60% of kesabaran left.....
decreasing bit by bit...
day by day...
goSh....

nt being myself nowadaes....
kiping quite.....
stone-ing....
being too crazy & irritating....
dat realli nt me....
hais....

cnt concentrate doing things....
my mind jst dun function as normal....
like jst nw...
chat wif my dear yana bt i type things dat's in my mind...
random....

2 my brother zaki.....
tanx for being so concern abt me...
appreciate it very the much...
& making me laugh all de wae during the breakouts....

nw i feel like smoking....

tiredness...
just got back home.....
wkends was fun 4 me.....
mit fah for the 1st time...
nice guy .... funny.... cute....
dat's my 1st impression for hym la...
hmmm....

been tinking abt wat mus said ytd....
mayb dis shud end sooner or later....
he feels bad n so do i....
but i just dun wan 2 hurt ppl's feelings....
i noe hw it feels wen dat happens....
gosh.... dilemma seh....
watever it is...
i respect ur decision la daddy....
as long as ure happy....
i'll try 2 b hapi 2...
insyallah.....

dis question suddenli pop-up in my mind....
haf i really move on frm hym ???
y cnt i just sae a 'YES' wen ppl ask???
wat's wrong wif me???

a few more minutes syafiq turning 19 liao....
hopefully he like the present and the small celebration ...
was quite rushing la....
poor planning but end up to be a nice one....
will update some of the pictures later....
hehehe.....

lab was fun.... hahaha...
did experiments that i myself dun understand...
hahaha... funny rite,....
but i can help max write the report... LOL...
took pic wif adelyn n my haira....
funnnnn!!!

y must he show temper to ppL whu's nt at fault??
hais.... nearly broke down just bcoz of hym...
he just me feel as if i make a mistake....
tried 2 comfort hym but failed....
i just let hym be like that....
effort nt appreciated....
sadedning.....

breaking down since he msg me ytd....
once a while i just feel like crying....
he alwaes sae,"pegi la cari pengganti...."
does he have feeling??? or is he so damn heartless??

asalamualaikum.....

here i wanna sae dat....
i'm sori for avoiding ppl ....
but it's just so complicated....
i'm still a fwn of ur for sure......
dat's wat i can ensure you alwaes....

feel so bad for make ppl feel so small....
dat's y i hate 2 hurt pple's feeling....
feels so bad doing dat...
but wat i can do??
dat's life & i nid 2 adapt 2 it...

'berhenti mengharap'.....
dis phrase realli remains me of the past....
yah... realli i does....
i still do miss hym sometime....
hais...

will time heel de wounds???
it's true???

deadlY tirEd . . . . . . .

coNfusioN . . . . .

dEad . . . .

lOst . . . . . .

bOOOoooOO!!!!

1stli i'm soooo de soRi dat thIngs gOes wrOng jst nw....

i'll maKe it uP oTey oNe dae....

2ndlI i had a GreAt time 2Dae gOin oUt wiF mY HI-6 cLan...

hehe.. nIce naMe hUh... uNiqUe....

aniWae... wen fUnAn 2 haF diNNer....

den weN 2 HaF beN & jeRRy afTer daT....

heaVen!!!!

afTer whIch weNt esPlanaDe 2 LEPak....

ramai sIak mat REp... reMas dOk...

hahaha....

kepT takiNg piCs here n DerE,...

fuNN !!!

bUt thOse piCs mUsrt waIt 4 nUruL 2 uPloAd....

" NURUL CPT LA UPLOAD!!!"

oVeralL... i juSt love dIs pIc... nIce!!!!

DAT'S YANA & FAEZA.....

camat pagy peoPle!!!!

tyke care......

bYe.....!!

areNt being myself nwadeas....

halF oF me is nT here....

missIng somethin bit by bit....

but i'm not sure wat it is....

hais....

assalamualaikum to all....
hahaha....
was slacking @ home all de wae.....
sian la sial!!!
i wanna go out wif haira....
girl....!!! dun 4get our date dis fri....
hahaha....

wen out 2 mit bestie....
miss her lots....
talk abt peribahase dat she herself gt it wronng...
so funny la her.....
eventhough it was jst a while i do treasure it.... =)

at last i noe wat's happening....
good thing it was settle....
1 less thing to tink abt nw....

random thoughs...
i miss going 2 skul nw....
miting my fwns & faciS....
crazy-ing wif my cLans...
lepak-ing wif them...
talking craps....
disturbing ppl.....
gosh....
=(

pelik la FAEZA!!!!
ape kene tah ni bdk....
tsk2....
mayb bcoz of de fever dat i had dis morning....
i dun wanna fall sick pleaseeee!!!

kept missing hym dis few daes....
random siak FAEZA!!!!!!!!
wat does dat mean den???
wat haira sae might be true but....
nta la... tk perlu seh ni smue....
dun wan to spoilt wat i haf nw by all dis stupid things....
nt worth after all...
hais....
dis is sux... bodoh la...!!!!
can i just act as if nth happen??
till wen can i endure all dis & lying 2 myself ni FAEZA???
haiyooo!!!!
or shud i just dump dat feeling into de laut dlm2...??
hmmmm....
tink faeza tink tink!!!!
sob2....

saded!!! i mish eating my ben n jerry ice cream..... =(
can i have dat on fri PWISH HAIRA!!!
hahahaha....

ohhhh yah.....
y mst i gado wif hym??
wat a question he posted 2 me seh....
i'm so de innocent le...
god pleasee!!!
i dun wan dat 2 happen....
small kid scared....

nid 2 slp earli le...
if nt he'll nag n nag @ me...
hehehe....
camat mlm....!!!

decided to blog at this time....
I LUV DIS PICX & I LUV MY ADEQ HAIRA 2!!!!
hahaha... took dis @ ben n jerry nye kedai...
had my fav ice cream.... YUMMY2!!!!
den as per nrml lepak wif my dis giler fwn of mine...
crappin & laughing....
onli us making hell out of noise dere...
take picx was de best part lor....
den back 2 wdlds 4 tuition....

lol.... goshh... i'm werking later yet haven slp...
FAEZA!!! wat's de hell happening to u????
dun emo2 la faeza.... tsk2....
smth just doesnt goes rite for me.....
de feeling is so de nt good....
ani1 cn jst tell me y???
sobx2.....


been working all dis while.... keje2 till naik mendak seh.... bt wat to do.... rather den rotting...
so yah.... here am i werking non stop.... bt gt money later 2 shop2.... wEE!!!!
2dae was a shockin dae 4 me coz my DADDY came 2 mit me @ workplace....
been awhile dat i met hym n jst nw i really was happy 2 mit hym lor....
bt rite it's just so complicated la..... damn confusing.....
dat's wen confusion occurs.....
hahah...
MEREPEK LA FAEZA....!!!!

life startin 2 get more painful n irritating at times....
like wat my DADDY sae i'm just nt readi 2 accpt ppl....
bt in my heart i tink i've found some1 dat fit it my heart....
BUT.....
mayb it might not be de right person....
i just scared to be hurt again ....
trust me... i'm TIRED!!!

dae after dae i'm missing something in my life....
de feeling of incompletance is alwaes dere....
n it's sux 2 de max,....

sometime i just sit n thought for a moment...
wat i wan i life.....???
since wen is faeza an emo kid...???
adakah silapku untuk menyintai dirimu??
will dere be hope or shud i just dun bother abt it???

i wonder.....
all left unwritten....
damn it!!!

will i be able to leave evey single past of mine behind and look at de bright side nw???
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onli god noes it.....

happy reading okie adeq.... n camat pagi 2 u...!!! =)