYke care girl...

sTop here Lah... hMm... wILL upDate mOre sOOnnn..... tatatatatata!!!!

eelLLoo....

baCk 2 uPdate mY dEar2 bLoG....
ermm... beEn weRkin laSt fEw daEs.... quiTe tiRiNg bT fUn la... furThermore mY sis haF beeeN verI niCe 2 Me... lOve her sO mucH... tanx 4 beIn deRE 4 Me alL dIs whIle...

2daE didn'T cuM skuL... denG... tIred lA... cn'T waKe up... haIs... den keNe lectUre... like usual...
lOls... mY fwns... bIase la eh... hmmmm... mY fwN nashY saKit la... cian dIe... hais... geT weLL sOOn gIrl... mish u la.. lols.. sek2 kau bUih aKU jer.. sO yah... do cum oKie dIs tHurs...

aiyO... 2.30pm liAo... muZ baTh le... laTE liAo... dIe2... hehe... uPdaTE sOOn oKie...
tata....

I MISH U SYG....

tIrednEss...

UTs are verY DAmN DIffIcULT LA... AIyO... Cn DiE LE... HAiS... HoPEFuLLI Cn PAss La

HoR... @ LeAsT...tmR stILL gT UT sia... dIe2... AnaLoGue eLecTronIc le... isH2...

aFterwhIch i'M werKin... dOuBle de tIredness... toT daT suM1 cN seNd m3 2 werK...

bT... waT a lUcK... haIs... nId 2 b iNdepEndEnt lOr... hE osO duN bother....


juSt mEt mY abG azHar & hIs fWn... bOth oF deM sMokIn sIa... bSide mE suM moRe...

feeL lIke faIntIn seH... bUt enDure cOZ i Dun waN deM 2 fEEl baD oR waT la... didn't tOt daT

deY'll sMoke... HaIS... y ppL kEpt asKin ," wheRe's sYahmi? " or ," mane bF adEk?" feeL lIke

sHit... i mYselF dUn nOe wHere's he... waT's he dOin... or How's He... hais... sO yAh.. duN

wasTe tIme asKIn mE aBt hIm... waIt tIll i mIt hIm duRing MID JULY.... haIs... waT a

paThetIc lIfe i haF... nK uMpe bF pUn mCm nK uMpe ANAK RAJA plK... kEne bOOkIng

sIang2.... haIs..


hAis sO saDed... nId 2 paY hP bIll uP 2 200 pLus $$... heaRt paIn seH... auG deN paY anoTher

200 pLus $$$... jIa laT le... $$$$ fInIsh oN paYing bIll... nVm lA... as lOngs as i cN bUy mY 2nD

paIr oF leVis jeaNs deN oKie lIao... hehehe.... dE resT muSt sAve... saDed...


i wAnna pLay pOol Le... haIyo... miSh dE pOOl stIck sIa... hAis... i WaNna enJoy mY lIfe wIf

besTie lIke i uSe 2 dO... haIS... wEn wIll sHe hAf de tIme 4 Me... oR mUst i gO wiF mY oTher

pOly fWns... lIke naShY... sHe's dE oNli1 wHu uNdersTand mE... haiS...


lIfe haV bEEn a meSS 4 mE... eVeriTin gOin hay wire.... & i'M OVERCUMing it on my OWN....

daT's dE woRsT la... hAIs... nTa la... fEels lIke gIvIng uP... sHud I oR shUd i nT???

mekOm....

baCk 2 uPdate...

moN dIdn'T weN 2 sKul.. loLs... vEri tIred La... hahaha... cn'T eveN gEt ouT oF beD siA....
sYahRil waS liKe naGGin @ me... bT 2 bAd i woKe uP laTe.. hehehe... ohh wellLL...
weN 2 weRk earLi... heheh..

2dAE wAs fUn thoUgh... hahha.. bT i didn'T xpeCt a UT... haIs... wasn'T pRepAred 4 it...
sIan... hOpefUlli i'LL get a D oR D+... hehehe.. nO mOre E la hOr... diE le... 2daE facI kEpt caLLing mE sIA... ask Me do dIs qs daT qS.. haiYo... tRoubLesOme... gOOd thiNg i Noe hOw 2 do lOr... hahaha... suPPosed 2 werK bT i cancLe iT lasT miN bCoz oF uT lor... cOnfIrm cn'T make iT on tIme 1... haiyA... wIsh daT suM1 cn seNt me 2 weRk dIs fRi... haiS... sAded seH...

i waNNa waTch mOvie... sO lOng lIao didn'T gO & waTch... soBx2... hmm.. hOpefUlli i'M goIng dIs jUly lOr.... [ 2 puN kLau tk kEne bUiH ] .... i waN 2 dO so mUch thIngs le... buT it sEEms daT no1 hAf tIme 4 mE loR... nT evEn hIm... haiS.... wAT i pIty.... bUt i haF mY sIstas & wui gUi... i'M okie wiF it... eventHough i nId hIm more....

gUess daT yr 2 1st seM is gOin 2 enD sooN... lolS... 2 mths pLus... hmmm... daT's fAst izit it...
hahaha.... sooN it'S gOIn 2 b hOls aGain... wooHoo... 3 moRe sems 2 gOoo & oFF i Go Frm dIs sKUl... yaY!!!

btW jUst wannA conGrats ayIe coZ he cN driVe legalli Liao... wooHHoo... beSt seH...
i oSo waN bUuuTtt stIill gT lOng wAy 2 gOoo... haIs.. pElan2 kAyuh seh... ciAn faeza... lOls...
shUd i dyE mY haIr puRplE lIke hIdaYah... hMM... mCm stYle.. waHhaha... 1 tEam...
heY daYah... i'LL dyE iF u cUt uR hAir sHort uH.. amCm...?? lolS..

tyKe caRe...

p.s : i wanna go seNtoSa wiF besTie & azIe aGain.... lIke daT time... hahah... mIsh bOth oF euuu aLots2....

tATa...

I'M SO DE MISH HYM.....

SOB2...

WEN CN I MIT HYM....

I MISH HIM....

ALOT2...

SOBX2....

CN ANI1 HELP ME & CHEER ME UP...

I'M SO DE IN NEED OF SUM1...

I WAN HIM...

SADED....

TOTALI DUN NOE WAT 2 DO NOW....

I'M ALONE... WHU CARES RITE... NO1... SADED...

FEEL SO CONFUSED.....

SO ....... LOST .....

WHERE ARE U WEN I NID U??

SADED!!

HAIS.....

hOls haF staRted 4 Me...

aLittle bIt bOred la waT i cN saE.... aLone @ hOme... dn nOe waT 2 Do... @ mOst dO hoUsewoRk deN..... haiZ... furtheRmOre mY PaRenTs nT in sPore... tOt cN enJoY tIll nIte oR smTh wiF besTie oR hIm... haIs... 2 Bad... bestIe gT her OWN lIfe pLus sHe gT MaNY thIngs 2 sTudY... CT cuMin sOon maH... pIty heR... hOw i WisH i Cn taKe haLF oF her CT 4 HEr... sHaRE he bUrDen... stUdy 2GetheR... lIke we uSed tO.. haIs.... i mIsh mY eXam tIme... nId 2 sTudy... bOOks.... tEacHers...

weN 2 MarIna squaRe 2 jLn2 deRE 4 mIdniTe sHoppIn... loLs.. iT waS fUn lA thOugh...
eVen tHereS aLot oF ppL... cN faInt sIa... @ leaSt i gT 2 enJoy mYselF tiLL 1 am iN de mOrnIng... mOstlY i'm haPpi pLuS tIreD la... bCz nXt daE daT's sUn i werk mOrnIng ... sIanx...
acTuaLi i'M suPPosed to weNt hOme @ 7pm bT i decIded nT 2... wenT aRd 10pm... fUll dAe siA... mY lEg reAllI acHing... pLus mY heaD iS gIvIn me a ProbLem.. bUt 2 bAd nId 2 EnDure...
ALONE... nO1 2 sHare mY bUrdEn... paiN... wif me... nVm... haIs...

yaY!! gOin oUt wIf besTie oN thUrs.... wOOhOO..!!! lOng tIme didn"t mIt hEr... mIsh Her la...
sOri eH gIrl... it'S nT daT i dUn waN 2 Tell u waT's wrOng wiF me... jUst daT i dUn nOe hOw 2 TeLL u... i'LL try 2 TeLL u suMtIme laTer oKie..

eNd heRe lIao... tyKe caRe pEepS...

tHinGs gOt woRse @ tIme & baCk 2 nOrMal afTer dAt....
daT's sUx!!
bUt nId 2 aCCpt iT....
iT cN't alWaes b uP... evEntUallI it'LL b DoWn...
haIs.... dAt's LIFE....

cuRRentLy dOne mY proPosaL... tInkin oN hOw 2 con'T fRm dEre.....
sO mUch tHings haPPen dIs daEs...
maY is enDin... aNd jUne iS rePlacIng iT...
hMM... hOpefUlli diS mTh wiLL b a bRighter mTh 4 Me...
derE's aLot oF thIngs DAt i waNNa dO bY dIS yR...
bUt i dUn tInk i'LL b AblE 2 MakE iT...
lOOkiN @ mY condiTion nOw... i dUn tInk thInGs cN gO oN aS pLan...
haIs...


haD fUn dAt daE dUring dE tOur... de sTudenTs werE gReat bUnCh oF ppLs... eveNthOugh @ 1sT deY weRe liKe sTranGerS... deY'RE stIll nIce pEEps... dE DEY are refeRing 2 dE sEc 5 stUdeNts fRm EVERGREEN SEC SCH.... yuP... doEsn't lOOk liKe seC 5 siA.. so cuTe of dEm...
de tOur waS de bEst la... aLL de waE we WerE lIke laUGhin nOn-sTop... loLs... hOpefuLLi i'LL be joInin dIs eveNt agaIn... coZ dEre are sTill 9 sCh 2 gO... wOOhOO..!!!!

i'M sTill lOst.... dUn asK mE y....

sIanX!!!

bEeN SiCk 4 LiKE WeeKs... hAIs... JuST WEn 2 ViSIt DoC... Yup... He wAs sHocK daT i WaS siCk siNce lIke 3 wEEks paSt... lOls... gOOd Uh Me.... daH saKit teRuK aRu vIsIt dOC...
beSt lA!!! siNce mThs la nVr gO dEre... mCm BEst... lOlS....

fRi wiLl bE laStt daE oF sKUl... wooHoo!! YAYy!!! BuT I'm WERk InG 4 LIkE StRAiGHt 3 dAE La... McM teRRoR jeR... loLS... FrI tIll mIdnIte>.... dIe La.. pEnAt... nVm.. kIll uP mY tIme DaT'S unUseD... beTTer dEn @ hOme dOIn nTh...

2daE is PRINCESZ AZIE's buRfdaE....!!! maY alL uR wiShes cuM truEE k gIrl...
misH ya aLoT2.... tyKe Care....

maCeh 4 dE cUtie pInkie teDDy... lUv iT so mUch... pLus de CArD 2... =)

currenTly fEelIn sO dOwn nOwaDaEs... alwaEs nId suM1 bY mySide... haTe 2 b aLone....
beeN a bAd daE 4 mE few Daes bAck la.... shaLL nT menTion iT lA hOr... kEEp iT 2 mYseLf...
oriTes... shaLL sTop hEre...

assalamUalaIkuM.... tYke caRe dEn...

stuPid siA blogger... haIz... cn't upLoad my piCs daT waS taken dUrinG mY buRfdaE...

damn iT...

feelIn sO dOwn....

haTe dIs....

tYke cAre pEEps.... =)

yaY-ness!!!

tuRning 19 in 3 daEs time... wooHhooo...!!! gOnna mIt eiTher bestie or syg or both on dat dae....
dN tiNk it's gOnna be fuN or wat lA... waT i tInk i'M goiN 2 lUv iT coz it'Ve been a Long tIme i've nT miT bestie & mY syg.... hmmm... saD rite.... been bz 4 dis wk bCoz oF the saLes preview... damn tIred la... everi daE enD latE...

2 UT haf pass... duN tiNk daT de reSult wiLL b gOOd la.... maiN reaSon is Dat dere'S nt enuF time 2 comPlete alL de questiOns la... 30 mIns... waT do U xpecT riTe... hais....tMr PCB UT....
dIe la.. hands On sUm moRe... double haIs....!!

i'M so glAd dat 1 of mY wisH was gRanted... alhaMduLilLah!!! wiSh her aLL de besT la hOr...
[ u nOe wHu u arE la hor gIrl ].... anOther happY thIng is daT mY deaR hUi leNg HaF jUst got attAch... loLs.... wiSh hEr & hIm a lOng rElaTioNshIp lOr.....

lEssoN getTing bOred liao... hMM... pIty de faCi sIa.... oUr attitUde abIt sux La... taKing adV oF de FacI siNce he'S a nIce faCi lA...hoPe he dUn mInd La.... lOlsss.... stoPing heRe lOr....
wiLl uPdatE sOOn... tata pEeps!!

assaLamuaLaikUm....!!!

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day and make it
ok
I miss you

goNe... 2 sumwhere i dUn nOe whEre 2 fiNd....

tIred yEt haPPi....

reaCh hOme ard 10 plUs... did a SMALL celebration 4 MOTHER'S DAE!! lols... i sang mother's dae song la... dey were damn touch... lOls... hope dey enJoy demselVes oN dis sPecIal dAe...
liKe my mUmmY... sHe did enJoy herseLf... coZ she weN 4 hOls... hurhur... hMMM...

i'll b keEpin mySelf bZ 4 dis 2 mThs ... aLL bCuz of De GSS thinGy... wooHooo.... goNNa be fuNN... loL... BUT... i'll be daMn tiREd... hais... stIll nId 2 stuDy 4 UT... damN iT...
dIs wks shedule is damn fUn la... everidaE werkIn xcepT moN & fRi... fUhhh!! teRoR siA me... gOnna be tiRed lIke heLL la... bt nVm... gOnna mIt ALOT of new PEEPS... gereK!!!!furthermore, i wuN haF 2 trouble uP mY guY 2 mIt me 4 diS feW mThs... eveNthOugh i'LL mish hIm lIke heLL... & i hOpe he'LL fEel de saMe waE as i Do... hmmm... i mish mY oNli 1 bestIe la... guEss i'm goNna mIt her nxt Mon dat is MY BURFDAE!!!! YAY-NESS!!! hope dat she cN picK me up... hurhur... manJe mah... lolS...

i'm turNing 19 in 1wks time... lolS... sO siaN... gettIng oLder sooN... hurhur... i duN tinK i'll haf a wonderful moments duriNg my burfdae... hais... wuN feel anitin speCial goIn oN... haiZ....
i mIsh mY olD classmaTes... mY SYG, my DARLING, my ADEK, my ABG, my KAKAK, my AMIRA, my APPLE, my VAMPIRE, my LIKENG.... deY realli enlighten my lIfe aLot2.... luV dem alOt...

tmr i'M haviNg UT bt yeT i haVen stuDy... DIE... i flung mY 1 UT... nOw i scAred i fluNg agaiN dis UT... saDeD!!! mayb later deN study la... nO mooD... i cn'T concentRate mySelf.... kepT tinKin abT hIm... reaLLi mish hIm alot la... been awhile since i didn'T mit hiM.... hais...

stOp mY storY here La... feel lIke slpiN nOw... hmmmm... tyKe care peePs....
assalamualaikum....

feEliN dOwn....
sittiN aLone...
in mY owN worLd...
cRyiNg....
trYin 2 fInd daT perSoN....
bUt i faIl...
he'S so faR... faR aWay frM me...
Y?? i dUn noe.... wAt diD i Do wrOng??
No AnsWer...
siLenCe....

did badLy 4 mY 1sT UT... SUX!! out of a suDDen i 4get evertIn... f***!! guess i'm goNna gEt a Bad GraDE... *cry*!! waLk de loNg waY 2 MRT statIon... waNted 2 wasTe tiMe lOr... waLk reLli sLow... enJoyiN de wiNd.... my mInd was lIke sO 'pack'... feeL like bReakin dOwn... i did cry lA whIle i waS walKin... bUt i coNtrOl... hmmm....

weN 2 Lot 1.... walK2... ALONE!! like 1 STUPID person.. damN it!! bought my adidas perfume.. wooohooo!!! ard 6 pLuS mIt mY siS & had dInner ... weN wiNdow shOpping after dat... nth 2 Do.. sO yaH... faV past time... lolS....

toT of talkin 2 hIm weN i reacH home bT he was BZ... so i jUst rotteN aloNe... haTe it 2 de MaX.... sumtime i feel dat i'm 2 nice2 PPl... dey takes thiNgs 4 granted... i hate dat...
ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER DEN WORDS!!

not 2 4get.... hehehe... had small talk wif Nashy in clAss.... we taLk abT ouR relationshIp.... share xperiences.... so fuN... interesting... eventhough we're nt dat closed... we still cn click wif each other... i tingy that make me tink is this...
[ FIND SUM1 DAT LOVE U MORE DEN U LOVE HIM ]

i've been tinin abt daT all dis whIle... bUt i cN'T fiNd de answer.. hais.....
erm... tyKe care peepS...!! luv ya...

felT sO sAd rIte nOw... nO1 mIght nOe how saDed i am.... weN 2 c My taGgy weN i saW

bestIe's tag... it was a bit hurtful weN i read It... soB2... i dUn noe waT 2 do weN i reaD iT...

toTalli saDneSS... i Noe i wAs wrOng dAt i wEn 2 c sp3 w/o her... i'm so sOri.... buT dUn bcoz of

dat u waNNa leaVe US.... hAis...


tmr is mY sYahMi's TP... wiSh hiM aLL de Best... hOpefuLLi he'LL pasS...


sTop heRe... wiLL updaTe sOOn... tyKe care....

daMn hOt weaTher ouTside wheN i weN oT of the House.... eNjoY mY deA sO mucH... wen oUT wiF mY MR SYAHMI 2 somerset... yup2... gO cathay cineleisure2 buy our SPIDERMAN 3 ticketS.... daMn fuLl la de theater... our sIt was E-20 & 21... woohoo... my burfdaE nO... hehehe...

after movie when 2 centre point 2 haf our dinner!!! had pIZZa... lols.. daMn fulling la... hahhaa..

tanx SYAHMI 4 DE TREAT.... luv u alot... while in pizza hut, so many cute thingy hAppens la...

we haD COUPLE HUT...( i tink so) den hut splatter.... mushroom soup... so full la after dat...

b4 dinner... wen 2 take new print... hehehe.... love dat pic alot... i look so diff la... hmmm....

sYg bought t-shirt frM flesh imp.... de deSign quite niCe la.. i oso waNNa buY... bT $$$ haVen get.. sO yaH... i'M goiN 2 shOp oN dIs fRi... wooHoo!!!

tOOk soMe piCtUres iN de tRaIn as Per uSuaL...

dat's some of de Pics la Hor.. lazY 2 uPlOad all Uh... hurhur.... guess i'm goin 2 stop here...

tmR nId 2 werK... slP liaO... tyKe caRE peePs...

aLone iN mY beDrOOm....


bOOoOO!!!

hahahaha`.) miSh bloGGing... loLs... sUffer 4 lIke few daeS w/0 mY lapPie...
*faint* sO bOred La.... BUT.... gT sYG 2 accMpy me... tok 2 hIm... yup2.... he's been nice 2 me all dis while la... onLI sumtime... we gT in2 a smAll 'war'... lols... anIwaE dat'S natuRal u c....
MACEH MUHD SYAHMI 4 DE ACCMPY-ING ALL DIS WHILE...... APPRECIATE IT....
as 4 my RJ... i alwaes asK my deaR uNcle aLan 2 seNd 4 me 1... hehehe... alWaes keep tRoubLing hIm... hais... toWie hOr uNcle... TANX ALOT2 HOR.... nT 2 4geT ... my mr syahmi alsO heLp me 2 type mY RJ & seNd iT 2 unCle whiLe mYlappIe in ICU.... YUP2...
sO nIce of hIm... hurhur....

beeN so reStLess w/O lappIe la... weN 2 cLass dO nTh... cn"t chaT... aiyo... diE le... i veRy guai loR 4 de few daes.... hehehehe.... BUT NOW i have my lappie back.... woohooo...!!! so de super duper2 hapie.... cN have mY life baCk 2 norMal.... hahahahaa....

guess i cn staRt countIng down 2 my BURFDAE liao... lols.... i'm getting mature by 1 yr.... wahahaha.... 2 wks plus... dat's fast man.... bUt i'm goiN 2 b bz le... aiyo.... UT is staRting on 14 may... mON... hais... digital electronic sum more... haven revise le... *faint*... i haf 2 werk after skul liAo... hais... startin nxt wk... hais... tired le... straight sum more.... den cn't mit him liao ...
must wait till fri after skul den cn mit... saded man...!!

tmr i'm going 2 watch SPIDERMAN 3.... yay-ness!! wahahaha.... goin 2 spend half of de dae outside wif him... after which i gt no time liao... gt 2 werk ma... saded!! gonna make full use of my time dat i haf wif him..... gonna miss him la...

ermmmm... i guess dat's all la... i guess... hehehhe... dun noe wat 2 type liao... will update soon la hor... btw uncle alan ... i've update my blog liao... dun 4get to link me up hor... if nt dun wan 2 tok 2 u liao... hehehe...

tyke care peeps... hmmm... I MISH MY BESTIE.... WHERE'S SHE???!! hais....

lIfe been fUn 4 me so Far eveRsInce skUl reoPen.... mOre fwNs... moRe fUn....

more streSS.... loLs... cLass was fUn uh sO fAr... enJoy mY eveRi sEcOnds In cLasS wIf mY

claSsmaTes....



sO far i'm cLosed 2 dIs 2 gIrLs bY de Name of HWEE LENG & PIN.... dey're suPer fun ppL la...

alwaes maKe mE laUgh noN-sTop.... Lols... noT 2 4Get dIs 1 CRAZY guy... ALAN .... he siMply

loVe 2 lAugh 4 nO reaSonS loR... bT he's a nice guy lA....



meT sYg JusT nOw... hahah... was Late as per usual... ate dinnER wif hym @ maC doNald...

after which wen 2 dis bLock 2 sIt2.... den he saes smth......:

syg: asl hp u mati??

me : iye ke... ape seh u at ngan my hp...

syg : nta.... i tulis bende jer kt notes....

me: abih asl batt flat..??

syg: mane de... tadi batteri u ramai la....

me: lols.... [ non-stop laughin ]

lols.... so cute la.... de way he phrase his sentense was furni.... hurhur...

luv him alot2.... hehehe...



hmm... guess i'm stopping here la... wanna go bobok liao.... tyke care...

2 bestie : geT well soon orites...



dIs pIc waS dE pIc i Love de Best.... he's cute uh.... i'm cuter.... lols....








[ mifah - E - zAsyA ]

GOOD NEW !!!!


hmmm... wanna sae "CONGRATULATION" to shaari.... lols...


hope u're happy wif her okie....


dun worrie abt u breakin ur promish....


just b happie ....


enjoy ur life 2 de fullest.....


hmmm....


so glad dat ppl dat i care is living their life happiLi....


yup2... dat's 4 sure... hope dat everithin will be okie 4 all of u la hor....


assalamualaikum.....

life.....

full wif ups & down... hais... bt it realli taught me so many things in life....
mistake are nt supposed to b repeated... but sumtime it just happen w/o me realising it...
hais..... dun understand how ppl react now a daes... realli wierd...

been 2 month hidup tanpa arah tujuan.... i dun noe wat i wan... what i'm doing...
wat i noe is dat i wanna move on & b happi... haf fun wif ppl... alwaes being accompanied by him... here & dere... alwaes smiling.... nvr cry on my own... coz i noe i'm nt alone... i noe both of them love me alot... but i just cn't... my heart simply cn't accpt ani1... it's kind of selfish la...
bt it's better den playin wif ppl's heart... hais..

now i'm okie liao... bz wif my skul work... my life wif him,... my bestie... fwns....
yah!!.. back 2 skul was fun... mit new ppl... woohooo... fun2... lols...

hmm... stop here liao ...

assalamualaikum....

aLo2 peepS.... back 2 update abt my life now... hmmm... as my dear hidayah keep askin me 2 update ... so here it goes....

wen 4 pit @ pasir ris park on de fri nite wif de ex-kranjian... woohoo....
it was fun la... did de shopping last min.... hahhaaha... damn tired but i realli enjoy myself la... hurhur.... reach dere ard 5 plus... den lek2 kt pit... main card... hahaha... deesyan taught me how 2 play la but i was realli damn BLUR la... hahaha... tk pandai2.... selenge btl... hahahah
after which we waited 4 de charcoal 2 arrived @ de pit... damn slow la... nk start de api jer nk kt 1 hr... bdh... dah la lapar... de rest buat dek jer... mcm nk sepak jer satu2... pe'el ... hais...

ard 9 den we started de bbqing.... so late la.. haiyo... den everi1 was like mls nk masak bt nk mkn... PEMALAS.... den tings started 2 like more happeninng uh... dey started 2 cook & stuff...
da lapar... pandai la drg masak... hahahaha... everitin wen on smoothli... but onli wen dey started 2 drink,... & satu2 mabok... hais... so damn scari la wen look @ dem.....

overall i still enjoy myself eventhough i'm damn tired uh.... kene embun mlm.... ampai sakit2...
ape agi eh.... ohh yah... my bestie.... congrats eh girl... da pandai uh naik basikal... woohoo!!!.. next time le cycle ngan aku kk... 2 pun klau aku igt h cane nk naik.... lols....

2dae was de 1st dae of skul... & i saw so many familiar faces sia... de boring part... everywhere was damn pack la... jln mcm sardin seh... langgar2 org... sial jer... hais... as 4 my classmate... dey were okie la so far..my team members was fun uh... easy 2 communicate.... but tmr diff ppl... hais... so lets c how la hor...

guess i'll stop here okie... dun noe wat 2 write liao... lols... so yah...
i'll update soon uh... btw my nxt hols will b on june.... woohoo... den weds i'm nt skuling....
weeee!!! best2... mayb pick up my syg frm skul.... 2 pun klau rajin... wahahhaha....

tatata...

assalamualaikum..... =`P

praCtically bored @ home...

cn get oUt bed la... i gT fever la... saDEd... tooK panadOl bT still cn't slp till now...

sian le... wan 2 go oUT bt no Mood... bUT i waN 2 g coFfee beaN .... haiS... nVm la... mYb tMr den cN go La... hehehe....

been tiNk abt dis 2 much la all dis while... hais... i mish my bestie la... wanna go out wif her... bt den hais... she's bz la... so yah... i'm alone.. duh... saded...

ytd wen 2 skuL wif hIdayah... hahahha... veri siaN mah so ask her alOng... yup2... supposed 2 mit ard 10.30 am... end up reach 11.30am... wakakaka... dengs... janji MELAYU btl.....

after which wen 2 IT helpdesk la... jia lat sia... go early oso so many ppl sia.. dengs... hurhur....

so we waited & waited... was dere 4 like 2 hr plus i guess... hurhur... damn long la... & my lappie still siao2... hais.. cn't download my UT clients.... aiyo... stupid la... ytd was like 3rd time goin dere.. stupid sia... hais...

mit diniy uh after i'm done wif my stuff.... hurhur.. after which we wen 2wards de mrt station...

actualli we dun noe where 2 go... but den lastly decided 2 go 2 bishan coffee bean... woohooo!!

just sat dere... tokin & tokin... since been a long time me & dayah tk spend time... so yah....

ard 7pm we decide to go home... she nid 2 go home la 4 sum reason... hahahaha.... den i was like alah... so fast sia... i just dun feel like goin home so fast la.. hahhahak...

all de wae it was raining sia... super cold la.. especially during in skul... hahahah... dengs.... after which i just walk home lor... damn bored la....

[ US aGaiN @ de tRaiN platForm ]

[ hiD @ de MRt sTatIon ]

[ while @ de IT help desk... nth better 2 do.. ]

tyke care peePs... mIsh u aLot2...

assalamualaikum... =`P

hey... i just hope that syahmi know how u r feeling rite now. syahmi if u read this, u're making her suffer. atleast tell her y u broke off with her. she still love u alots! she can never replace U
SYAHMI with any other guy.

I just hope that u have some heart for her. Cos she really love u. alot. nothing can replace n explain her love 4 u SYAHMI. i just hope u feel how she feel one day and regret treating her that way. I just hope that FaSyaH MiEzA will be together Again and happily ever after... its not only me who want to her happy... All her frens want to... I bet U SYAHMI also want to see her happy!

So Syahmi... THINK A MILLION TIMES on wat u've done to her... She's Suffering wothout YOU! She MORE THAN HAPPY TO BE WITH YOU SYAHMI!I just hope that FaSyAh MiEzA WilL Be ToGeThEr Again! InSyAllAh! PleAsE SyahmI! ThAnKz! I HoPe you syahmi UnderStand!

[ 2 syahmi frm shaari ]

back 2 update my blog.... hmmm... just reach home... just kene ceramah frm my dad.. hais...
bt nvm... i noe i'm wrong... afterall i'm a gurl ma..... dey simply worry la hor... i'm just so touch about wat ayi do la.... i noe he wan me 2 b happy.... hais... bt 2 bad... i cn't do anythin... i just cn't 4get abt syahmi la... it's totalli my fault 4 making ppl suffer... hais... i noe i'm de bad 1... ni bukan kehendak aku ... i dun wan all dis 2 happen bt it just happen by itself... i cn't do anitin.....

i'm sori dat i cn't accpt ani1 4 now... hais.. reali sori.. bukan nye tk nk cume nta la.. i oso dun noe y i cnt accpt ppl 4 dis round...

ayi if u realli wan me 2 make 2 make u realli hate me den i will do dat... i respect ur decision...
i myself wan u 2 b happy... i just wish i cn gif other ppl a chance... afterall i still wan 2 b sum1's little girl... hais... watever it is... just tell me... if u realli wan me 2 make u hate me den tell me...
i'll do it eventhough i dun wan 2... coz dosa tau uat org benci kn ssrg 2...

till den ... tyke care ppl... i hope dat everythin goin 2 b just fine wen my burfdae cums... insyallah... amin....

assalamualaikum.... =)

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dis is wat i feel now... hais... life.. dammn sian la.. wif all dis things...
i do mish him..... hais... y must i mish him after wat he've done all dis while??
am i stupid or wat.?? how bad he is i still love him.... hais... bt 2 bad... i guess i'm realli nt 4 him la... been tinkin abt it... de way he treat me... tok 2 me.... words dat he use.... i guess i wun b wif him back la... mayb yes bt in lala land jer... as u noe... harapan dah jadi angan2...
if de jodoh ngan die insyallah... if nt so b it... haf 2 accpt it... da takdir .... hais... nasib kn...
okie la... gt 2 go & siap2... goin out wif my fwn... wakaka... tyke care ppl...

assalamualaikum....

assalamualaikum.....

let me start de story of wat happens 4 de whole dae l hor...

wen 2 mit a fwn of mine @ ut mrt station... coz nid help 4 my lappie la.. tk habis2 nk perangai la.. bingit jer.. hais... dey help me 're4mat' my lappie.... den everithin in my lappie just 'GONE' 4 de 2nd time.. i was like 'DAMN IT'.. hais... realli feel like smashin de lappie 2 de wall sia... bt tanx 2 SHAHUL[ tink dis is de rite spelling la]... he realli did help me wif all de probs dat i've face la..
realli appreciate it so much.... & 2 mustafa i oso appreciate ur help la... u did try ur veri best 2 help me.. hahahkk... sori dat i was late uh tadi... realli felt damn tired... hahahakkk... peaceee!!

ard 4pm met my mum, grandma & my sistaz @ CWP.... wen 2 banquet 2 haf dinner la.... hmmm... had carrot cake... damn full la... didn't finishh it up... as per usual la... my 2nd sis finish it up... wahahaha... tanx sista..!! after which wen 2 my grandma house... yup... watch tv... vcd... following dat wen 2 mit Anwar awhile la @ void deck.... had a short chat wif hym la... abt my lappie... my pp... he's alwaes dere wen i nid help... tanx anwar... appreciate it so much...

reach home ard 11 i guess... wash up den decided 2 install watever things dat i nid in2 my lappie... den half wae it starts 2 perangai again... realli piss me off la... dat time my mind feel like burstin sia... 2 much things dat i'm tinkin @ 1 shot... hais... i noe i did make mustafa piss off... i noe i perangai wif him... i lepas kn geram @ him... hai... i'm sorrie... didn't mean 2 do dat... i just cn't control my anger... after dae by dae i just realise dat my limit of patience is becoming thinner & thinner....got angry easily... scold ppl 4 no reason... damn it... wat's happening 2 me??!

i'm realli tired now.... damn tired... tireeeeed offf living..... in a situation like dis!! watever happening 2 me now is like more den wat i xpected all dis while... y must all dis happen 2 me??
i wan 2 gif up in dis.. LOVE REALLI HURT.... DAMN HURTIN!!... how i wish i cn be like last time... enjoyin my time... w/o all dis problems c'min 2 me... hais.... i dun noe wat 2 do ... realli...

4 dis case i guess i'll suffer de most... hais... i'm like goin thru' a loosing battle... a battle dat i noe i'm goin 2 lose & hurt myself even more.... hais... y am i so stuborn??? y cn't i accpt de fact dat i'm ntt 4 HIM???? y cn't i just get over HIM and just move on??? reason being MY HEART STILL SAES DAT I LOVE HIM.... damn it...

ayi... i bkn nye did all dis on purpose... i bkn nye tk nk accpt u or wat... de thing is dat i'm nt readi 4 all dis... i'm realli sori if i do/happen 2 like gif u empty HOPES.... my heart still cn't accpt ani1 4 de time being... i dun feel like getting in2 relationship... i'm nt prepare 4 more worse problems dat might arrive later.... now i gif u de power 2 decide... do wat u tink dat best 4 u...
i dun wan u 2 suffer.... all bcoz if all dis stupid things... u're a nice guy okie... dun worie u'll fine sum1 100x better den me...

totalli confused abt all dis things... rase serbe salah wen cum 2 tink abt all dis things la... feel like doin sumthin stupid 1 of de daes..... just 2 release all my tension & problems dat i haf.... bt i dun noe wat... hurhur.... stupid me...

bestie!!! realli hope dat u're here now by my side... hais... do ani1 understand how i feel rite now?? hais... guess wat... she've finish her orientation... woohooo!!! so dat's mean she'll haf time 4 me.... hmmm... will she??!! i dun noe... hais... mish spending time wif her... tykin pics.... lepakin @ de playgrd.... havin dinner wif her.... yah... alot of things la basically.... i mish dat... alot alot... saded!!... =((

mus... i'm sori if i slalu lepas kn geram @ u & perangai kt u la eh... i dun mean it.... just dat i cn stand it la... i cn't realli ctrl my feeling nowadaes la..... dun no y ... mayb i'm gettin sick & tired....
hais... sejak2 sakit ni i mcm nt being myself la... i'm sori... realli damn sori... i'm stuborn la... i tkk nk ckp wen u ask me so la... coz i dun wan 2 la... nt bcuz of other things la... hope u dun take it 2 heart la eh... i kdg2 mmg gi2... bear wif it la hor...if u cn't den just leave it jer... meaning buat bdh jer... okie...

faeza.. hmmm... wat shud i do now??? am i goin 2 just con't doin smth dat i myslef dun no wat i'm doin or ??? tink tink... arrghhh!! i'm totalli lost ... all tanx 2 dat guy la... u realli make me realise more in de world of relationship.... yah!... btw i'm nt mature... just dat i force myelf 2 sae dat i'm nt de 1 4 u ... i wanna c wat's ur reaction.... hais... i'm so stupid... realli damn stupid....

GAME OVER ....

HARAPAN yg hanya tinggal ANGAN2

shud i cont waitin or shud i just gif others a chance???



hais... i dun noe... damn it...



feel like CRY.... arrghhh!!! dat's how weak i am.....



HAIS.... Y CN'T I SIMPLY 4GET ABT U SINCE I NOE DAT I'M NT 4 U???



y must i go thru all dis??? hais....



tyke care ppl.... assalamualaikum.... =((

tireD... hais....

back 2 con't my boring story....

been werkin 3 straight daes... hais... damn tired... reach home ard 11 plus.... after which slpt @ ard 2am... nxt dae wake up ard 10am... damn damn tired la... furthermore i'm nt feeling quite well la... down wif so much sickness... damn it!!

now a daes i've been tinkin abt so many things in my minds.... just 2 many dat i myself dun noe wat i've been tinkin abt.... aggrrhh...!! hate it...

school is starting soon... & i'm nt readi @ all... nt readi 4 de stressness & etc.... dere's 2 much things in my mind till biler2 it cn burst... hais.... how i wish i cn share ouut all my probs 2 sum1 dat realli understand me & able 2 help me in sum waes...

experiences in life realli make me b a better person.... bcoz of wat haf happen 2 me all dis while make me think more.... makin de rite choice in life....

i mish my little darlins... hahahahk... mish dem alot... gonna mit dem in skul on nxt mon... weeee!!! cn't wait... yay!!!

i mish my bestie alot2... hais... she's so damn bz la... dun wan 2 disturb her... coz i dun wan 2 trouble her... as long as she's happie... i'm hapi 2... =)) realli hope dat i cn mit her soon... i wanna buy her smth... like how i use 2 do dulu... how i wish time cn b rewind back 2 de time wen i'm alwaes hapi ... hais....

mish hanging out wif my peeps... my sec sch peeps... w15b....w25h... hais.. time reali pass so fast... yah.... damn fast.... ape ke tak...been single 4 like goin 2 b 2mth... wahh!! dat's long... but yet i cn't open my heart 4 ani1... hais...

guess i stop here.... wanna go lala land... coz my csi 2dae dun haf... stupid rite... hais...
okie den...
assalamualaikum....

niD 2 update la hor.. if nt dat hid will like nag & nag... wakakak... nah jkjk.... hurhur... basicalli i stay @ home 4 like de whole dae... hahahak.. boredness... BUT....wat 2 do... i'm SICK... down wif feveR & sore thRoat...nid 2 be weLL by sun coz i'M werkin... if nt i wun haf deenergy 2 werk... haiyo...

just wanna update abt ytd... hmmm met my sista 4 dinner @MAC... hahhhahakk.. den dere was party going on...if i'm nt wrong it was BPSS.... damn noisy la... kalah bdkkecik nye party sia.. realli la... i was like laughin @ dem la.. cn't belief @ dat kind of age dey cn like celebrateburfdae @ MAC... it was realli shockin la... wakakaka....i didn't stop makin fun of dem la... bad rite... wakaka..2 bad... i wanna b a bad person... whu care rite... so b it..as long as i'm happi den whu care... jadi baik pun no dif..hmmm....

i'm just confused nowadaes.. hais.. feel so as if i'm so bad..so selfish....hais.. onli tink of myself.. & nt others...hais.. y must i b like dat?? bt i alwaes tink & care abt ppl'sfeelings... den whu's de hell goin 2 tink abt mine den??hais.. stupid!!klau da name lelaki smue same... hais...

enuF of dis crappy things uh.. abt my skul thiNgs now... gonna b 2nd yr soon wen sch reopen... & it realli sux...nid 2 do personal profiling.. arrgghh... dat's enf 2 kill me.. damn difficult la.. dun even noe wat do on...hais.. reaLLi no mood, inspiration 2 do dis... hais...gonna die la... weN will i b able 2 pick myself up again??i cn't focus on my work... damn it.. hais... wat's de hellis happening 2 me nOw??? ani1 dere pls help & guide me alonG plss... hais.. sobx2...

just find de seni kate so meaningful la... so tyke care..mish my bestie & mish being mYself ... hais... assalamualaikum!!


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hmmm... actuali i'm bored 2 deaTh la.. hais.. so meNdak.... nTh 2 do... da 2 raIning veRi de leBat nye... wakakaka... tkle kua ... doinks .... noW i'm rotting... damn... mish goin 2 skul... hais....

was so suprised dat i loose de game ... wakaka.... just feel as if i'm nt being myself la... de way i play as if i nvr eat like dat... veri damn weak... de surrounding was like so crowded yet i felt veri cold... hais.. nvm... dun feel sad eventhough i lost..... da adat permainan... cey2... hurhur...

reach home i felt so cold la... hais.. den my voice was like getting softer.. .. my throat veri pain seh.. aiyo.. hate being sick la.. den sneezing all de way... i wanna recover soon ... sob2... hais...

i'm so stress le... haven even start on my personal profiling (PP).... hais.. die la...
dun noe wat 2 do... difficult sia... ani1 help me pleaseee... =((

dat's all 4 now... hmmm.... update soon la hor.. tyke care peeps.....
btw i saw diniy ytd.... wakakakka... da lame tk nmpk die.. hurhur.... otey2...

tatattatatatata.....

To de person dat haf help me 2 post my entry all dis while.... i realli appreciate it so much...
tank yoou so much... =))

no wat... saw azie ytd @ my skul library... she's de future republican u noe... wakakaka....
wen dere 2 re4mat my lappie la... de good thing is dat i didn't bring along my adapter...
dat's how clever am i rite... hais... dengx 2 de max... but i was lucky... my lappie goes oout of batt wen de things was all done... wooohoo.... amin...

wen 2 causeway after dat... walk2 wif my sista la... den saw my junior... syafiqah... mish her alot seh... she wif elyana.... N another girl... dun realli no her... bt i was realli glad 2 terserempak wif her la... hurhur.... hope dat i cn spend time wif her n de rest soon... insyallah...

wen 2 lot 1 2 haf dinner wif my sistaz & her fwen la... @ food culture... realli hungry la... coz didn't ate anitin b4 dat.... saw dat same guy again sia... dun noe whu is he la... kept terserempaking hym & his fwns 4 like more den 5 times la.. den look @ me as if he no me like dat.. hais... ape la org2 ni... tkde keje lain... bt nvm... mata die... biar la ...

wen i wanted 2 try my internet connection @ home.... sumtin dat realli make me frustrated happen... my lappie cn't detect ani wireless connection... i was like arrgghh... i god... 1 problem after another... damn it...

* sorie 2 de ppl whom i couldn't talk 2 ytd... i reallli gt stress p wif all dis things la.. den i gt no time 2 talk on te fone.. sorie once again... ni bkn alasan tapi kenyataan...

@ last my lappie problems haf solve.... all are back 2 normal... hopefulli... wakakaka....
guess i'm nt going 2 re4mat dis lappie animore... dat realli gif me alot of problems sia...
1 sad things is dat i've lost all my songs & pics... damn it.. hais... mayb my fault la.. didn't save properly... nvm... bt i'm still sad la... hais...

guess i stop now.... mayb later i'll update more... tyke care ppl..

assalamualaikum.....

Decide 2 like update my bLog now… so yah… here it goes…..

Few mths back… I really breakdown a lot of time lah… hais… dat’s shows how weak I am actually… wakakaka… bt nvm… I alwaes treat it as an OBSTICLE in life… dat is wen tahap kesabaran kite dicabar la basically… after a long time I did manage to like overcum abit of de obstacle in life… all tanx 2 my bestie, my sistax, princess azie, hidayah, dat siao ting tong & de rest la… dey really show concern, care & all uh… I really appreciate it uh….

1stly , I wanted 2 sae sorrie 2 ayie 4 hurtin hym all dis while… hais… I dun really meant 2 la… just dat cinta tk blh dipakse2… dere’s onli 1 person dat’s in my heart… hais… I nOe I might be selfish 2ward u…bt de thing is dat I dn wan 2 repeat my mistake again dat is to 2 time ppl… hais… I dn wan 2 gif ppl hope dat I might b theirs one dae… coz I dun like 2 c dem suffer… if dey are suffering… I’ll suffer more… coz de reason 4 dem 2 suffer is bcoz of me… hais… how u understand my situation la…. go ahead uh if u wan 2 hate me or wat….. I just cn’t stop u… hais… y must dis happens??? Y must I hurt ppl...??? y must I b selfish??? Damn it!!!

2dae wen 2 geylang wif mummy and angah…. Kekeke.. was really fun la… eventhough it’s tiring… wahahah… I enjoy it… coz I get 2 spend time wif my mummy… ate tom yam 4 dinner… wakaka… alik terus stomach cramp…. Wakkaka… stupid rite… hais… nvm… my mummy veri cute la… wen we boarded de train and sat down… she straight away ask me for my fone… I was like "huh??" hurhur…. She wanted 2 play game… den wen I gave her she just play 3-4 game den she passed back 2 my sista.. I was like cpt nah main game… I laugh & laugh @ her la… cute rite… she dun really noe how 2 play de game… hurhur… =))

Just wanted 2 sae sori 2 bestie coz I didn’t get 2 mit her just now… hais.. I mish her a lot la… but she’s kinda bz 4 de moment… so dn get 2 mit her la… hais… hopefully get 2 mit her nxt wk… hais..

Hmmm… guess I’m going 2 stop here la… will update soon.. if rajin uh… maklum la… wakakak…
Tyke care ppl… 2 mie2 tyke care of eurr self okie… hope u’ll get well soon… amin….

Bye2…. Assalamualaikum….

hi dere peeps....

back 2 update my blog.... hais... still having problem wif my lappie... hais... cn't realli upate my entry.. den now i cn't even go 2 fwnster...
wat de hack rite... bingit btl... tell me wat shd i do??? hais.. shud i reformat my lappie...??? or wat?? so de pathatic la... hate it...

okie la... i'm simply bored la 2dae.... damn tired coz nt enuf rest & etc... hmmm…
I dun noe wat I wan in life now… I just cn’t tink… as if I haf no arah tujuan dlm hidup…. Y must all dis happens 2 me…??? Wat did I do till all dis happens in my life…. Really hate myself…

I just dun understand…. Arrghh… y must I breakdown infront of hym… hais… damn it….

Actually I dun noe wat 2 write anymore…. Hais… guess I stop here la…. Btw i realli mish hym alot… sobx2…

Dis song really meaningful la 4 me… & 2 others read it….

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1st things 1st...

i'm so fuck p wif my lappie la... cn't even update my blog. stupid... realli dun't noe wat's wrong wif it la... it's been a wk i guess... i didn't update bcos of this things la... hais... bt tanx 2 princess azie... she'd help me... woohoo... tanx eh girl... i reali appreciate it.... realli hope dat i can like update my own entry la... so tk susah kn org kn... wakaka... cian die... once again tanx princess azie... kekekek...

2nd things 2nd...

i'm so damn confused now... hais... dun noe wat 2 do... wat i wan... wat i shd do... bla... bla... bla... i'm like soo damn stupid la.... hais...
i just tot dat history might nt repeat itself bt NO.... it prove me wrong... my god... dis time it's worse... hanya tuhan saje la yg tahu betape terseksa nye hati ini.... sobx2...
y must i alwaes hurt ppl's feeling??? y cn't i just gif dem de happiness dat dey wan.??? i dun mind being hurt... as long as dey are happy... i noe i might b very cruel...
suke nah mencabar kesabaran org... very de sarcastic person... but dat's my nature... u cnt do anitin... hais... i dun noe wat 2 sae... 4 de past dae... watever happen realli piss me off la... bt i simply cn't sae aniting la... coz dat's their hak utk uat pape dey wan.. i cn't halang... terpulang la... if u wanna wait... den just wait... i dun force.. but pls dun alwaes get piss off or bingit or jealous over other guys... dat's realli irritating...

3rd things 3rd...

actualli i've plan 2 go 2 changi beach 2dae but... it was cancel... i'm de 1 wh cancel it la.. coz zalikha sae dere gt lipan... i was like huh?? realli... ar nk go dere... u noe .. just 2 tenang kn my fikiran.... nvm.. i do enjoy my outing 2dae... tanx okie... wakaka... realli enjoy it... bt onli 1 things dat change my mood off.... perasaan cemburu... it realli piss me off... REALLI... i wun stop ppl frm loving me... having feelings 4 me... but pls... respect my decision... I DUN WANNA GO INTO RELATIONSHIP 4 DE TYME BEING.....
pls understand dat... i realli u care & love me... try & nvr gif up 2 win my heart... dun rush all de things... take 1 step @ a time.... let me tell u...
PERASAAN CINTA 2 AKAN DTG DGN SENDIRI NYE... DERE'S NO NID 4 US TO LIKE FORCE IT...

4th things 4th...

tanx 2 my fwns dat was dere 4 me wen i realli nid dem... hais... realli so touched wen i noe dat dey are realli dere 4 me... luv dem 2 pieces....

guess dat i'll stop here... i'll do smth abt my lappie & hopefulli everitin goes smoothly 4 me... kekekeke... tyke care people... luv ya....

back 2 update my blog...

1stly i was so saded coz 'HE' realli ignore me... hais... leaving me 4ever... =((
tkpe la... org da de 'ORG ' baru kn... nk uat pe... as long as 'HE's' hapie den okie wif me...
i dun mind 2 b de 1 whu's suffering... hais...

2ndly i'm so sorie 2 'HYM' coz i tink i hurt u... & yah... dis person is so nice 2 me... yerp... care alot 4 me... understand me... alwaes b dere 4 me... how i wish i cn b wif dat kind of person....
but well klau de jodoh tk kn ke mane pe rite.... i noe u're jealous over 'DIE' but cum on...
u haf my word... slagi i'm nt attached... i still cn b fwn wif ani1... no 1 will stop me... nt even 'DIE'... lagipun 4 de time being i cn't accpt ani1 in my life... i'm nt prepare 4 all dis again...

hais... i'll con't updating later la hor... wanna go bath n mit bestie... keke... tyke care peeps...

once again... i'm sorie... 4 wat i've done... =((

i'M bored 2da3.. so yaH... tinkin of updating my blog lor... kekke...

ytd wen out 4 shoppin.... wakaka... bt most of de things i wanna buy dun haf.... saded =((
de onli things dat i bought was a long necklace & 1 levis jeans... & yah... my sista present... bought 4 her dat top frm topshop... hope she like it... kekeke...

wen all over de place 2 search 4 my things bt all cannot find.... hais... pity bestie.. must all de way here & dere... she totalli tired la all de way... wakaka... sowie eh gurl... bt realli appreciate her... i was so hapi la... even 4 dat onli 1 dae... i realli enjoy myself...

tot of goin out wif her again... bt den hais... cancel... nvm la... wat 2 do... nxt time cn hang out again... mish hanging out @ our usual lepakin place ... haisss.. time flies so fast... everithing haf bcum memories liao... MEMORIES DAT'S DIFFICULT 4 ME 2 4GET ABT IT... hais.... okie la... enuf liao... stop here...

tyke care okie ppl... tata... =))

feeL like LiFe is meaNing 4 m3..
i cn't 4get abt d pAst... d More i Try 2 4gEt abT iT de mOre i kEpt rmBriNg abT it...
haIs... diS is d worse nItemare... jusT feel like no1 is bY ma side... i'm like loosing everithin da I use 2 haf... saDness... =((

tmR will b 1 BoriN daE agaIn... haiS.. mY sis is werKin... xcepT mY 3rd sis.. she'S sick... bT mayB she's Goin ouT wiF her bF... deN left M3 aLone.. saD rIte... i dUn noe hOw i feel now...
totalli confused... y cn't i pUt all Dis awaY frM my liFe nOw?? i waNna 4get abT it bT i cn't.....

i'm so touch dat hidayah realli care abt me.. tanx dear 4 de advises dat u gave me all dis while..
appreciate it so much... insyaLLah we'll mit up 1 dae & spent time 2gether gether okie...

tink dat's all 4 2dae... tink i'm breakin down in ani minute... coz it's areadi 5 of march... hais..
memories... tyke care peeps... nites nites...

wassUp ever1....
hurhur... hmm... 2dae was realli bored 4 me.. all de way stayin @ home... BOREDNESS.... woke up den watCh tv... plaY game... slp... den watch cartoon... den decided 2 pick my sis up.. wakaka... touChin rite.. furthermore i mish my KIDS.. yup... saw sum of dem just now.... yup2...

wen 2 limbang mac 2 haf dinner wif sis... we shared de meal la since both haf no appetite 2 eat... noe wat... both of us gt balloons frm one of my fwen... so swit la.. btw tanx hor... evey1 was like lookin @ us.. wakaka.. paiseh sia,... hahah...

now i'm totalli bored... nth 2 do... sian le... i tink i saw hym just now @ ikha's void deck... i just cn feel dat was hym & de rest of de guys... furthermore dey were lookin @ my direction... hmmm mayb yes mayb nope... aiyo.. dun care la... hehehe... i nid 2 move on... i haf 2... hais... i nid 2 pay more attention 2 my studies... i cn't slack liao.. if nt anwar will b goin 2 nag n nag @ me... wakaka... dis time no more playin... i dun wanna repeat... hmmm...

i just dun understand y cn't i just 4get abt hym even i haf more den enuf ppl 2 replace hym... y cn't i tyke hym off my heart...??? hais......

cn't wait 2 go out wif bestie dis tues... weeeee... cn go shoppin...
tyke care ppl.... =))

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2dae is just a normal dae 4 me... morning go werk.. @ nite cum back ... mon-fri like dat...
but nvm.. my time is filled up... now my life is damn empty... my heart shattered into pieces...
dis time i realli fall.. flat onto de ground... sob2... y must all dis happens??? i dun understand y...
i kept cryin last few daes wen i rmbred all his promises... swit words... all lies.. smue janji mlayu...
had a difficult time to get myself back... ppl might tink i'm okie but it's onli de outside... inside..
onli god noes... hais... de wae i bring myself ard haf change too.. dat i noe... i'm more pampered now a daes.. all bcoz of wat i'm suffering now.. & my sistaz noe dat... dey realli tyke care of me..
i'm so touch... awwww... kekekkeke... ni la akibat klau kecik2 main api... skrg mkn diri sendiri...
kept rmbring wat my abg saes... "good tings onli cum once" noe den i agree wif him... it's true...
but i dun do tings on purpose... past is past..
i dun noe whether i cn go thru all dis again... dis time i'm loosing my fwen,bestfwen & also my bf @ shot... i'm so weak now... y must it b hym??? sob2... dis is de worse nightmare i've ever haf....
watever la... i shall drag myself 2 move on... even it's so hard... shall live wif de momories dat's left behind.... tyke care peeps....

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siMplY nTh 2 sAe... haiS...

siNce 2 daes i've bEen workiN @ dis chIldcare... de kids are so de naughty... stuborn sum more... makan darah ... everitime must shout... hais... buT sumtime i gt n heart 2 scold dem... dey so cute la.. handsome some more my N2 kids... wakakaka.... love dem loads... de gud thingy is dat all of my student luv me... wakaka... i juz wanna spend time wif dem b4 i go off frm dat skul... hais.. i just wish i dun nid 2 leave dem ....sobx2... but nvm.. hopefulli i'll get dat another job @ another ctr ard yck... yup2...

hmmm... i mish my fwns... my w15b & w25H peeps... boohoohooo... hais... hopefulli dey are just fine... & bestie... she alwaes MIA frm me 1... hais... ppL tag her den dun wanna reply back.. hhmppfff.... dun wan 2 tag animore... majok....

i nid sum1 2 guide me in life... i so all alone... i'm confused over so many things... how cn i overcum all dis???? y must life b like dis 4 me???! i just wan all dis 2 stop... PLEASEEE... =(

i'm back 2 upDate mY poOr Blog here.. hurhur... since mY deaR azie ask me 2 upDate so heRe it gOes...

2dae waS reaLii a Sad daE 4 me.. 4 sUm reaSon... guesS i'LL keep It 2 mySelf... hais...
as 4 weRk 2daE.. i was suPer bZ la... de Gud paRt is dat MaNy ppL bOuGht mY thIngs.. weeee... sO haPi la.. bUT gT sO manY cuStomer 2 EnterTain loR... hais.. Mcm2 keREnah seh...
haD luNch aLOne... as Per nOrmaL... siNce mY sisTa nT werKin.. enDed werK @ ard 9pm... deCided 2 drOp @ cck... dUn noe y... jUst waNNa feEl de wiNd @ nite.. sO cooLing & maKe me feeL so Calm... luV it... siNce i've alOt probS in miNd... hais.. feeL lIke bUstiNg off 1 dae... hais.. nvr...

after reaChed home... wasH up & till Now i'm inFront of mY lappie... kekeeeke... i reaLLi mish mY bestIe uh... hais... wen wIll she b freee & laYan me Back.. sob2... so Lonely de....
okie la... guess i'll stop here.. wanna Rest coZ tmr i'm werkiN... cn't wait 2 c my LiTTle students.. hurhur... tyke care Peeps...

@ last i get 2 log on 2 bLogger... de iNternet so De down sIa.. cannot go webSites... onlI cn Online.. stupid sia...

2daE last daE liaO... wakaka... yay!!!! sO now StartIn 2 WerK liaO... weee... kekeke...
mUst eArn $$$... wanna gO shOppiN.... sAve uP 4 mY caR lisenCe... yup2... hopefuLLi my sistaz wiLL top up suM 4 me... weeee... kekke....

ytd werk tIll 9.30 pm.. tiRed sIa... mY leg daMn paiN la... duN noe y.. tIll i cn'T slP seh... slP arD 3am.. kepT waKin uP coz Of de Pain la... deN nOw mY leg sTill paiN le... so Sad la... hais...

lessoN sO siaN... tOk so mUch... nOn- stupid hIts seh... reaLLi caTch nO ball... wakakka... 2dae gT sum1 wear fOrmal sia... wakkaa... he did wear sia... gud2.. hope daT can tyke picture uh...
deN cn upload.. hehehee...

okie la... stopping my crap here... heheheh... btw all de best 2 bestie 4 her exam soon... yup2.. confirm she Cn do iT.. jIa yOU...

tyke care ppl....

counting down 2 my hols... weeee.... wahaha... den cn go work...work...work.... wakakaka....
life quite miserable 4 me now... everthin is goin haywire... i'm sooo de weak now... hais....
reallli like no life.... nvm... mayb dere's smth bhind wat haf happen 2 me all dis while... yup2...

skul was slack since every1 like alreadi in hols mood... hahhaa... including ME... kakakaaka...
i just muz being myself... de bubbly side of me.. realli... hais... 2dae laugh non-stop wif dat Raihanah la... i noe dat i'm gonna b cryin @ nite... dere4 i decided 2 cheer up myself wif ma fwens... kakkawakka...

Rozy's burfdae is coming sooonnn... kekeke... another 2 more daes she'll b de same age wif me... wahhh... da besar seh... stay tune 2 no more abt her... 2 b con't....

supposedly 2dae WE [ me, syahmi, fana ] go play pool 2gether lor.. hais... den it was cancelled.. i'm soo de super duper sad la... my plan was trash and down 2 de drain... sob2... y must dis happen everytime/???? i realli miz those time when WE play & compete playin pool... it was so fun... REALLI... & now.. it's all left wif memories... y cn't it con't happening??? I MISH PLAYING POOL... WIF THEM.... sob..sob..sob...

valentine is cumin... yup2.. many ppl will b so xcited abt it.... bt me.. i'm scared... in this condition of mine relationship... i'm scared dat history might repeat itself again... i dun wan... i dun wan 2 fall again... 4 de 3rd time...

dat's all i guess.. by de wae... i mish him so much... sob2..

hey dere peeps... hahahakk....
super dupeer tired 2dae... but i'm happi... dat's de impt thing.. hehe... my leg super pain seh... stand de whole dae... wah... cannot tahan sia... jusz reach home 20 mins ago... yups... quite bz juz now... c ppl shoping like veri jealous lor... i oso wanna shop... hmpphhff... nvm... wanna noe wat... de ppl dere all so happy 2 c me... so happy dat dey welcum me wif an open hand sia.. hehehe...

tmr work morning shift... by 10.30 muz b dere... go out 9.30am... wah.. earli sia... confirm canot wake up... hais... lazy la... after werk go watch 'Cicak Man'... wahahah... wif my sistaz, mum & nenek... but den i'll b damn tired la.. confirm abis lambat... den go mkn... de nxt dae skul liao.. hais.. can't PON liao... later bestie nag & nag & nag... wahaha... coz she care alot2 4 me... lub her so much... hehe....

realli miz him alot... i'm nt used nt 2 msg him wenever i go out or wat.. hais.. feel so serbe salah plk... hais.. nta la... dun noe wen everthin will go back 2 normal.... till wen i must b alone... till wen he dun wanna mit me... till wen i must ignore him... hais... I'M SO CONFUSED.... realli ....
just wish dat he was dere wen i nid him... but i wun ever happens... i dun noe y...

i'll wait till u realli realli ur mistake... even it will takes wks .. mths ... or even yrs... insyallah... hopefulli my patience dun is still dere uh...

azie : tanx 4 de 'bad' msg... uat suspend btl... wahahha.... juz wanna sae 'THANK YOU' 4 de help... tyke care of ur self okie... mish ya...

sadded.... didn't went 2 skul 2dae... i gt fever after ytds incident.. hais... nasib i onli pon once.. so now twice liao... heheh.. nxt week last liao... end of 1yr.. weee.. hurhur... goin 2nd yr liao... but i'm nt prepare... 2 much probs den later cn't concentrate...

slackin @ home... still doing my PR...[ dun noe cn ask me ] still dun understand y everting must happen... i'm alwaees tryin 2 make dis relationship goin bt it's also me whu suffers... nvr do i onli mit my bf once a week... even my x werkin or wat he still mit me more den 4x a wk... ni baru skwl... bsk2 da keje.. once a mth agak nye umpe... hais... tk paham btl... i wan 2 noe de REAL reason y he alwaes dun wan 2 mit me??? y ?? klau da mls or jelak den tk yah uh mit... nape kene kasi alasan...??

fine la.. tk nk mit suda... i'll keep myself bz alwaes... go out wif other ppl.. if i gt anithin i dun go find u... find other ppl... since everitime i nid u ur far2 away frm me..

hopefully tmr i'll b okie... coz i'm werkin... yups.. FIXED wkend job.... b4 12 feb, i'll b finding job 4 hols... 2 mths.. yeepiee... hopefulli i'll b hapi 4 dat 2 MTHS la hor... hehe...

tyke care ppl...

2 azie: u dun understand de situation dat i'm goin thru'.... tink dat my's worse compare 2 urs... so do tyke care of ur relationship okie... + ur health...

I'M SO HURT... I'M SO DOWN... I'M SO SADED... I'M SOOOOO... EMOTIONAL EFFECTED BY ALL DIS THINGY DAT'S HAPPENING 2 ME.... SOB2..

THE TRUE IS DAT I REALLY MISH U... DUN WAN 2 ARGUE WIF U... BUT Y MUST ARGUEMENT TAKE PLACE EVERITIME??? YYYY?? =(

ANI1 PLEASE TELL ME... SADNESS.... =( I'M SO CONFUSED... AM I TOO NICE OR TOO BAD??

elo ppl... been a long time didn't update... just feelin so depressed over things... hais.. every1 is pressurizing me... just gt no 1 2 tok 2 wen i gt probs... realli... ader matair 24/7 bz... onli left me alone... sadness...

but so 4tunate 2 haf abg man la... tok 2 him dis few daes... i've let every single things out frm my heart yg slame ni i keep & nvr let out... everytime i reply his e-mail... i alwaes cry... cn't take it... realli... i just feel dat i'm realli ALONE in dis world.. hais... did get advises frm him but most of them ive done them but result still de same... @ least there's sum1 dat is willing listen 2 me... dat's i'm in need ... sum1 dat cn console me.. b by ma side... especially HIM... but seems dat it's not happening...

tryin 2 make maself happy by making stupid jokes, spoting rai & syahril's mistake... wahahah... dey realli make my dae.. i mayb laughing but actualli i'm just dooing dat 2 just cover up my sorrows... onli sum1 dat noes me will noe... yup... dat's me...

going 2 haf hols soon... gonna work & make my shedule veri de pack so i cn 4get all my probs & enjoy life.... dat's wat i wanna do... i wan 2 werk 24/7... wan 2 make myself as bz as possible... i'm so lonely.... boohoohoo.... :(

tyke care ppl...