FiSh & cO dAte wiF 2nD siS, bIL & liL' nEphEw....

SumMarIsiNg evErytHing, tOdaY wAs a FinE daY... BeeN lauGhinG & smiLing thRu oUt tHe daY... MoRniNg wAs abIt uPseT abOut tHe thIngs haPpenS tHe dAy bEfOre.. BuT manaGe tO jUst pUt iT bhInd & pReteNd eVerythIng wAs fIne... ReAch wErk aS uSuaL & rouTinE sTarts... NeVer tOt tHat smTh miGht hAppEN tO makE my daY bEttEr.. 1 mSg wEnt iN & it stAted "gd mOrniNg"... SimPle mSg daT reAlly makE mE fEel happY thRu oUt mY daY... ThAnk yOu fOr stIll bEing thEre fOr mE... I juS wiSh yOu wuD nVr gO aWay tOo faR fRm mE... ThOugh i nOe i wuNt gEt aniThing fRm yOu bUt uR pResenTs iS enUf tHat i cUd aSk fROm yOu... WoRk wAs as pEr noRmaL tOday... YoUr msGes kEpT mE accOmpanIed... WAs tOtallY enjOyinG mYselF.. SmiLing & lauGhing in my hEart... At tHe sAme tIme dOing mY werk tIll i dUn reAliSe iT wAs luNch tIme... YoUr caLl, yOur vOice, yOur woRds tElls mE smTh Dat i nVr expEct u tO fEeL by nOw... YoU sTill miSs mE tHoughT at first u nVr tOld mE tHat... I juSt wiSh daT yoUre dEre bSide mE... I tOtaLly forgEt abOuT mY pRobs suDdenLy.. FelT so pEacefUl fOr tHat mOment... HW i wish tHat wud hapPen evEry siNgle dAy... 1 hR bEfOre 6pm, sMall bOss annOunCed a gOOd nEws tO mE... 2 cOnfiRm orDers cAme iN... AlMost 1 wk oF werKing & 4 conFirm orDers i gT... DAt's rEally a nOt baD stArt fOr Me.. ThOugh it wAs quiTe touGh at fiRsT bUt i nVr gaVE uP.. JuSt liKe wAt yOu tOld mE tO... EnCourAging mE... CoNsoLe mE wEn iM dOwn... YOu rEallY heLp mE oUt oN tHat .. ThNK yOu tO yOu... YOu puT in aN eFfoRt juSt tO maKe mE happY... YoU nVr gaVE uP tO makE mE smiLe... HOw i wiSh dEre's sOme1 ouT dEre daT cUd dO liKe wAt yoU are dOing... HOw i wIsh dat hIs cUd dO tHings tHat yOu're dOing nOw fOr mE... HOw i wish mY wiShes arE cOming tRue.. BRoTher iN lAw wAs asKing mE wAt iM pLanIng foR mY fuTUre... MY anS wAs siMpLe... GEt my dEgRee, cOnt wIf mAstEr & wOrk... MaYb cUd cOnt iF i cUd affOrt tO... WHy noT rItE... BuT hE sAes," so aRe yOU gOinG tO b jSt attAcH wIf hiM w/o anI cOmmiTmEnts???" I jSt kEpt siLencE... I tOld hIm daT i wAsNt reAdy fOr all tHis... I dUn noE iF hE's tHe oNe fOr mE... He hasNt b pRovIng tO mE dat hE iS tHe oNe i sHud b wiF... Im sTill havIng dOubts abOut hIm... ThOugh wE're alReadY 2 yeArs plUs toGethEr... BrO iN laW jSt tOo sPeecHlEss tO saY aniThinG... wat hE onLi saY daT i cnt chAnGe a pErsoN buT oNly tHe pErson caN cHange bY tHemself... TotaLly agRee wiF hIm buT daT jS dIdnT hElp in solVing tHe pRoblEm at aLl... StIll hangIng... DiNner wAs gReat... ThOugh i noE i wAs abiT upSet whEn siSter & bRothEr in lAw wAs alWaes askIng abT hIm... TrIed tO noT shOw tHe sAd paRt oF mE.. PRetEndiNg... LIl' nEphEw wAs tHe oNly pErsoN wHo mAke mE lAuGh & foRgEt abOut eVerythIng.. HE's mY eVerytHing.. & i lOve liL' nEpHew sO mUch!!! & i dO miSs yOu at tHe saMe tIme... WENt fOr a wAlk afTer diNner cOz tOo fUll.. WEnt kiDdy palAce... LiL' nephEw fAv pLace tO shOp... JSt loVe tHe sMilE & laUghtEr... MY sWeeTesT dRug... SIstEr mEnTioN iF i WannA mIt hIm afTer dInnEr buT i sAid i WannA gO hOme... SHe saId dAt i sHud maKe tHings rIght bTwEen hiM & mE... WAt iF tHingS bOth oF uS dSNt wOrk oUt... My gRanDMa wIll b sAd.. BUt y mUst ppL b sAd wEn i mySelf am sAd bCoz oF hIm??? JUst bCoz oF ppl dAt i lOve liKe hIm, dA mEans i niD tO gIf in & eNduRe eVerYthIng... DaT's sOoo unFaiR... No dOubTt eVeryOnE wIll loVe hIm cOz hE gOT tHe plUs poInt deRe.. HE noES hW tO ReSpeCt elDerlY, hE gT a gD chaRacTer, looKs... BUt wAt abOuT tHe wAy hE trEatEd mE??? NoboDy noEs... HaiX... I jUst wiSh i cUd rAn awAy fRm all tHis loNgEr... HOw i wiSh i cUd lEave all The pRobLems behInd... HOw i wiSh gOd cud fulFill all mY wiShes... I jUst wAnna b haPpy & smiLe & noT faKing & pUting on a SmiliNg maSk... It's sO nOt hEaltHy... VEry... VerY... NoT hEalThy... IF oNly hE wuD cHange, tHings will b bEtter.. If oNli i cUd tUrn bCk tIme, i wuD cHoose tO b siNgle... If oNli i cUD dO all dAt, i'll b a hAppy bubbly smAll gIrl... IF oNly....